8 sips of Poison | Stray Kids Mafia AU (part 2 of 8 sips of Wine)

Don't break my heart!

Inside the airplane to France

Jisung was in the bathroom, throwing up everything he ate which wasn't quite a lot.

He took the toilet paper to wipe his mouth and saw a message written on it.

"Better choke on fear than on food"

The traitor knew everything...

What scared Jisung the most was that he would tell everybody what he knew.

-Ji, are you alright? Changbin knocked on the door.

-Yeah. I think I ate something expired. Give me a minute.

He got up and watched his reflection in the mirror, then pulled his oversized shirt, molding it along his body curves.

When he got closer, he squeezed his face, trying to sharpen his features.

He wanted to take the scissors and cut off the fat, his cheeks, everything that was unnecessary. That made him look ugly.

But everything was making him look ugly from his perspective. He hated himself. He was imperfect.

"I gained weight" he smiled through the pain as the corners of his mouth tasted the salty tears.

-Is something wrong with him? Seungmin asked, not even daring to look in Changbin's direction.

-Since when do you care?

-I am not heartless. And shouldn't you be apologizing to me for going through my phone?

-Seungmin, I am tired.

-Tired of me? Seungmin became defensive.

-Tired of this game. I can't make you trust me. I can't make you become something you're not. And you don't deserve someone who wants to change you.

-What's with all that all of a sudden? Seungmin asked with a shaky voice.

-I can't trust you if you don't trust me. I can't love you if you won't let me, Seungmin! This is just torture. I'm sorry! We are not right after all... You keep pushing me back. I'm done running. You wanna face your battles alone? Fine. But don't lead me on.

-You're not serious, Seungmin looked at him gulping. You know how much I have been trying to keep you out of the equation? To keep you off the list of traitors when I know very well you can hack as well. Cause I taught you to! I know you could have taken my laptop and done all this shit! I know! But I don't wanna believe it! Why the fuck are you proving me wrong now? he yelled, disturbing the other passengers.

-I knew you are suspecting me as well. I don't need protection. This is exactly why we can't trust each other. I know how smart you are, Seungmin, but I know it's not you. You wouldn't do this to us. To your family. You need to keep yourself safe cause the more you dig in, the faster you'll get hurt. And that's the last thing I wanna see.

-Then don't break my heart! Seungmin took Changbin's hand in his palms. Bin, please! I wanna trust you... I just can't. Not yet.

-I love you, Changbin kissed Seungmin's forehead. But I can't do this anymore. Tell me when you're truly ready for us.

A tear escaped and rolled down Seungmin's cold cheek.

He was frozen. Couldn't process the fact that he was alone.

Alone...once again.

-Are you alright? Felix asked Changbin when the latter sat down in his seat.

-We need to focus. We still need proof if we want to tell the others who is the traitor.

-Who we think he is, Felix emphasized: "think".