Sweetest Mistake

Chapter 9

Wala akong ibang nagawa kundi ang tumango at manahimik na lang sa gilid habang nag-iisip-isip.

This is what I was afraid of. I transferred here just because of a very petty reason. And now that I have the answer, I am lost. I acted based on emotions. I did not think of anything else when I made the decision.

Oh, ngayon, Raven, kilala mo na ang kinahuhumalingan ni Aidon. Ano nang plano mo sa buhay mo?

Iyak ako nang iyak pag-uwi sa dorm. Hiyang-hiya ako sa kinahinatnan ng mga ginawa ko. It has been just three stagnant days and life already slapped you with the hard truth. You are just wasting your time on Aidon. It's as if you have not wasted more than enough time on him for the past years.

"I feel like shit."

Nahihiya akong tumingin kay Julian.

I was so embarrassed to tell Julian, Karel and Sophie what happened. I did not want to confirm their expectation about this stupid caper. And thinking about the dismayed Tita Chione and Kuya Ross, my heart sank deeper. I did not want to sound and look like an idiot in their eyes, at least not now.

But in a very bad timing, Julian called and had a hint that I was crying. I dropped the call the moment my sobbing intensified after he noticed it. And being a caring best friend, the lad rushed to my dormitory to know what exactly happened.

Guys are not allowed inside the bedrooms, and Julian did not want to talk to me in the living room nor the quadrangle where many students are staying, so he pulled me out and brought me to a near café.

"You know what, Rave. I don't think you transferred here just to know who that girl is."

I looked sharply at Julian.

"What do you mean by that? I am telling the truth. I just wanted to know who –"

"Well, that is what you know. But is that what you feel?"

My brows furrowed, trying to understand what he was saying. Julian rolled his eyes at my slowness. He moistened his lips with his tongue and leaned closer to the table.

"Raven, I am thinking, maybe you unconsciously desired to stop whatever it is that Aidon has with that girl?"

My eyes dilated in shock. I opened my mouth to rebut, however, my system was rapidly imbued by sundry feelings and thoughts. It was like they were just waiting for a trigger to break free. In the end, I just laid my back on the splat and sighed.

Julian smirked. I wanted so bad to glare at him, but a part of me thinks he is right.

I let the silence linger more, to think and breathe.

"So what am I going to do now? Suggestions?" I asked after a while.

"Ang sabi mo, hindi pa naman nililigawan 'di ba? Wait a little more. Malay natin kung temporary interest lang pala si Therese?" he shrugged his shoulders.

I smiled dryly and shook my head.

"Aidon is not like you, Julian."

The daft only chuckled in response.

"He is probably serious with her." I can't stop the despair in my tone.

"Probably. You're still not sure. I told you, be patient. Wait for a month or two. We'll see. Call me if you have an update."

Julian sounded so serious that he seemed so trustworthy and supportive. But of course, I'm not an idiot to believe.

After that wretched night, my life went on. I tried to live my life the way I promised my family. For the first two weeks, I was almost convinced that I am trying to move on. But the moment I saw him again in person, I lost all the strength to move on. I'm back to being that stupid girl who is content with a one-sided love story again. A muted one.