Haven't I given enough? || Heeseung EN-

Chapter 1

(Sorry for any spelling errors!)

My alarm goes off and I quickly wake up, not excited for the first day of school, AT ALL! I check the time to make sure I woke up early enough.. 5:45 am okay I have time! I quickly get out of bed and grab my school uniform and shower. Most people sing in the shower but I DON'T if I do my parents will wake up.. not what I want to start off with in the morning.

After I am ready ( changing, brushing/drying hair, mascara and lipgloss) I head down stairs to make breakfast for my parents. They like to eat toast and eggs in the morning so I get that prepared. 5 minutes later I hear my little brother come rushing down the stairs. " Good morning sissy!" I turn around and see my brother coming to hug me! " Good morning Su-Jin, what do you want for breakfast?" He starts to think, he is so cute I wish he could stay being a 4 year old forever!

" Can I have cereal?" " Sure I will get that for you to sit down okay?" He nods his head and takes a seat. I finish mom and dads breakfast right in time, because they start walking down. " Good morning." I give them a little bow " Is the food ready?" " Yes you came right in time.." I grab plates and dish the food up before giving it to them.

" what about Su-Jin's he DOESN'T HAVE ANY FOOD!?!? YOU WANT HIM TO STARVE?!?!"

" N-no. I was just preparing his food, sorry.." I try to walk away but my father holds my wrist. " where do you think you are going?" " to go pre-" he slaps me in the face really hard, it stings so bad.. " Make sure to have your brothers food ready too now GO!" I nod my head as tears start to dwell in my eyes. I get my brothers food and after that I head off to school.

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" Argh.. Why did I have to come to a new school..." I start to walk into the school trying to act like I have been here all along, as I was walking I bumped into someone and their books fell, my eyes widened in terror. " I am so sorry, please forgive me..!" I quickly pick up their books and give it to them. " it's okay no need to be sorry!" I look up to see a smiling man " you are new, aren't you?" I nod my head slowly " Yea.. I kind of need help with classes.." " okay let me see you classes then!" I grab a piece of paper out of my backpack with the sheet.

He studies it like it will help him with a exam. " We have a couple of classes together! We have homeroom, math, pe, and history together!" "O-Oh okay..! Sorry I forgot to ask this but, what is your name?" " my name is Heeseung, Lee Heeseung." I nod my head and remember that I have to say my name too." My name is Yoon Cheon-Sa! Also should we go now?" Heeseung checks his watch and is shock " Yea let's go so we won't be late!" He grabs my hand and we start dodging and passing people through the halls hoping not be late.

We soon make it to the classroom and Heeseung let's go of my hand. " Oh you are Miss Yoon Cheon-Sa?" I look to see a elderly man, whom I assume to be the teacher. " O-Oh, yes I am."  Find a spot to sit anywhere and when I call you please come up to introduce yourself." I nod my head and look for a spot to sit because Heeseung had gone to sit with his friends, I found a spot that was in the middle row and by a window, so I decided to sit there! Well I was walking I tripped and it made a loud * BANG * everyone looked over to see me on the ground people started to laugh, well I just looked at my new pink bruises on my legs. " oops!" I looked up to see a girl with a not so sorry look on her face, " I am Choi Jina, don't try to think you are all that by talking with Heeseung okay?" I nod my head and get up and go to my seat.

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Class finally ended and now I have Math " Cheon-Sa are you okay?" " y-yea.. Are you popular?" He shakes his head no " So that just means Choi Jina  likes you." " yea she has had a crush on me for a while now, even though I reject her she still won't leave me alone.."  I get up out of my desk and then me and Heeseung start heading to math. " Cheon-Sa want to get ice cream later?" The thought of ice cream didn't sound appetizing " u-uh I d-don't eat ice cream,  or really anything" I whispered the last part. " why?" "N-no reason" well there is a reason a simple but sad one, I have a eating disorder, anorexia, not fun at all.. I don't have a big fear of gaining weight but it is still a big.  I also hate food and most textures. I sometimes have to force myself to eat but after I do eat I feel guilty and stare at myself in the mirror and look at my body..

Doctors have said I have to find someone I enjoy or I am friends with and eat with them they said it will help with my anorexia and help with me eating more, I normally eat with my little brother.

( before people start going crazy and saying " you shouldn't have anorexia/ eating disorders in your stories" I have anorexia and just thought of sharing it and what it is like with people. But I won't talk about it much just so some people don't feel uncomfortable.)

" Cheon-Sa do you want to come sit with me for math?" " If you want me to I will." I was a little scared to sit by him because I didn't want people to think I was a pick me, or if Jina was in this class.." Okay you will sit with me then!" 

We were getting closer to the math class I could see the sign up a head and I suddenly got a ding from my phone. 8 grabbed it out of my backpack checked what it was, it was a text from my mom...

MOM

Make sure to pick up your brother from daycare, also take him grocery shopping with you, there is money and a list on the counter.

Okay I will.

" Now I have to go pick up my brother after school." We entered the class room and sat in a desk by each other, the teacher still hasn't came yet." You have a brother?" "Yea, he is so cute and he got the good genes from my parents, which is not fair..! He has perfect hair, pretty brown boba eyes, cute nose, AND freckles!" I just realized how I started to trail off with my talking " Sorry I shouldn't have kept talking." " No! It's okay!" He pats my head and the teacher comes in soon.