Goddess Of The Rainbow [Billie Eilish AU]

chapter twenty three

reese
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when i turn around to finally meet her eyes, everything stops.

there she is, in all of her usual glory.

in the past three weeks, almost nothing has changed. her blonde hair is still parted in the middle and pushed down to the sides, her cheeks are painted in a hazy rose color and the smile that i'm greeted with is such a warm welcome.

the blanket is threatening to fall out of my hands, but my grip won't allow it. seeing her the first time in a while right now is almost similar to the day i met her for the very first time.

she stands in the front of my room, unsure of what to do and i don't entirely blame her. she's facing the girl who lied about her entire life, and i wouldn't be surprised if she's only here to end whatever this even was.

and i'm hoping to the death of me that she's not here for that.

her eyes first scan my bedroom, then me and the i'm unable to decipher what her look actually means. and because i can't decipher and her smile fades, i assume. she hates me.

we both look at each other in an awkward daze, i'm sure she probably is okay with seeing me and so am i but she seems unfamiliar, like she's someone i need to catch up with. like we need to start over.

my thoughts are starting to begin their rampages. i feel it as soon as my fingers start tingling that i might lose control. so i bite my lip nervously and scratch the back of my neck. her eyes don't leave me almost as if she's waiting for me to say something.

so instead of doing the usual thing where i stay quiet and crawl into my mental quiet hole that beckons me, i speak.

"hey."

a look flashes in billie's eyes as they lock with mine and a small grin falls onto her face and damn, it's a breath of relief. i can see her tight clutch on her tote bag loosens slightly and the smile doesn't leave her face this time.

"hi," her voices comes out like a whisper, "how are you doing?"

my eyes flicker across her face before i answer and my breath hitches when she takes a step closer to me. "i've been okay, how about you? are you okay?"

billie nods quickly and runs her fingers through  her hair. "i'm fine, i've missed you, though."

"i've missed you too, and i know we have a lot to talk about."

billie raises her brows and nods slowly, "yeah, a lot to say for sure."

she lets out a nervous breath from what i can tell and her eyes lock with me again and stay there. my hands slip in the pockets of my sweats and truthfully i don't know where to start, so i start with what i can.

"i—i know that you probably don't think i'm the same person and i'd completely understand 'cause i lied. lied about everything. i'm not who you thought i was and i promise i'll try to make sense of it all if you let me. like i said, i understand i—if you hate me and don't want to...exactly do this anym—"

a scoff leaves billie's lips and she rolls her eyes at me. i look at her with confusion and become even more confused when a sly grin spreads across her face. "come here."

she lets go of the tote bag and drops it on the floor. a grin find its way onto my own face and i walk closer towards my girl and i let out a breath of relief when her hands pull my shirt to bring me closer.

The kiss is nearly there, we stand with our lips softly grazing each other. My fingers come up and I cup the side the side of her face and at the same time, she begins to lean in.

A shudder runs through my bones and my fingers glide into her hair pulling her to me. her lips feels soft and move slow across my lips and i never want this moment to end. when we pull away, she doesn't need to say anything cause it's just enough to know that we're good.

"truthfully, i don't care about anything that's happened." she sighs out softly, locking their lips together again.

"you don't?" i raise a brow at her and she shakes her head. "all that matters is that you're safe and okay, you're okay, right?"

"i'm perfectly okay now."

"that's good," billie purses her lips at me andf pats my chest. "because you have so much to get caught on with, i brought all of your work from school that you've missed."

i shut my eyes for a second and let out a small sigh, "i'm already excused for everything i missed,"

her small grin drops and i feel my own heart drop to my ass. i quickly reach down and grab the dropped tote bag and pass it to her. "but thank you for caring enough to get it, really."

"it's okay, guess that means we have more time to catch up, yeah?"

"we'll do whatever you want."

a/n: i really need to stop disappearing on y'all.