i wanna be LOVED not PLAYED! [HIATUS]

//Chapter 46* I'm trying to...

I wanna be LOVED not PLAYED! Chapter 46 I’m trying to…

Kinuha ko na yung hand carry ko at yung bag kung saan nandun yung mga gamet ko so two bags lang ang dala ko for our vacation. Ayoko mag-dala ng masyadong gamit kase hassle eh’ ang hirap pa lalo’t commute lang ata kame? I dunno.

“ATE SAB!! NANDITO NA SI KUYA JADRIEN!!”  diko alam pero kinabahan ako, hindi na ko sumagot dahil sa kabado ako diko alam pero my hand were shaking >.<” an’yare ba saken?! Tch.

Bumaba na ko at nakita kong nandun sa living room si Jadrien nakaupo while talking to Thalia. Nung napansin nila yung presensiya ko tumayo agad si Jadrien “Let’s go?”  And he smiles at me. Nawala yung pagka-kaba ko… nginitian ko nalang siya. He gets my things and takes it to his car.

“Thalia, Lock your door when we leave okay? Tito Khier texted me na papunta na daw yung susundo sayo dito.”

“Okay… enjoy your vacation Ate Sab, wag mokong intindihin ditto enjoy mo lang yun! Basta pasalubong ko pag-uwi mo ah?! ^0^”

“Okay… bye Baby.”  I kissed her cheeks.

“Bye Thalia… Take care!” -Jadrien

“Bye Ate Sab, Bye Kuya Jadrien! ENJOY!!!”  And she waved her hand.

“Ready?”  I felt Jadrien hold my hand and asked me, my heart skipped a beat, and smiling widely, I nodded. And he starts the car.

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|PABI|

"Nice shot! Okay, we will continue this photoshoot tomorrow. Thank you Miss Princess. You'll be next to Miss Michelle."

"Thank You Sir."  pumunta na ko sa room ko to get my things and change my dress.

For the past months eto na ang ginagawa ko. pinagpatuloy ko na talaga ang modeling career ko. Ayokong pate tong kagustuhan kong maging isang star model eh’ kunin saken, ditto ako masaya kaya eto ang gagawin ko.

Eto na nga lang ang natitirang kaligayan ko hindi na ako papayag pang kunin din saken to. In this way, I could forget HIM. In this way, I can make myself happy even I know there is a part of me longing for Him. There still a part of me saying that hindi pa din ako nakaka-move on. I know its sucks because it’s been a year since He left me.

“Princess…”

I look at him. Since the day that he came back to me, he’s always there to help me to move on and live na kahit wala Siya. He’s always there to guide me, He’s always there to care and love me, and even I can’t reciprocate his feelings for me.

“Kirby.”  And I smile, but I know this smile is just a mask, I know deep inside of me malungkot pa din ako kahit na isang taon na ang nakalipas. Sa isang taon nay un, nagging miserable ako, at hindi ko alam kung paano ako bumalik sa dating ganto na masigla. I’m so grateful to have my best friend Sabrina, to have Kirby and to have Jadrien, Michelle and my other co-models.

“may gagawin kapa ba?”

“hmm. Wala nman. Why?”

“Let’s have a dinner?” and he smile, I just nod. Kinuha na niya yung gamit ko na puro laman ay dress and other stuffs na ginagamit ko sa pang-model.

I don’t know kung anong status namen ni Kirby. I’m just happy to have him, to be with him.  Lalo na’t sa mga panahon na kelangan ko ng shoulder ma masasandalan, kelangan ko ng panyo na iiyakan.