8 sips of Poison | Stray Kids Mafia AU (part 2 of 8 sips of Wine)

Almost

TW: mentions of sexual assault, violence, eating disorder and mental abuse

Felix sat on the edge of the bathtub, watching it filling with hot water.

His gaze was fixed on the white faience, unstained by blood. So clean and shiny.

He looked up at the head shower head and flinched at the memory of him being hit with it because he dared to resist Baekhyeon's advances.

-Felix? Felix!

Jisung rushed to close the water tap before overflowing.

-Are you okay?

-Yeah... I just wanted to take a bath.

-Did he do it with you as well?

Felix looked up at Jisung in shock.

-The bath time game.

-I thought...

-He didn't succeed it with me. My grandma was always home and I refused to go to his place. But he tried. "It's bath time, it's bath time. A good boy always takes a bath when I tell him to." At first I thought this was his way of checking my weight. He liked to see my ribs slowly showing. Now I know what he was trying to do.

Felix didn't say a thing and bent his head.

-Jump in! I'll wash you, Jisung said smiling. If it's okay with you, of course. You can keep your shorts on.

Felix complied and sat down in the water, hugging his knees while Jisung was rubbing his back with soap.

-I was always jealous on you, Jisung confessed. I thought you had it all. You were skinny and beautiful and you could eat everything you wanted without worrying about gaining weight. You were my dream. Even Baekhyeon thought of you as a better version of me. Everytime I would look at you I wanted to throw up what I ate that day. Because I wasn't good enough. I envied you. I'm sorry! his voice broke. I'm so sorry, Felix! I didn't know... I don't deserve your forgiveness!

Felix placed his hand on Jisung's arm and smiled sincerely at him.

-I wanted to be as lucky as you. To be able to say "almost". "He almost did that to me". But just because you can say "almost", it doesn't mean he did nothing to you. He played with your mind and made you think so little of yourself. He messed us up both. My body and your mind. We learned to see ourselves incomplete because that's the way he saw us. He wanted someone that had my skinny body and your obedient mind. He wanted a doll. But we're not dolls, Jisung... I am me and you are you. We are beautiful, okay? Don't ever compare to me, please!

Jisung wrapped his arms around the younger and started crying messily.

-I love you, Lix! I love you so much! I love you all! I love you I love you I love you! I know I've been bad and a mess and I'm so sorry!

-I love you all too! Felix said between his sniffs. I've found my family in you! You're my angels sent by mom and dad, he chuckled. I was never alone. I was just not meant to meet you yet.

-Yeah... We were not meant to meet yet. We were destined to meet and have the most gut wrecking conversation while one of us is naked and the other full of soap, he laughed.

He took a good look at Felix and glued their foreheads together.

The hotel

-We're baaa.... THE FUCK! Seungmin jumped behind Chan when he saw Hyunjin half naked with his red hair and cold eyes.

-It's dye, not blood! Jeongin clarified.

Seungmin relaxed a bit but remained behind the leader.

-Hyunjin, what's with the new look? Chan asked calmly.

-Have you found them?

-No-not yet, Seungmin stuttered. But I narrowed it down to a few buildings. It shouldn't be that hard.

-Then do it! I'll kill him! I'll fucking kill him! That bloody traitor doesn't deserve any mercy.

-He's your husband, Hyunjin! Chan tried to put his anger down.

-Husband? Seungmin looked at Jeongin in shock. For how long have I been asleep?

-Look what they did to us! If it was all planned, then they played us! They hurt us! They fucked us up! Don't stand there like an idiot! Find them! he shouted at Seungmin.

The younger pretended that he wanted to show Hyunjin something on the phone and put him to sleep with electroshocks.

-Hyung! Jeongin widened his eyes.

-Chill, he's not dead. He was getting out of hand.

-What do we do with him?

-He'd done this before, right? Lock him in his room and wait until he gets back to normal, he told Chan.

-I don't have any key to lock him up. We're in a hotel! I don't even have the key to the bathroom...

-Then let's take him with us.

-Where?

-To the others, he showed the location on his phone.

-I thought you didn't know-

-I wouldn't tell him directly. He could have knock us down and run by himself.

-If we take him with us, he'll kill Felix, Chan explained.

-Let him. You can't repress love with hatred. He won't kill him. Trust my intuition. Besides... Felix is no easy kill.

-What about you? Will you fight Changbin? Chan raised an eyebrow.

-Hell nah! You will! Bin is a muscle machine. Deal with it! I want Minho, he smirked. One at one.

Back to the building where the others are hiding

Minho was outside the bathroom, leaning on the door with his arms crossed.

-What's our next move? Changbin came along with Chaeryeong.

-Why didn't you kill him when you went to save Jisung? she asked confused.

-Have patience, please. I needed him to go to his last hideout. I have to destroy every single one to make sure someone else won't take his place and torture more kids. I ain't playing with a hydra here. I'll cut all the heads at once.

-So where are we going?

-The last thing you thought of. But firstly we need the rest of the team. And they will come.

-How can you be so sure? Changbin furrowed.

-Because your boyfriend thinks he is smart enough to create an ambush. So predictable, he scoffed. He is still mad I beat him at a mind game. Watch him come after my neck. Hyunjin will go after Felix. Chan after you because you match in strength and Jeongin after Jisung. Let them bring what they've got. I'll fix this team even if I need to weld it back.