Tell Me A Secret || Alec Lightwood

Chapter XV

TW! Mentioning of death!

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You jump awake from the flashback. Now the puzzle pieces are falling together..

"Now you probably understand why I blocked your memories of me." Hodge simply states. As if you didn't know already.

"You b*stard.." Is the only thing you say. Anger rises in your body when you remember everything. "How could you?"

He straighten his jacket when he touches the floor, the power you held over him is long gone.

"I can ask for your forgiveness but we both know that won't matter. What happened, happened Amelia. I did it to survive or I would be dead. You're still alive so I don't know why you're cursing me out like that."

Speechless, that's the right word.

He takes his knife from behind is back slowly so you won't notice. "I had the instinct to survive, you should be the person to definitely understand that."

Shaking your head, you make fists with your hand. "How can you be so heartless?"

"I've learned that while living this life. Trust me Amelia, it's way better to be this way, otherwise you will suffer a lot more."

You take a deep shaky breath, your broken rib starts to hurt like a motherf- once again.

"What I did to you is because of Valentine. Don't you see how powerful he is? This is what we need! We need a powerful shadowhunter to rule again!"

What the actual f-

"He almost killed you! Because of him you got such a severe punishment! He tortured you and me! Even experimented on me!" Your hearts beating like crazy.

Hodge is absolutely out of his mind. He blames everyone for his punishment except the real villian, Valentine.

"How can you not see it?! Valentine is the bad guy here! Stop all this and please see the truth!"

He was way too fast for you to stop him. His blade's resting on your throat very close against your skin. "Keep quiet. We don't want the others to bother us, do we?"

You smile sadly at him. "You think I'm scared of this. Kill me, be my guest."

The shock on his face is honestly satisfying to watch. He hesitated for a moment before grabbing the back of you neck, blade still on the throat. "You're bluffing."

"Guilt eats a person alive." By simply taking one step closer, the blade is slowly starting to cut in your skin. This makes Hodge panic and pull his blade back.

Your chance to strike, you hit the side of his face with your fist. Hodge slams to the ground which gives you the time to take the phone. While you're calling Alec, you turn around to check on Hodge yet he's.. gone?

Someone grabs you from behind and before you can react, a hand presses on your broken rib, making it break a second time.

An awful knack is heard.

You scream in pain and if it wasn't for Hodge you would have fallen to the ground.

"You got me, I can't kill you. Guilt does eat a person alive. I'm sorry for what I did to you even though you will never forgive me."

Your broken rib prevents you from breathing which makes you panic in instinct. "Hodge p-please.."

"My stele is in your pocket so please heal yourself."