Fate (Raulson Fanfic) [Slowly Editing]

Chapter (6): I Should Go

(Lily's POV)

"Babe? You okay?" He took my hand and squeezed it tight, I didn't realize that I was spacing out for I am still thinking about what happened that night after the mid-season finale shoot.

I looked at him over my shoulder and nod, forcing a smile to form on my face.

He wrapped his arms around my waist while he's still holding my right hand gently caressing it as he puts his head on my shoulder, kissing my neck softly as he whispered

"Do you want a spring wedding? Or a summer wedding?"

Isn't he taking this too fast?

"I... I'm thinking of a winter wedding" I responded nervously

"You mean you want it to be on February or January or before 21th of March?" He spoke gently on my ears with his smoky deep voice.

"February of 2017" I firmly said biting my lower lip, I could see him smile in the corner of my eyes.

"That sounds great, I actually want us to get married next year. I really can't wait to build a family with you."

He makes me feel guilty, he truly loves me, does every effort a man could possibly do to make someone happy. But why is it that I am still longing for you?

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Why do I keep holding on to something that doesn't exist anymore? Yes, I keep on holding on that maybe there's still an *us* that will prevail in the end, you told me you still love me, you told me you just couldn't get me off your life because you felt like you only exist because of me. But I don't understand. Why do you have to let me go? I don't understand what you've said that night. You told me you love me and yet as you gently broke the kiss and leaned your forehead to mine cupping my face with both of your hands and whispered:

"Lily, listen to me; after I confessed what happened the night before we broke up. I was avoiding you because I told myself that it's time to walk away, I could see the way you look at him in the eyes whenever he parks his car in front of the hotel, I know somewhere within you you're falling for him and I know that for a fact because you use to look at me that way."

I try to hold my tears back knowing Milo is here, holding me tight and close to him. Making me special every second of the day, expressing how much he loves me whenever he's around, he only have his eyes for me, he only have his heart for me, and yet here I am... chasing something that's long gone

"Lily, I could see the way how he looks at you, how he held you in his arms, how he kisses you. He's madly in love with you; he treats you better than I did. I'm setting you free because... I don't deserve your love, you deserve someone better than me, you deserve to be happy, I love you forever and always Lily Rabe. But...If I could only turn back the time Lil, I'll do everything to make you happy but you already have him Lil that's why It's time to set you free. Goodbye... Lily"

That night, I closed my eyes as tears slid down my face, you embraced me tightly and kissed my forehead before you departed, leaving me broken once again. Your words broke me as I remembered the time I was about to go back to L.A from NOLA after that shoot of Coven's midseason finale. You went to the airport to see me off, as the announcer said that the plane is now boarding for flight 231F bound for Los Angeles, I grabbed my luggage and looked back at you,

"Goodby--" before I could even said goodbye, you placed your index finger on my lips and frowned.

"Don't say goodbye Lily! You should say see ya! Because Goodbye is going away, and going away is forgetting." Back then I smiled at you and nod.