Haven't I given enough? || Heeseung EN-

Chapter 14

It has been a week since Heeseung and me aren't friends. Drama had happened, I have been drained, grades are close to a B+, my parents have given my big bruises on my my back and legs. I feel like giving up in life. I really can't take it anymore I cry myself to sleep all the time but it dosen't help me in life.

Jake still talks to me and is really nice still. He is trying to make things workout between me and Heeseung. But I am just giving up on Heeseung he isn't even trying to talk with me. Plus he is dating Jina now, something about it made me really jealous, and I don't know why. Dance practice has been rough, auntie has noticed my conditions and said I can take a break for a month to get better.

Besides that I have been trying to eat more often, I have found a liking in grapes, mainly cotton candy grapes! I normally eat those while doing homework! 

"Noona! Can you play with me!" Su-Jin uses his puppy eyes on me.

"Of course! What do you want to do?" 

"Play cars, also I haven't seen Heeseung Hyung in a while is okay?" The name Heeseung just makes me made, angry, and confused all at once.

"We got into a fight, that's all." Su-Jin nods his head and I follow him off to go okay with his toys. I play with Su-Jin for awhile nothing is amusing I feel like a zombie acting alive.

"Noona is going to get something for you to eat okay?" Su-Jin nods his head and I get him something to eat, I only left to get him something to eat because I was getting bored. I soon come back with a snack for Su-Jin, my phone starts to ring so I pick it up it is my dad.

"Me, mom, and Su-Jin are going to Florida and going to Disney make sure to pack Su-Jin up. We are going to be leaving once me and mom get home."

"B-but what a-about me?"

"You don't deserve to come."

"Tha- never mind. I will get Su-Jin packed up.." I end the call in disbelief, EVERYTHING IN MY LIFE SUCKS! I can't go to America, my friend is dating my enemy and isn't even my friend anymore, I've gotten raped, and I have Anorexia. What else will happen?

...

It's finally Friday my family is in Florida for a week, Jake said if I get to scared I can come over to his house or he can come to mine. Just like every other day as soon as I walk I  people whisper or push me. Hyeon thinks he is my boyfriend and can touch me and stuff like that.

"Cheon-Sa!" I look behind me to see Jina..

"What?" She motions for me to come to her.

"Remember Heeseung is MINE and you are the lonely slut! That no one wants to be friends with!" She slaps my face, why is she trying to fight over Heeseung right now?

"Jina are you insecure? Do you think Heeseung is going to fall for me?" She slaps me again and I slap her, if she wants to have a fight this is going to be how it will be.

"CHEON-SA STOP!" I turn to see Heeseung coming over but his eyes looked only worried for Jina, I scoff. Heeseung gives Jina a kiss on the forehead while Jina tries to kiss him on the lips but he pushes her away.

"That must be rough having to deal with a brat like her Heeseung. You dropped your friend just because of your reputation and now you're going to make it 'better' by dating that brat!" Heeseung glares at me but it wasn't fierce there was some softness in it.

"Cheon-Sa leave Jina and me alone." Heeseung and Jina walk away acting like the schools power couple. Hyeon appears and hugs me but I push him away and go to class.

It might sound a little main character of me but I love to sit by the window  during homeroom, because all we do in homeroom is discuss stuff and get homework done, so I just look out the window and listen to music. I also like to draw, while I have been crying for hours I have found it calming to draw and to reales my anger on the drawings.

"Cheon-Sa Cheon-Sa!" I look up to see my teacher handing my a present.

"Uh what is this?"

"It says it's for you." I take the gift and open it to see a hoodie it looks like Hyeon's, I scoff and toss it back into the box and don't pay attention to it.

...

While I was chilling at home someone rang the doorbell, I peek out my window to see Hyeon. I decided to go downstairs and answer it to see what he needs.

"What do you need?"

"I need you." He comes into the house before I could close the door. Hyeon starts to kiss my neck and suck on it. I try and try to push him away with all my might but I am to weak compared to him.

He starts to kiss my lips harder and harder, slowly taking off my shirt, and bra. Tears are falling down my eyes knowing that I am going to get raped by Hyeon again.

"Get off my Hyeon." 

"Never."

He starts to kiss me harder and harder leaving a cut on my lip. My vision gets blurry and I don't know what to do I kick Hyeon but he kicks me in the guts harder then I do to him. When ever I try to push him off my he punches or kicks me. I cry throughout the whole thing screaming for help, screaming so much I think I could faint. 

I need help. 

I want help.

No is here to help.