His Dreams | Eddie Munson a/u

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𝐖𝐫𝐨𝐧𝐠𝐥𝐲 𝐀𝐜𝐜𝐮𝐬𝐞𝐝

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October 10th 1985

Graceland Harrington

Yes, I've fallen for him. Hard. And yes, it's been the shortest amount of time. But yet, I know.

I still have the weird feeling about our fight. We never really talked about it after he fell asleep with me.

I just decided to let it go, but he's been so weird ever since then.

I talked to Steve about it, despite Steve's disapproval of our relationship he still gave me alright advice. He said to let it go until it happens again. Whatever Eddie was going through he'll talk when he's ready.

At some point I do need to talk to him though, I'll never just be able to let it go. I'm worried about him, I don't want him hurting or to feel alone. Especially when I could be there for him...I just hope he knows that.

Right now my focus is on Leni. Who happens to be flirting with Steve.

I'm watching from the kitchen as they sit in the living room whispering to each other. It's aggravating. And it shouldn't be, I should be happy if they were to get together. But I'm not.

Because this...this happens. Every. Single. Time. Especially in Italy. All the girls in the town would pretend to be friend just for my brother. And Leni is the one friend who I just don't want him to have. I mean it really took some convincing when it came to Nancy. But I let that go. But I can't let this one go.

I sigh and walk over to them. "Alright Steve get out, it's girls night" I say half jokingly so I don't come off mean even though I'm actually mad. Steve puts his hands up in surrender and Leni giggles.

Ew. She never giggles. God whatever this is just can't happen.

Steve leaves the room and Leni walks up to the TV to put in a movie. "I got a scary one this time" Leni says plainly.

"Ok" I state and place the blanket over me. I've gotten so used to Leni never putting emotion into anything, I hadn't realized she only does it with me though.

When she was friends with Nancy she always seemed happy, but with me it's like...she just doesn't care. I don't want to say anything though...I don't want her mad at me.

"What's wrong?" She asks and jumps into the spot next to me. "Nothings wrong" I say with a smile.

"Grace I've known since we were like...four. I know when you're upset. What's up?" She asks again. This time with a stern tone.

I pause for a moment. Don't. Say. Anything. It's fine. She's fine. We're fine. I don't need to bring it up.

I really don't want her to be mad at me...even though I'm the one that's mad.

"What's the deal with you and my brother". Shit. It sort of just slipped out. My hands are slowly starting to get a gloss to them. The room feels hotter than it was before.

"What?" She laughs. "Is something going on between you two?" Well. I have to finish what I started I guess. 

"Nothing is happening" She states and looks sort of mad that I would even assume something like that. But how could I not.

"Well I mean every time you come over you get all giggly and happy. And you definitely don't act like that towards me" I state with an added sigh.

"Are you really jealous?" She asks in disbelief. "I wouldn't say I'm jealous, I just don't want anything to be ruined." I explain.

"Ruined?" She says back to me.

"Yes ruined! Look at Nancy and I. We barley talk, never hang out unless it's a group setting. It's awful. And it was like that when they started dating and it got even worse when they broke up. I'm not loosing the one friend that means the entire world to me just because my brother wants to get in your pants." I spit and stand up to walk away.

"Graceland seriously? I'd never get with your brother first of all. Second of all, I know how you felt about Nancy and Steve.  I'd never do what she did. Never." Her words hit me. Hit me hard. I wave of realization washed over me.

"I love you Graceland I would never" she says with her head down. "I know and I love you too, but there's still apart of me-" she cuts me off by brushing past me.

"No!" She states firmly raising her voice. "You don't get it."

"What?" I ask. I'm so lost.

"What do you mean I don't get it, do you like him or not" I state. "Because if you do I don't know if I could handle that. You say you love me and all this but you really do act different with him. You always smile with him, hardly with me. I thought that was just the way you are. But it's not. It's just me- why has our entire friendship just been an awkward illusion of perfection-" I'm stopped. The world pauses.

My stomach dropped, it turned and twisted, giving me an almost sea sick feeling. I didn't expect it, and honestly I don't think she did either. Her lips move on mine, but I stay still. I don't move, don't kiss her back...I just stay like this.

My eyes go wide and she pulls away.

"I-...I-....I'm sorry" she states and runs to the living room. She grabs her things and walks out my door. I'm still. I haven't moved. Not sure if I should.

Tears start to sting my eyes. The world gets darker as the moment holds itself over my head.

What was that? What did she do? Why!

She's my best friend...but- how could I not know. How could she not tell me.

I slowly fall down the wall behind me. I place my head in my lap and hide my face. It shouldn't be this upsetting.

I'm not upset over what she did, just over the fact that my once feelings weren't has wrong as I felt they were.

I hated my self for so long. Thinking I was an abomination for her to just kiss me like that with no issue. It's scary. Honestly.

That all happened too fast...