D&S

Chapter # 3

Ester, you are the path I would choose under all circumstances.

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"I will tell Ester everything." I declared.

"WHAT!? ARE YOU OUT OF YOUR MIND!?" He yelled.

"I don't want our relationship to be based upon lies." I replied.

"DESMOND DO YOU WANT TO BE DIVORCED A SECOND TIME!?" He said exasperated. "I am sure she will understand."

"Don't do anything stupid Desmond." Father said, stressed.

"I just came here to tell you, Henry might be planning something, That's all. Besides, You are the one who bound me with Ester in the first place. I have done many wrong things to her because of you and Henry, I won't do anything now." I stood up and left before hearing his answer.

I sighed, feeling tense. I don't know what I should do. Father's words pushed me into the abyss more. I don't want to lose Ester but I also don't want to lie to her.

I want to tell her everything but the thought of losing her scares me to no extent. I don't know what I should do, I just want to make everything right but I don't think my 'right' will have a happy ending. Not being able to bear it anymore, I went home.

I entered and saw Ester, looking beguiling. She looks so elegant, a smile crept upon my lips when I saw her. She was wearing a green shirt adorned with black beads and a net frock which reached her knees and black kitten heels.

Her radiant smile made me feel calm but then I realized I have told her that I will take her out on a dinner and forget about it due to the stress of my upheaval. I clicked my tongue and walked to her. I gave her a side hug.

"Welcome home." She said, softly. I gave her lips a peck and left to freshen up. After I came back, we went for dinner.

We were having dinner in silence, I couldn't take my eyes from Ester, she looked so bewitching, she never fails to entice me, I can barely control my urges to look at her like this. There was a coy environment, soft music in the background,

The silence was comforting.

Soon I stood up and offered her my hand. She hesitantly took my hand and we went to the dance floor. I wrapped my arms around her waist as she wrapped her around my neck and pulled us close.

I looked at her in affection and filled with in-depth emotions of love, I kept smiling at her. She shyly lowered her gaze and smiled back.

I found myself losing in her eyes and never wanting to get out of these mesmerizing sapphire eyes which held endless devotion. I turned her and pressed my chest against her back and moved my hand to her lower abdomen.

I nuzzled to her neck, a gasp escaped Ester lips by the sudden movement. I pecked her scar and turned her again to me.

I pulled her close as our lower body touched, I breathed out, looking at her with a smirk. I moved her one hand to her and intertwined my fingers with her that made me feel complete and perfect.

Lost in something unfathomable, that took over my senses. I slowly moved my hand down, she seemed slightly startled by the unexpected actions.

My hand stopped at her chest; her heart. I pressed my forehead against hers and closed my eyes and asked desperately.

"Does it still hurt?" Ester also moved her hand down to my chest and clutched my shirt and replied, "Physical scars heal easily Desmond, but not emotional ones." She sniffed and I looked at her.

Penitence emerged from me as I can see the despair I made her go through which tore my heart into pieces.

"Please give me some time..I-I know I always wanted this but accepting it all at once is not easy. I always craved for your love and attention and now I am getting it; it feels surreal and I am afraid, thinking it might not be a dream. That's why please give me some time, Desmond." She said in a croak whispered, breathlessly, filled with consternation.

My chest tightened, my heart felt heavy in regret of doing that many wrong doings. I cupped her cheek and looked at her in adoration and remorse, emitting grieve.

"I know I have hurt you a lot Ester. I cannot change that horrible past, I cannot remove those scars I gave you but I just want you to know that I will never hurt you again.

I will try my best to make you feel safe in my arms. I will give my life to you, to love you, to care for you and hold you close to me."

"Ester, you are the only woman for me, the one who made me realize that I need to open up and not hide my feelings. I am so grateful to have you in my life. "

"Ester, my heart has become one with yours, I can feel that tingling sensation of pain somewhere in my heart too. I want to remove those fears and make you feel that it all has passed and nothing can hurt you anymore." I said, sincerely, meaning every word with deep emotions of love.

Ester didn't reply, she moved her other hand and clutched my shirt tightly and put her head over my chest. She was desperate to let out her feelings, she was breathing heavily, lost in deep thoughts of dismay and dazzle.

Feeling happy beyond anyone comprehension but like she said, consternation at the same time. Finding it hard to accept my sudden change and affection.

It's just like when she gave me a month to prove my love. Her lips was quivering, she was hurting, tears streamed down her cheeks as she whispered,

"Please.. do it.." .

Stressed out, I couldn't think straight. A strange fear is building inside of me which is affecting my mind too much, The thought of losing Ester is unbearable.

I don't want to neglect her anymore, I want acceptance. I can feel it under my fingernails that the upcoming affliction is more fiery than I could have imagined but somewhere in my heart I felt somehow relieved that Ester is by my side. I truly wish that she won't leave me.

I don't want her to be upset anymore but I also have to tell her that Henry is after me and wants to take her away from me.

I want to tell her why I hit her, Why I hurt her even if I don't want it. I can't put blame on anyone. What I have done is my fault and what happened to Ester is my fault and doesn't matter who was behind this, I am the one who did this and it's my fault.

"Just like what happened to Grace?" My mind mocked me.

That's something that never fails to terrorize me and make me remember that I am some insensible bastard who can't love anyone because my love can be terminal.

I am stuck in a very undesirable situation. I sighed deeply and leaned back on my seat. I closed my eyes, deep in thoughts, thinking of a way to prevail.

The moment I felt slightly relaxed, my phone rang and it was none other than Henry. I scoffed and picked the call and asked rudely,

"What do you want!?"