I wake up naked with scars all over my body and naked with only a blanket covering my weak fragile body. I look to see if Hyeon is beside me he isn't, the only good thing was that he didn't push his thing up me he did very thing besides that.
I get out of bed slowly, grabbing a pair of underwear, spandex, and an oversized hoodie. I look at myself in the mirror crying, a waterfall of tears come out of my eyes. I fall to the ground, the cold ground hitting my legs and making them cold, I use my wet sleeves full of tears to try my best to wipe them away.
"Hyeon you jerk. I am a slut I know! I AM A SLUT! IM EVERYTHING HORRIBLE! Hyeon you treat me like a sex doll that you can use anytime YOU want!" Just saying that made me cry harder and harder, hardly taking a breath.
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Monday another Monday, school which I hate the most. Keeping my grades up is getting harder because I can never focus but I am trying my best, I really am!
We didn't have to wear a uniform to school today so I decided to show my scars that Hyeon gave me and the ones my parents gave me. I wore a crop top, sweatpants, zip up hoodie, and Ugg slippers.
When I walked into school people looked at me in shock, but I just went on to my classroom, but before I could make it to the classroom someone pulled me aside..it was Hyeon.
"What are you wearing?"
"Clothes?"
"You're showing the scars!"
"Not my problem, I like my outfit."
"You can not wear that."
"I won't listen to a man who raped me!" I slapped his face and walked into my class, tears close to escaping my eyes. I go to my spot and put my earbuds in and listen to music while I draw. Someone taps my desk and I feel the light shake from my desk I look up to see Jake. I take my earbud out..
"Hmm."
"Here is some food! Also can I sit by you? Heeseung is being grumpy!" I nod my head and Jake sits down beside me.
"Can I see what you are drawing?"
"Sure!" I happily show him two people sitting side beside, a guy with his hand around a girls shoulder.
"You like romantic stuff?"
"Yes, stuff has happened to me that are kind of making me not like romantic stuff but I am trying to like it again." I eat some of the chips Jake got me, they tasted okay. I groan at the fact that we have gym tomorrow.
"What? Do the chips taste bad?" Jake asked worried i chuckled.
"They taste fine I just remembered that we have gym tomorrow."
"Gym is annoying!" Me and Jake keep talking, I felt like someone was staring so I looked around the classroom to see Heeseung glaring at Jake. They must've gotten into an argument!
After that I go to my next class which is boring too..
The bell rings for lunch, which I can escape from and hide! I got o the bathroom and hide in one of the stalls. I put my earbuds in and start to do homework and study for an upcoming test in history. Lunchtime so many people are laughing and enjoying spending time with friends. On the other hand it is the COMPLETE opposite, I used to be with Heeseung and his crew to eat but now I am in the bathroom by myself.
I soon get done with all my homework so far and studying a little bit so i decided to draw. I'm definitely not goood at drawing but it's fun and I can improve! I got myself a little notebook to draw stories that represent what has happened in my life so far and my feelings. I love the Idea so much! But the only sad part is I just haven't been motivated to eat at all. So I haven't been eat a lot. One of my fear foods is turkey and ham. Don't ask why I don't know either.
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It's after school and I am just going to go into the studio to practice by myself. I didn't feel like going but I know it would be good to do! So after school I changed and headed over to the studio, which I am at right now! I am going to stretch and work on flexibly and turns.
I do that and put on music, my playlist because it is swag! While I was stretching someone came into the room it was...Heeseung he gave an awkward smile but I just ignored him and kept stretching.
"Do you need anything from the storage room Cheon-Sa?"
"No."
"Okay just making sure, my mon sent me in to ask you, and I expected you would say no."
"Anything else you want to tell me Heeseung?" I look at him annoyed.
"No I will go Jina is waiting for me outside."
He leaves the room and I roll my eyes. He really must see something in Jina to be dating her or he is just blind in her makeup and not natural beauty.. why am I even getting jealous? I don't want Heeseung to be I my life anymore he is a complete jerk!
After stretching for awhile I start to practice doing turns, I start off with 2 turns, 3 turn, 4 turns, 5 turns, 6 turns, and then 7 turns. I keep practicing them over and over agian, I soon take a break and get water. Doing turns is hard and takes a lot of patience. As I was about to do more turns I hear a knock on the door.
"Yes?" I call to the person outside the door. The person comes in and it is Mrs.Lee!
"Hello Mrs.Lee!" I bow
"Hello Cheon-Sa! How are you doing?"
"Good, I felt bad for not coming in the studio to practice so I came in today!"
"Make sure you get rest, your eyes look really puffy and red. Mrs.Moon says you have been crying and not well so she let you stay home and rest."
"Yes, auntie let me stay home. She said I don't have to come to the studio for a month or more if needed."
"She is a very nice women."
"She sure is!"
"I will let you keep practicing, bye Cheon-Sa!" I wave goodbye and bow while she leaves. Had Heeseung not told her about what happened? If not that's good.
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Haven't I given enough? || Heeseung EN-
FanfikceA girl named Yoon Cheon-Sa has a lot of issues her in her life like, eating disorder, controlling/strict parents, not feeling appreciated, and she never tells anyone about her problems. The only things that keep her happy in life is dance..! She lov...
