The Distance Between Us

Ch 7. The Confession

I added a small part to the last chapter so if you don't mind checking that part out first to save any confusion. I hope you like, in advance

Y/N POV

(The same morning, one hour earlier )

I woke up, having not slept well at all the night before. I had an awful feeling that had come over me, I felt pained thinking about the Prince. I felt worried he was angry about the letter I had sent. Oh I had felt so foolish, what an embarrassment i had made of myself. But I missed him so much, just to have seen him for even a couple of minutes kept a memory alive in my head, I kept going back and seeing his face, his cute aloof expression when I had showed up. Oh the look he give, he made me feel so warm and content.

As I pulled myself down the stairs for breakfast I wondered if he would meet me again. I desperately wanted to know, but I knew it was a waiting game. The waiting was the hard part. I knew I couldn't do anything much about the situation but my heart knew what it wanted. .

After breakfast I went out first thing to collect the post and was met by Hobi again. "Hey y/n" he said. "How are you today ? Your still standing after meeting the Prince so closely yesterday"

I looked at him confused for a second, then remembered Hobi had no idea I knew Jungkook personally. I even thought hard now i should've reacted differently in front of him. "I'm still trying to believe it" I said, trying to look shocked. "Any post today?"

Hobi rummaged around and in his post bag. "Not today y/n. Have a good day" I sighed as he took off. No letter from Jungkook. Oh what had I done. Would he ever come and see me again.

I could barely eat breakfast and mother was scolding about wasting food. I apologised and said I must've been coming down with something and said I would go and feed the chickens and then take walk to get some fresh air. 

I left the house about to go towards the coop when I heard my name.
   "Y/N"

I swung my head around quickly hearing that familiar voice. In such sheer excitement I almost dropped the chicken feed. There he was, standing in the clearing of the trees. I set down the bucket and barely able to contain my self i ran towards him into his arms. We both stayed holding each other without saying anything, just feeling that physical closeness again.

When we finally parted, Jungkook looked at me, caressing my cheek and smiled "I had to come, once I read your letter I decided" he said. "I was never more happy when you showed up at the Palace"

I felt such content, knowing that I had done the right thing sending the letter and silently thanking mother in my head for unwillingly giving it to Hobi.

"The letter had been sent by mistake" I said blushing. 

"I'm glad it got to me. I had been so foolish staying away. I was just so wrapped up in my head about everything"Jungkook said, as we began walking. "Then when Jimin found out. What did he say by the way?"

"He was surprised. But he promised not to utter a word" I said. "I wouldn't worry too much about Jimin"  

"I too told my cousin about you, Prince Taehyung" Jungkook revealed. I looked at him concerned. "I trust him with my life. But I needed someone to confide in"

I was glad Jungkook had spoken to someone about me. It made me feel like he was really serious enough about me. It was a beautiful day, I was so happy to have him by me right now. When I had felt like he wouldn't return at all, when I felt like I'd embarrassed myself yesterday it was like a distant memory.

Jungkook stopped at the forest clearing and ushered me to sit down. We chatted for a long time and before we knew it, it had started to get dark.

I stood up aghast that it had turned to nightfall. I panicked about the chickens and the farm duties that had been neglected in my absence and started to ramble on to Jungkook and apologise that I would have to get back.

"Before we leave, I wanted to tell you something, something quite serious" Jungkook said, taking my hand, his whole demeanour changing. My heart started to race, what could he possibly have wanted to tell.

He looked anxious and could barely look me in the eyes.

"Jungkook?" I said. "What is it ?"

He looked at me his eyes filled with tears and held both my hands. "Last night there was a party my parents arranged" he began. "My parents have a suitor in mind, a Princess actually. Im not at all interested. But I'd been drinking and one thing lead to another and we ended up in my bedroom. We shared a kiss and things almost went further. But I stopped, told her to leave. Because I thought of you"

I stared at him in disbelief. I took in what I had just heard. I felt like someone had put a knife to my chest and ripped my heart out. My mind suddenly went to visions of him touching her all over. Someone so beautiful. More beautiful than me. Oh I felt sick. I stood up, shaking my head, why did this have to happen, oh I had thought he loved me.

"I can't believe you" I cried, turning to leave. I found myself sobbing heavily. I felt Jungkook wrap his arms around me from behind.

"Don't go" He said softly. "I need you"
I sighed. Allowing myself to go limp, he released his embrace and I turned around and looked into his dark eyes, glistening in the moonlight and with tears

"You kissed her, you wanted her" I cried.

"No no, I didn't" Jungkook said, I felt like what he was saying was genuine as he looked me straight in the eyes. "She will be gone now another year, it was a mistake what happened between her and I. I want us to be together. I see myself with you, going away together to spend more time privately. Would you think about it?"

"I'm not so sure" I sighed, gazing up at the moon. The scene was perfect. Stars twinkling, the sky a shade of blue and yellow and green hues. The moon peeking between the trees. But yet my heart felt broken, images flashing in my mind I could not erase. Thinking of his lips touching hers, etched into my mind like carved in stone.

"Which part ?" Jungkook asked me. He took my hands. "I know your nervous about the future. But I really can't be with anyone else" 

"Your a Prince. I'm just a farm girl" I had said with tears welling up in my eyes. "I'll never be good enough for someone like you"

Jungkook looked frantic and grabbed my hands. "Your not leaving are you? Tell me you won't"

I didn't say anything for a second and sighed. "I want this more than you even, but I'm scared. I need time to think"

I ran from the forest. Jungkook calling after me, stood in the clearing of the forest. I looked back one more time, he sat down on a tree stump, his head in his hands sobbing.