13 Reasons Why

Cassette 03

JISOO

I took a meditating breath before pushing in the next tape. I already felt like I had heard more than enough of a reason for her to not want to live, but I was only at tape three so there was probably a hell of a lot more to go.

"Back at it again with the reasons to not wanna live.

"Now, the person listening to this knows why. Because Nayeon, if you thought one tape was enough for how you screwed me over, I'm sorry to disappoint and say there's more. Because, I loved you, Nayeon. So much. But never as more than friends. I looked up to you as a little sister looks up to her big sister. So this went deep.

"The night after I heard Nayeon say those things in the bathroom and I skipped school, I was lying on my bed when I heard a small rock slam against the window. I went to it, opened it, and looked out seeing you, Nayeon, in my backyard. Not exactly what I expected after you said those insulting things."

I thought I knew where this was going, and I did not like the direction of it.

"So then she asked me to come outside so we could talk - and I genuinely thought she would tell me that she didn't believe those rumors, that she would always be my best friend - so I agreed and went outside.

"When she started talking, that hope vanished at the speed of lightning. You said we couldn't be friends anymore, Nayeon. You started assuming that I had feelings for you since I was gay and you didn't feel the same way. So, because you thought I had a crush on you or something, you told me that we couldn't be friends anymore. That I needed to distance myself from you. That I was ruining your reputation."

I could hear Jennie crying as I processed what she was saying.

This was not okay. My grip around the cassette tape tightened as my eyes squeezed shut. My heart was filled to the brim with sympathy for this girl. I wouldn't wish what she went through upon anyone in this world. Not even Nayeon, even though I quite disliked that girl at the moment.

"First of all; I had never imagined you as anything other than a friend. Never. You know, just because I'm gay doesn't mean I go around fantasizing about and crushing on every girl I see. I'm guessing you don't with boys as well. So, don't make dumbass assumptions like that.

"I shouldn't be explaining myself, because you're the villain in this story. I didn't do anything to hurt you in any way, but what you said, Nayeon, that broke my heart."

You had no idea how furious I was with Nayeon right now. I could just go right up to her and rip her apart and-- Okay Jisoo, calm down.

I took a deep breath through my nose letting it out through my mouth again.

"I tried explaining myself at that moment though, but you didn't listen. You just walked away, leaving me to sulk myself to sleep. So, Nayeon, I hope you feel bad for your actions because yours were the ones that hurt me the deepest."

The tape stopped quickly after the last sentence. This was a short one, but I didn't think the poor girl could handle it anymore. I did hope Nayeon felt guilt when she listened to this.

I was assuming that this box of tapes had been in the hand of every person who had a tape dedicated to them. And since I'm on the last one, I didn't think I had to send it any further.

Now let's move on.

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Well, damn Nayeon.

Has anyone got cheated by their friends here?

I was, once. Learned the lesson lmao.