13 Reasons Why

Cassette 12

JISOO

"Okay... here we go... this is gonna be a tough one."

And thus started the 12th and last chapter I had to sit through before it was my turn. I knew that sounded selfish, but I didn't exactly enjoy listening to the tortured hell that was Kim Jennie's life, and I was eager to hear what she had to say about me. Oh God, I hope it was not something terrible.

"Park Roseanne."

"The fewest to none of you probably know this girl. She's from another part of town, another district, and another school. Which means she didn't know anything about my past and what I was being accused of at my school.

"I met Roseanne when I was grocery shopping for my mom once. We instantly had chemistry and we developed a strong friendship. Then one day she asked me to be her girlfriend and I said yes."

My jaw instantly clenched at the mention of the word girlfriend and not my name in the same sentence. I didn't know why, I shouldn't think like that, but I couldn't change it now. I was too deep in this love.

"So we started dating and I had the best time. It made everything else in my life slightly less painful when I was with her. She didn't know anything about my school life and every time she would ask I just switched topics to something about her. She was in another part of my life. There was the heart wrecking school part where I was always - both literally and emotionally - stepped on, and then there was the Roseanne part. The part where I felt safe and happy."

Jealous? What? I was not... no... definitely not. What were you even talking about? Nope.

"We dated for a pretty long time, and I almost ended up forgetting about the whole killing myself thing. She changed my mind and made me see the happier sides of life. She made it less miserable.

"I can't say I was completely in love with her since I still was in love with someone else - someone I had practically never even had a conversation with, but that's not the point.

As I was saying; I can't say I was completely head over heels in love with Roseanne, but I damn sure was depending on her in my life. She became a light source. Someone that brought happiness into my life. The happiness my life depended on."

And she somehow went along and screwed it up didn't she. I couldn't understand the minds of those people. Why would you ever ruin something so precious and fragile as Kim Jennie's love and trust? If I were in her shoes I would have damn well kept that closer to my heart than humanly possible. That was a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity and experience and she was probably gonna go right ahead and ruin it. Fool.

"So, one day I got the idea of going to Roseanne's house and surprising her with this vase she had once pointed out when we walked by it in a store. I bought colorful flowers and they looked so full of life. I was so excited!"

On no. I think I know where this was going.

"I knew when her parents wouldn't be home so I went there. I silently opened the front door and tiptoed to his room. I swung open the door, revealing something I hadn't expected.

"There she was. In bed kissing some other girl.

"I gasped and the vase fell to the floor breaking into a thousand heartbroken pieces, just like my own heart did. Roseanne had broken the kiss when I had opened the door and was looking apologetically back at me as I was staring wide- and teary-eyed at the scenery in front of me. I couldn't think, I couldn't talk, I couldn't feel my lakes. But I started running. I ran out of her house and I just kept running and running and running. My legs were burning, but I kept on running like it was to save my life.

"I had made a fool of myself. I finally trust someone who I genuinely believe won't hurt me and you, Lucas, you do something like that. That's what made me realize how cruel this world is. So, fuck you, Roseanne."

Just my words.

The tape ended which meant... It was my turn now.

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Rosie was probably kissing Lisa! 😂