Czaven Zaira Fervor-Benjamin...
I'm a guardian angel, that's what they say. And I believe that I really am.
But can guardian angel make mistakes? Do I still deserve to be called one for hurting and fooling Heazen?
I believe not. But the only thing that matter is I tried to be one to deserve my Benjamin, to deserve the Good gift from Above.
~I need a lover to keep me sane
Pull me from hell, bring me back again
Play me the classics
Something romantic
Give him my all when I don't even have it~
Holding the bouquet while my eyes closed chanting for prayer, the wide door slowly opened and light rays passed through the veil and hits my eyelids.
~I always dreamed of a solemn face
Someone who feels like a holiday
But now I'm in pieces
Barely believing
Starting to think that I've lost all feeling.~
I wanna be the graceful guardian angel to have him and now that I have him, I become the grateful guardian angel. Grateful because he still found forgiveness and love for me even tho what I did to him was his total downfall. And right now, I'm paying for it. I tool the consequence of my actions and that is to make it up to him for the rest of my life.
~You came out the blue on a rainy night
No lie
I'll tell you how I almost died
While you're bringing me back to life.~
Gorgeously going towards the altar, my tears can't help to fall like how I did to Heazen. Fast and quick. I'm slowly walking in the aisle filled with gentle white smoke with with flowers on my side, I feel like a real guardian angel in Heaven. And since Heaven can only be reached after life, He sent Heazen instead to make me feel like one.
~I just wanna live in this moment forever
'Cause I'm afraid that living couldn't get any better
Started giving up on the word "forever"
Until you gave up heaven, so we could be together.~
As the music plays, I keep getting close to Heazen. I reached my hand for him and he gladly took it.
He's crying, too. Bakas ang tuwa at pagmamahal sa mata ng binata. He kissed the back of my palm like his life depending on it. I can't help but to sobbed and look at the people around us. My family, his family, our friends and close relatives were all teary eyed for us, especially my ate Venice on Kuya Klaz' arms.
~You're my angel
Angel baby, angel
You're my angel, baby~
"Baby, you're my angel..." Heazen sang along with the music softly.
The ceremony started and I couldn't have been more grateful. Masaya kaming nakikinig sa seremonyas at isinasapuso ang pag-iisang dibdib sa harap ng Diyos. Pinatawad ko na rin ang sarili ko para sa puro na simula ng pagsasama namin ni Heazen. At hindi lang kaming dalawa ni Heazen ang nasa kasal na 'to. I wouldn't forget that God is the center our marriage. I prayed for God's guidance and grace for our successfull marriage.
"Ikaw ang pinakamagandang nangyari sa buhay ko. Ikaw ang ilaw, ang kulay, ikaw ang pag-asa...Gusto kong ipagmalaki sa 'yo, sa lahat, kung gaano kita ka-mahal....Mahal na mahal kita, Heazen. Ikaw lang sa lahat ng tao, sa lahat ng lalaki, at sa lahat ng Benjamin... You might not be as perfect as Uno, not as jolly as Dos, Homer, Quatro and Cinco, smart as Dence and Sais, as soft as Harvie and Hakob, ruthless as Hover and Tres, as sweet as Hinx and Helix, naughty as Hellion, Heixon and Hendrix, the best as Heilan... but my heart choose to fall for you over and over again. Ikaw ang pinakamarupok, ang uto-uto pero ito...ito ang pinakanagustuhan ko...," she pointed his chest again like the first time she said those words.
"because this is pure when it comes to love. You believe that you have a stone heart but you have a pure heart, Heazen."
I said the same vow on our fake wedding back then. I recreated that painful memory to a memory that we'll treasure the most. Kung dati ay nasasaktan ako habang sinasabi ko ang mga salitang 'yon kasi kailangan kong umalis, ngayon I was beyond bliss because as I tell those words, I'm staying with him for a lifetime.
"It's only pure because you're in it, baby." He whispered the same word agaid while smiling as his eyes pooled with tears
"I love you," she whispered as a tear cascade on her cheek.
Heazen took the microphone from my hand. Nakita ko ang bahagyang panginginig n'on. I can't even determine what Heazen's feeling right now! Para itong ninenerbyos na maiiyak o ano.
"I wasn't able to give you a vow back on our little false wedding, and maybe because my heart knows that I will be giving it to you on our real wedding and that is today," Heazen smiled to control his tears pero yumuko ito at mahinang natawa habang pinunasan ang tumulong luha sa mata.
"You once said to me that you feel guilty for manipulating just for us to be together but I doubt that, angel...Because when you fell into veranda, it wasn't your decision, it was destiny's way, it was His move for us to meet, it was his way of saying that we are bound to fall in love.
"I didn't love you because you force me to, I love you because that what my heart screams and that what He says. And one night walking stepping in the veranda feeling the breeze gentle gelid air staring at the most gorgeous guardian angel, I made a promise to myself to protect, serve and care for you. And I only have one vow but yet deep and meaningful..." Heazen smiled while staring at her lovingly.
"I, Heazen Draven Benjamin, the retired undefeated Monstrous Racer, the fragile Benjamin when it comes to Angel, husband of Czaven Zaira-Fervor Benjamin, vow to always and forever, until death do us part, and will never get tired...Guarding Guardian Angel. "
GGA signing in to eternity...
