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The next day, I took Jess to go shopping to get new clothes for school.
London was the most beautiful place ever.
There were great scenes, museums, and shops.
We went into the dressing rooms, and I found Jess looking at other people's stools.
What the hell was she doing?
I picked her down from the chair and gave her a look.
"Jess, what do you think your doing??" I asked sternly.
"I was just making conversation, to the person next to us. Isn't that what you told me to do?" She said innocently.
"Yeah, but only when it's necessary!!" I tried yelling, but it was really hard to be mad at her.
"But he didn't even say anything, so it's okay mommy." She said raising her hand to give a high five.
"HE???!!!!" I said.
"Yeah, he." She said back.
I kneeled down to reach her height and grabbed her small arms with my hands that seemed extremely large from hers.
"Did you see anything? Preferably long with circle in the top?" I asked her as calm as possible, trying to make sure she didn't see the "D".
"No mommy, why? What is that anyways?" She asked me.
"I've said too much." I said.
"Please tell me. I promise I won't tell anybody." She said.
she was just too adorable, but TOO adorable to tell.
"Nothing, nothing. Heyy!! Do you want some ice cream?" I asked trying to change the topic.
"MOMMY!! I'm not stupid, I know your changing the subject, now please tell me!! PRETTY PLEASE WITH TRIPLE CHERRIES ON TOP!!" She said batting her eyes lashes.
God damn it, she was way too smart for her age. When I was her age, I would fall for it because Ice cream is life.
"Fine, I was talking about Micky mouse." I told her "confessing".
"Micky mouses head is not long silly!! It's round. Know your shapes." She said laughing, thinking I told her what I was talking about.
"Now, how about that ice cream?" She said looking up at me with her finger on her cheek.
"Okay, but only after we finish shopping." I said.
"Okay!!" She replied happily.

After buying more than five outfits for both of us, we headed out for ice cream.

We both got ice cream and tried finding a cab to go back home but I had no idea how people got cabs in London.
"Mommy.." Jess asked happily.
"Yes honey?" I said back.
"The guy across the street Is looking at us. Should we go over there and greet ourselves cause I don't wanna be rude." She said pointing.
"It's not good to point!!" I said whispering.
I looked to see who it was and I saw a loaf staring at me.
He was bald on the top with an up right nose. And he had a gigantic belly. Probably an inflammation from drinking too much.
How dare that coward look at me that way.
And he had a freaking nasty smirk across his face.
I tugged on Jess's arm motioning her not to go there.
"But why?" She whined.
Then I lifted her without saying anything and scrambled to a cab.
Why was she so friendly even to people she really didn't know. Or even the people that looked sick as hell.

One day, she might as well get raped.

But I try to not think about that cause it would hurt me if I figured that out. I wouldn't know what to do.

We got home around the time it started to get dark, so I made dinner as fast as I could so that Jess could go to sleep early to get ready for school tomorrow.
I feel like it was just yesterday that she was coming out of my vagina, I thought happily.
She was so small, and now she is so intelligent and fearless.
She was growing up so fast it just made me want to cry. Is this how my parents felt when I grew up, neglecting them.
I hope she doesn't do that to me.
Now I know how my parents felt.

After dinner, I put her to sleep and went into deep thoughts that even I couldn't control.

(Heyy guys. I'm so sad 😰)
Byee now v.v