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Ch. 67- Goodbyes

*Time Skip to when they leave for Japan because I have writers block sorry*
"I'll see you in about a month, alright?" Dan gives me a gentle kiss, an apologetic kiss for not booking me in on the trip. Dan has apologized before, saying that the trip won't be as fun if I'm not there by his side. And I'm not saying I want to go, but I like being around him as well.
"Go check out some hot Japanese babes... Or watch some hentai." I joke around, giving him one last hug and kiss.
"I only have eyes for you." He whispers in my ear as I wrap my arms around his tall build.
"Me too."
After a goodbye that tugs at my heart, the Grumps wave their final goodbyes, teary eyed at the prospect of "leaving me behind" for a month.
For whatever reason, when they are swallowed by the crowd of vacationers and international travelers, I find a bench in the middle of the sea of people and sit. I have nothing to do, no work, no cleaning, no moving in to the new house till next week. Lauren found a house for everyone, even Kevin and his girlfriend if they want to come.
People flow around me as my heart tugs to run onto the boarding plane ,probably leaving right now, and give Dan one last hug. One last passionate kiss.
Even though this goodbye isn't even for a long time, it has the same effect of all the others. My grandma dying, making me crave one last homemade cookie. My mother, even though she want the ideal mother with her drinking tendencies, making me crave one last good conversation over the phone about the music that was before my time. Older music is always better, although mine is alright. My cats, a longing for gentle purrs and head-buts.
Always a search for something left undid. Now I long for Dan's warm body, Arin's wonderful rages (that I enjoy and rage with), Ross' endless chatter, Suzy's soft encouraging voice telling me that what I am doing is right, Holly's bird talk and decorations lighting up the room, Kevin's shy nature warming up my heart, and Barry's no-quitters front bringing up my competitive side. Who could endure the longest?
I sigh and look at the ever changing crowd. Always places to go and people to meet. Hurry hurry hurry. I just want to slow down, sit back and enjoy my friends and family. I think I'll invite my dad over for dinner tomorrow.
I get up slowly and make my way to the car. The drive home is quiet and makes my heart settle in my throat. It's a bit hard to breath. All a part of saying goodbye, even only for a month.
Dan said that he would text me when he got to the hotel. He wanted to text me on the plane, but I said he should use that time to be excited about the trip. He agreed, by some miracle, but said he would be thinking about me the whole time. Now, as I numbly park the car and walk inside, I want to text him. I force myself not to, in my mind I need to prove that my life isn't dependent on him. I feel like I need to prove to myself that I could live without him. I water all my plants in my room and scoff. After I started hanging out with Dan and Arin and everyone, I got less spiritual. I no longer notice the sexy outfits on Game Of Thrones, no longer listen to binaural beats while I sleep. No longer try and control my dreams or try to read a passers-bye aura. Hardly have checked my own in months it feels like. I put my hand on a white piece of paper and look down. The blue deep like the ocean, gently flowing around my body like a river.
On a whim I get a small box and load up some of my plants. I'm going to plant them in our new backyard. After I'm done putting them safely in the back seat, I start the drive to our new, empty house.