Hope is Gone | SOPE [completed]

TWENTY FOUR : There will be Hope

trigger warning :

there will be some mentions of bleeding/blood in this chapter so please proceed with caution.

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"Seokie, I got you your coffee~" Yoongi chirped as soon as he entered Hoseok's office located in the company building.

He thought about buying him coffee since it's been a long time ever since he drank one. Given that Hoseok's health has been excellent these last several days, it serves as a sort of reward. A small sip of coffee won't hurt, he thought.

"Hoseok?" Yoongi called for Hoseok's name once again as he didn't hear him respond back, just like how he usually does when he enters the office.

There's no response, Hoseok just stayed sitting on his office chair.

Yoongi's worry heightened when he saw Hoseok has his head hanging low, but he can barely see him because of the computer monitor blocking his view. Both of Hoseok's hands were cupped on his face, not making a sound.

He was just.. Silent. It was a scary type of silence. Therefore, Yoongi became alarmed. His instinctive reaction was to rush over to check on him, and when he did, what he discovered shocked him.

"Hoseok, what happened!?" The nurse screamed in terror when he peeled off Hoseok's hands from his face.

Hoseok's eyes was half lidded and yellowing, his nose and mouth was leaking with buckets of bloods which reached the collar of his uniform and stained the papers scattered on his table.

"Fuck, Mr. Kim! Why aren't you looking after him!? I told you to look after him while I'm gone!" Yoongi didn't mean to yell that bad, but due to his shock, he couldn't contain himself.

He's already crying, tears have already started pouring out of his eyes as he hugged Hoseok against his chest. The feeling of touching Hoseok's body was like he's vegetated, like a withered plant who can no longer hold onto its roots.

"I-I'm sorry, I was logging some paperworks—" Namjoon stood up from his chair when he realized what was happening. He noticed his boss' bloody face buried on Yoongi's chest, the blood staining the white material of his uniform.

"Call an ambulance, please, please, help me, help Hoseok." Yoongi started mumbling. He hugged Hoseok tighter, desperately attempting to pass on his body heat to him as the latter was shivering uncontrollably.

"I'm sorry." Namjoon apologized in panic, he was cursing himself as he started dialing the emergency hotline of the local hospital, he felt incredibly irresponsible as he failed Yoongi's request to keep an eye on their boss.

Yoongi just nodded, understanding that Namjoon also has own matters in his hand. Hoseok also didn't make a noise, that's probably why Namjoon never noticed until Yoongi screamed.

"Hold on for me, baby, please? Namjoon-ssi is calling the ambulance." The nurse assured, running his hand across Hoseok's hair.

Hoseok, although bleeding profusely and his surroundings was a total blur, he was aware about all the chaos unfolding in the office.

He wanted to talk, he wanted to reach his hand out to wipe the tears off of his baby's face but he couldn't.

He couldn't do anything. He couldn't put himself to mutter a word or move a muscle, he couldn't do anything to comfort the crying male in front of him. He felt bad, he felt heavy.

He felt worthless.

Hoseok only felt guilty since Yoongi was crying so hard over what was happening to him. The anguish he is experiencing right now cannot outweigh the shame he is experiencing.

He already made Yoongi cry just in this state, what more if he dies? Yoongi might not take it.

"I will try holding on for you. Don't cry."

Hoseok longed to tell the older male those words, but he was unable to.  All he can do right now was to lean his head against Yoongi's chest as blood and tears slowly trickles down his neck.

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Hoseok's been in the hospital for a week and he woke up from a two day coma just three days ago, Doctor Kim says he needs to stay in the hospital until he fully recovers his body strength.

Doctor Kim also has something to say regarding his cancer, but he's waiting until Hoseok is in a better state to process what he's about to say.

The past few days was hard for Yoongi. He felt nothing but sadness, he did nothing but to cry. Hoseok wouldn't talk to him even though he can already speak proper sentences.

Yoongi doesn't understand why Hoseok won't talk to him but he's waiting, but it's possible that the man is only conserving energy because he is still somewhat frail. Losing so much blood like that is difficult.

Today is the day that Doctor Kim will finally tell them the news about Hoseok's disease and Yoongi's already dreading it.

Yoongi just finished feeding Hoseok. It was strange, but as he was feeding him, Hoseok kept giving him uncomfortable long stares until he had enough of it he had to ask why was he doing it.

Hoseok just shook his head in response and tried to put his gaze elsewhere, away from the male in front of him.

Yoongi doesn't know it, but Hoseok is actually ashamed of himself. All he's just thinking about is that he doesn't deserve Yoongi crying over him.

"Good afternoon, guys." Doctor Kim greeted as he entered the hospital room Hoseok's currently in.

Hoseok weakly smiled back while Yoongi stood from his seat to bow at the doctor.

"Uhm so, I would've give you some cliché type of doctor prognosis speech like you know "I have a bad news and good news which one do you want to hear first?" but I figured that would be bad for the situation." Doctor Kim says, letting out a breathy laugh to relieve his nervousness.

Yoongi grimaced at this knowing what Doctor Kim will say will be a bad news and will most likely make Hoseok feel bad again.

"Go on, Seokjin-ssi, I wanna hear it." Hoseok spoke. His speech was slurred from scarcely speaking, and Yoongi found it painful to hear it.

"Well I'm gonna start by saying that the tumor got incredibly worst, Hoseok. T-The tumor's been eating your organs little by little that's why you've had that sudden bleeding through your mouth and nose a week ago."

Hoseok closed his eyes as he nodded, ready to take in whatever Doctor Kim has to say. He doesn't feel any type of physical pain right now and even internally. But he knows he's slowly deteriorating.

Whatever it is, he will have to accept it.

"Your pancreatic cancer got worst, Hoseok. It's already passed stage 4 and based on your vitals you only have 6 to 9 months to live."

Yoongi wasn't ready for that to be said. As he listened to the doctor, he could feel his entire world coming apart.

His mouth opened and closed inaudibly as his thoughts failed to manifest themselves into voice. His muscles moved itself to hold onto Hoseok's hand as both of them stared at eachother, their tears speaking for themselves.

"I'm sorry this has to happen. But this is all just a prognosis, okay? As of now, you both can go home to help you recover more quickly. I will call you both if I see some progress." It was the last sentence Seokjin spoke before he excused himself out of the hospital room.

"It's okay, Hopie. There will be hope, I know there will be hope." Yoongi cried openly then, head resting on both his and Hoseok's hands, his shoulders shaking as he lets out a succession of tears.

Hoseok couldn't cry, the sight of Yoongi crying broke him more than the news of his life expectancy decreasing.

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a/n :

short chapter! what do yall think hoseok's thinking about? 🤔🤔