Forbidden love||K.M||M.E.G

The day it all went down

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"dear diary... I couldn't have been more wrong. I thought that I could smile and nod my way through it". " pretend like it would all be okay"

"I had a plan, I wanted to change who I was. Create a life as someone new. Someone without the past"

"with the pain, someone alive. But it's not that easy. The bad things stay with you, they follow you."

"you can't escape them, as much as you want to. All you can do is be ready for the good"
"so when it comes , you invite it In because you need it".

"I need it."
"this morning is different, there's change. I can sense it. Feel it."

"I'm awake for the first time in a long time, I feel completely and undeniably wide awake."

"for once i don't refer the day before it begins."
"I welcome the day, because I know I will be happy soon." I said in my diary as I just wrote down my thoughts, I knew I couldn't be sad forever.

I mean maybe me and my parents didn't have the best relationship throughout the years but I still loved them.
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"hold on, do I look adult?." my aunt approached me before I left." as in. Respectfully parental?."she asked me.

"depends where you're going." I said as I looked at her outfit she had picked."Jeremy's parent-teacher conference, hair up or down?." she said as she held her hair up by her hands as I looked at her.

"sexy stewardess." I said as she held her hair up.
"boozy housewife." I said as she held her hair down.

"up it is." Jenna said as we both laughed.
"you're feisty today." she said as she probably hadn't heard me laughing like that in a long time.

"I feel good, which is rare so I've decided to go with it." I said thinking about it."fly free, walk on sunshine and all that stuff." I said jokingly as I took a look around.

"where is Jeremy ?." I asked confused when I didn't see him in his room. " oh, he left early something about getting to woodshop early to finish a birdhouse?." she said as we were standing in front of a mirror.

I looked confused at her.

"there is no woodshop, is there?." Jenna said as we realized we both laughed." no, I said with a smile."yeah.".

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"I'm confused are you psychic or clairvoyant." Caroline asked Bonnie as we walked together out of class." technically, grams says I'm a witch. My ancestors were these really cool Salem witch chicks or something. grams tried to explain it, but she was looped on the liquor, I tuned out. Crazy family,yes. Witches, i don't think so." Bonnie explained.

"feel free to conjure up that name and number of that guy from last night." care said as she smiled." oooh who?." I said curious as I didn't leave with them to the Cafe last night.

"he was mysterious." , Caroline said as she thought about that guy probably."I didn't see him." Bonnie said laughing. "You did".

"why didn't you just talk to him?." I asked Care since she's not the person to not talk to a guy she likes."I don't know, I was drunk." , she said and both me and Bonnie laughed.
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I was sitting outside in the sun with my friends and laughing and talking about boys as usual, talking about how cute and stupid they can be.
Just as I'm looking around I see Jeremy walking out of the door.
Shit he's walking to Tyler.

"Hey Tyler , hey I'm sorry to interrupt I was just wondering what the fuck is your problem?." he said I think I couldn't hear so good."shit." I said to my friends as I remembered I told him and Elena that he said I should go to hell and all that.

"what do you mean?." he said confused there he stood as he looked at me."get out of here", Tyler said to Jeremy.

"you don't go and tell Maya "go to hell"." I heard Jer say to him as I could see Tyler burning his eyes into me for help or something.

"I'm gonna kick your ass." Tyler says threatening my little brother." yeah, you keep saying that, but when are you gonna actually do it?."

"because I vote for right here right now."he said as he pushed Tyler, I gave Ty a look for not do to anything.

"walk away Gilbert it's your final warning." Tyler said as he probably understood."this is your final warning first you're a dick ass boyfriend to my sister, and then Vicki, you're hurting both me and my sister, and if you hurt Maya one more time I swear to god I will kill you." I heard my little brother say , shit I didn't know he was gonna go far.

"damn, that was like a death threat did you hear that?." I could hear him saying after my brother left.
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1 year earlier
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I woke up as usual at 6am, made my way through to the bathroom, went into the shower. Did my make up and took my pills, that's all I did now, yeah it's not good but my parents hate me for some reasons and my sister she's doing everything to please them. I then went through my wardrobe and picked some clothes. I took my favorite black dress, a bit short. A black leather jacket. My black low converse.

All I have is Jeremy, I wanted to leave this world but I didn't wanna leave Jeremy, I know he looks up to me and if I leave I know he will do something bad, and I don't want that.

I got drugs from Vicki Donovan and her friends, I wasn't supposed to do drugs but she insisted I had to try because of how miserable my life had gotten, probably heard from Matt who heard from Elena.

I don't even know why my parents hate me, everything I do it's not good enough and they're always yelling at me, especially mom , I mean I have never really liked her but I haven't done anything bad to her.
I don't think they know I do drugs, my sister knows but it wouldn't have surprised me if she had told them already.

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"how are you feeling?." my dad asked me as I walked Down feeling terrible and guilt as usual doing the drugs that's what I felt.
"I'm alright." I said coldly and walked away like nothing.

"I'm leaving I'll see you later", I said as I took my backpack about to leave."Maya have you stopped." suddenly my sister asks me in front of our parents and I could feel my temperature going up.

"stopped what? You make no sense.", I said as I gave her the look and she only looked down."the drugs." she said like she pretended that she didn't know our parents were behind her, I was so stressed out, I felt like my body was gonna explode.

"Maya ? What?." our mom spoke as I could still see Elena looking at the ground."I have no idea what she's talking about alright?." I replied trying to get away with it and not knowing what to exactly say.

"Maya don't lie...." Elena spoke and I was so close to fucking kill her right now."I'm not doing Drugs.", I yelled angry and started going out of the door.

"Maya Eli Gilbert come back!." I could hear from my parents but now I didn't want to hear them.
I was so scared of what they were gonna do to me now, I should have never fucking told Elena, I hate her.

I'm too scared to meet them, I can't meet them, I have to disappear, was all that went through my head.
I had to go away.

I took out my pills, let all of it go in my mouth not thinking of what next will happen, I couldn't meet my parents again and my life was already miserable what is the point of living?.
I already could feel my head pumping and I could feel my eyes were gonna close now, I fell to the ground smiling as my whole body hurts.

"hey are you okay", one random asked me but I didn't answer I was passed out and couldn't feel anything, couldn't feel my body.
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I slightly woke up as I saw some red and blue lights and some women trying to talk to me, I couldn't see much but the lights.
"she's awake!." I could hear someone yell as they tried to check if I was okay.
I passed out again.
I wish I had just died.
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I woke up again, my head was hurting , my body was hurting, everything was hurting, I smelled vomit at myself and I felt I was gonna throw up.
"are you crazy?!."my mom said as I saw my parents standing in front of me.
I didn't answer her.
"are you out of your mind?!."my sister said as she tried to hug me but I tried to push her away.

"can I just be alone?."I said as I tried to close my eyes again.
"absolutely not.", my mother said as her voice changed, everything was worse now.
"get out.", I said as my voice changed as well as my head was pumping like hell.
I tried to raise myself up to get to talk closer to my parents because I wanted to be alone now.

"miss. Gilbert I need you to lay down.", one of the doctor said as she tried to hold me down.
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