Sweetest Mistake

Chapter 15

I kept my AirPods on even after Aidon got in the car. I saw him glanced at me through the rearview mirror, but I stayed silent.

Tahimik kami sa byahe, pero ramdam ko ang pagsulyap-sulyap niya sa banda ko.

Baka iniisip niyang pababain na ako. Ewan ko. Pagod na rin talaga akong isipin siya. Well, for today.

Are you okay? he asked

I could not help but stare at him in awe. That surprised me.

He asked me if I am okay and he is still waiting for my answer while staring at me, too.

I calmly looked away to pretend that his act did not affect me at all. The silence stretched, so I got curious and got tempted to check his expression.

He was still staring, but when our eyes met, he was the one to avert his eyes first. Kung hindi ako pinaglalaruan ng paningin ko ay talagang namula si Aidon sa kahihiyan.

I am okay. I dryly said, still checking his reaction.

Napatingin siyang muli sa akin, pero agad ulit nag-iwas ng tingin pagkatapos kaswal na tumango na parang hindi naman talaga seryoso ang pagtatanong niya sa akin.

Remembering what happened last night, I decided not to cook and eat dinner when we got home. The memory is still fresh for me and I have no time keeping ugly feelings every night no.

In the morning, I did the same.

I only drank tea to keep my tummy flat. I am once again wearing a cropped top with butterfly sleeves. Only this time, I paired it with a skirt with a slit and a pair of t-strap heels.

Like the usual, the start of my day was so dull, because of the silence on the way to school. Parang walang bibig tong kasama ko e. Ano pa bang aasahan ko di ba?

When we arrived at the school, I immediately got off the car and went straight to my first class. Doon pa lamang ako nakahinga nang maluwag.

I promised myself to not think about him the whole day and I was succeeding already until I saw him in the library during research time.

I was with my groupmates and we were interactively discussing our hypotheses when he entered the library with eyes instantly on me.

He looked away when he noticed he was staring longer than usual. He sat on a far table and began reading. I tried my best not to give him a glance, but every time I felt that someones watching me, I could not help but check him.

At siya nga ang tingin nang tingin. O baka nag-aassume na naman akong ako nga ang tinitignan niya?

Sa inis ay inaya ko na ang mga kasama pabalik sa speech lab kung saan kami nagkaklase para sa subject namin. At nagpatuloy nang matiwasay ang araw ko.

For two consecutive days, I feel in peace whenever Aidon is not around. Every time I see him, I feel exhausted for no reason. Para bang kagagaling ko lang sa pag-iyak nang matagal kahit hindi naman.

But I cannot last a day without him pa rin.

I can actually go back to the dorm, but I always choose not to.

Napapagod ako sa presensiya niya, pero sa presensiya niya rin ako nakakakuha ng lakas. Hindi ko rin maintindihan. At ayaw ko na lang isipin pa nang husto, kasi nakakapagod talaga.

Kumain ka na? isa na namang nakagugulat niyang tanong nang nasa loob na kami ng sasakyan niya pauwi sa bahay.

Yes. I ate with my classmates.

Classmates? he asked in a calm tone.

Yeah, those guys I am with in the library kanina if you noticed. halos pabulong na lang ang huling mga salita dahil alam ko namang kahit nakita nga niya ay baka hindi niya na naaalala.