Fate (Raulson Fanfic) [Slowly Editing]

Chapter 5: Winter Song

Warning: Smut and Feels ahead :)

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(Lily's POV)

"I was about to propose to you that night, but instead of hearing me out. You shut me out of your life."

It just kept on ringing inside my head; it's already been 27 days since she told me that, and still... I just can't get it out of my head. I'm such an idiot. I should've listened and none of this would've happened.

Sarah's being cold to me lately, she's avoiding me; she only talks to me whenever we're practicing our lines but other than that there's nothing. "She's trying to move on, and I am trying to hold on"

Yes, I'm truly happy and blessed to meet Milo and have him in my life, but without Sarah. I felt like there was a giant void in my heart; I feel empty. I feel nothing.

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It's the last day of shooting before going into Christmas break. We're finally going tape the Mid-Season Finale.

It's awkward, knowing that the script contains scene in which I'm going to have 'fucking' sex with her.

Milo drove me to work, he always does whenever he stays overnight in my house.

I kept on looking at him while he was driving, thinking about how I screw up everything and chose this man instead of the woman who I truly love.

The next thing I knew as I snapped out of my thoughts is that he had already pulled the handbreak as he parked the car in front of hotel Cecil.

"Babe is there anything wrong? You've been acting weird for almost a month now." He looked at me with his dark brown eyes, he was concerned. He always wanted me to smile or to feel better and he does find different ways to make me feel happy but... there's just... something that's lacking.

"I'm just tired," I sighed. "Anyway, can I ask you something?"

"Yep, what is it?"

"Promise me you won't talk about it to anyone okay? Ryan will fire me," I said biting my lower lip looking at him with my puppy eyes.

He chuckled "I won't."

"Promise?"

"Yeah, Promise."

"Cross your heart?"

"Cross my heart." we both smiled and share a laugh as I clear my throat and took his right hand holding it tight.

"Sarah...."

"What about Sarah?"

"I'm still in love with her." I mentally said to myself as I looked at him and smiled nervously.

"You see, my character is Annabelle and her Character Janis would have an *affair* because Annabelle's once supportive husband is being controlled by Wes' Character Father Dominic, and we have like... two sex scenes in this season. It's...."

He started to burst out laughing.

"What's so funny? Aren't you like jealous or something?"

"No! Of course not, I'd think it would be hot though, I'll be definitely be cancelling everything that lands on the day of AHS premiere just to go to the premiere with you, I want to see that!" He says wiping the tear of his face due to laughing so hard.

I slapped his shoulder playfully. "Could you please stop laughing, I'm embarrassed, millions of people will see it and I bet those 'Raulson' fans would get crazy. They're actually killing you in their fanfics I've read one." I look at him grinning.