detention || minsung

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⚠️TW/ topics related to self harm and mental health ⚠️

"changbin and i are going to get groceries, text me everything we need." minho said as he walked to the door.

"jisung you're not going?" chan asked.

"no, i have to spend every second of the rest of felixs birthday with him." jisung shook his head.

chan only nodded, waving to the pair that walked out the door.

"i already sent changbin my list." felix shrugged.

"bitches, i got something to say." jisung said as soon as the door shut.

"i'll just text them everything else we need." chan shook his head.

"what's up ji?" hyunjin asked, everyone turning their attention to him.

"i...i think i'm in love with minho hyung." jisung hid his face in his hands.

"REALLY!" felix shook his shoulders.

"okay mr. i hate him and i always will." seungmin snickered.

"oh shut up, let him be happy." jeongin flicked his forehead.

"you bitch." hyunjin reached over, flicking jeongin forehead.

"HELLO? BACK TO JISUNG? HES IN LOVE?" felix screamed.

"just tell him." chan shrugged.

"are you INSANE?" jisung questioned.

"what? he's clearly in love with you too." chan was confused.

"we're not even officially together yet, i can't tell him i'm in love with him!" jisung shook his head.

"you'll have to tell him eventually." jeongin pointed out.

"just...wait until you feel like it's the right time to tell him." hyunjin said gently.

"oh god they're going to get married and still being like 'i like you so much'." seungmin sighed.

"no! i'll tell him soon..i just think it'd be weird to tell him when there's not even anything official between us." jisung frowned.

"are you frustrated about that?" chan asked.

"kinda? i just don't understand why we haven't made things official yet. we're out to the school as an official couple but not even to ourselves? i feel like we've been in this more than friends less than lovers stage forever and i don't understand why? am i not good enough?" jisung asked, letting the tears build up in his eyes.

"hey, that's not it. he's probably waiting until you feel comfortable being labeled as boyfriends." chan assured gently.

"i screamed it at some girl who was hitting on him! how could i make it any clearer? no, i'm not good enough to be his boyfriend, that's it. what if he doesn't really even want me? it's all a joke?" jisung began freaking out, getting lost in his thoughts.

"sung, calm down." felix spoke gently.

"no-no! he...i'm not good enough for him! i wasn't even good enough for my own parents!" jisung was staring straight ahead, not blinking as his thoughts consumed him.

"jisung you need to calm down." hyunjin said as he got up, placing his hands on jisungs shoulders.

"no. no one could ever love me. not my parents, especially not him! it's all a game." jisung was slightly shaking.

"jisung!" hyunjin tried tapping him.

"we need to snap him out of this." felix spoke calmly.

"blades. where are my blades? GET MY MY BLADES!" jisung yelled as he finally looked around.

"NO, JISUNG. SNAP OUT OF IT." hyunjin yelled desperately.

"my blades please, i need them!" jisung begged, beginning to sob.

"jisung let's go to your room." felix said as he grabbed jisungs hand, pulling him upstairs.

"bathroom. i need my blades. STOP IT I NEED THEM!" jisung screamed.

"jisung SNAP OUT OF IT!" felix screamed.

"i need them! please!" jisung sobbed.

"no you don't." hyunjin said as he made jisung sit down on his bed.

"we need you to calm down." felix spoke gently.

"i need them! what's the point if no one will ever love me." jisung sobbed.

"this hasn't happened in so long...should we take him to see his psychiatrist?" felix spoke lowly. "my mom will cover the bill."

"let's discuss it with him when he's snaps out of this..we can only get him help if he wants it." hyunjin replied.

"GET AWAY FROM ME!" jisung screamed. "WHERE ARE THEY?"

"JISUNG." felix yelled back.

jisung laid down, sobbing into his pillow. felix and hyunjin watched over him, making sure he'd be okay. within minutes he sobbed himself to sleep, hugging his pillow tightly.

"he should be fine when he wakes up. he hasn't had a freak out this bad in so long..i'm worried." felix frowned.

"he normally doesn't fall asleep after." hyunjin sighed.

"i'm gonna go let them know he's okay and asleep." felix sighed.

"i'll stay here and keep an eye on him." hyunjin nodded.

"please sung. be okay." felix whispered. "you're not unlovable, please stop seeing yourself that way."

a/n: jisungs just like me fr 😍😍 how was your day my loves? mine was pretty okay.