Weirdo (Ruikasa)

Part14

TW: Angsty, Slurs, Homofobia

All night I thought of a plan to make up with Nene, and not only. I hope it will work, it must work.

I walked in school and everybody looked at me. Everybody. That was...really weird. They all knew me for being noisy, and sometimes they talked shit about me, but now it's different. Everybody is looking at me, not with a nice stare, they look at me with disguist. WHAT IS HAPPENING? Did I do something? I walked pass few girls, thay started to whisper, and laugh. Something is really wrong.

It's not only students. I saw teachers looking at me, even worse than some people. I think I'm fucked. I don't know why, but something really bad is going on.

I saw Touya on halway, alone. I walked to him.
"HEY TOUYA!!"
"Hello Tsukasa" He said with a soft smile.
"How is it going? Where is your orange friend"
"Just great. About Akito, he's at cafeteria with An, other friend of mine" Everybody on hallway had eyes on us. It was really uncomfortable. I felt all stares on me. It's creeping me out.
"Well then Touya, can I ask you something? Ofcourse I can HAHA." I didin't let Touya answer and continued. " Why is everybody looking at me? Did something happen? Can you tell me what?" Touya's face changed, he looked worried and sad now.
"Well about that-"

Three buffed guys walked to us. One touched Toyas head.
"Hello there, Touya buddy can we talk?" He deffintly wanted to do someting bad. I could feel it.
"Actually I'm quite busy...sorry"
"We aren't asking" Said guy with angry stare.
"Do you know them Touya?" I asked really confused
"Not really."
"Come with us Touya" They all looked like they wanted to beat him up, and I won't let them do that.
"LEAVE TOUYA ALONE" I screamed. They all looked at me. Those three guys looked at me with disguist and with death stare. They looked like they wanted to kill me. They grabbed Touya, against his will and took him outside.
"HEY WAIT" I tried to stop them but one of guys pushed me down the floor.

I can't let them do anything to Touya. I will do anything to prorect him.

I runned after them and hid in the bushes.

"Well then Touya, we don't want to hurt you dude, we want just to talk. We want to talk about... a friend of yours." Started one of the boys. "You have heard what they talk about him, haven't you?" My heart stopped. So they knew something. They knew something horrible about me, right?
"I don't know what you'r talking about." Answered Touya.
"Oh you sure do, don't act stuipid."
"I really have no idea." Touya knew about this, he just acted like stuipid. I'm not sure why.
"Oh come on... about him being a fucking f@ggot."

Oh god. Oh no.

No. No...no.

Everything but this. How would they know about this? Wait...did everyone know. No, no, no. Shit. Why.

Suddenly I couldn't breath. No matter how big breaths I took it wasn't enough. I feelt like I'm choking. I removed tie from my neck, thinking it will help me breath. It didin't. Everything is spinning. They can't know it, no. Touya can't know about this. He is my friend since forever. I can't loose him, please no.

"Oh." Touya said. He seemed dissapointed. Shit.
"We came to warn you about that. You don't want to hang out with him."
"What do you mean?" Asked Touya. You could hear him being angry.
"You don't know what he can do he's a fucking psychopath. One moment and that queer will r@pe you. That is how f@ggots are, disguisting." That hurt. But they were right, I'm disguusting f@ggot. But I woukd never r@pe someone especially Touya. What is wrong with this fuckers?

"Stop it." Touya looked at them pissed off.
"Woah dude chill, we are trying to help you."
"The one who is disguisting ,is you" when I heard this I could breath again.
"Why are you protecting him...oh wait" he laughed "I know, you are his fucking boyfriend" I felt my blood boiling. "You and him are fucking f@ggots pfft. Did you sucked his dick already." Now that's enough. I almost got up and punched that guy, but I couldn't move.
"Shut up." Touya was angry as well.
"Two f@ggots are going to school with us, gross. You and you'r boyfriend will live in hell."
"We aren't dating"
"Yeah sure, oh wait maybe you are changing genders as well, and will walk in fucking dresses HAHAHAH. The place Tsukasa belongs is trash. Everyobdy hates him now, isn't that funny? HE'S A f@g! YOU HEAR ME? A FUCKING F@G. A DISGUISTING RAT." He sterted to scream. Is he fucking insane? He looked at me. "I KNOW YOU'R THERE." Shit. He saw me. He walked my way, he surely wanted to beat me up.

I run away as fast as I could, and locked my self in toilet, crying. It's truly the worst day of my life. I  heard the guy's voice in my head. There were even more tears on my eyes now. FUCK WHY DO THEY KNOW. Even I hate myself for who I am, and now everybody hates me to. Now everybody sees how pathetic I am. Now I will loose everyone, all planing to make up with Nene and Rui will go on waste. I will loose them, I will loose Touya. Fuck.

I hear someone getting in. I knew who it was. It was Touya. I saw his shadow. He walked near toilet cabin and knocked.
"Tsukasa I know you'r there. Are you okay?" He asked. He was really worried.
"Yeah I'm fine" I said while crying.
"You'r not."
"I'm sorry Touya. I'm sorry."
"Why are you sorry Tsukasa?"
"For being fucking disguisting. I'm sorry, I'm sorry." I cryied really hard.
"You aren't disguisting Tsukasa."
"But I am! I'm a f@g you heard that!"
"Don't say that. It's fine. Being gay is normal." What. Did he really say that. I felt happiness in my heart. Maybe I won't loose Touya.
"Is it?"
"Yeah it is. You are normal Tsukasa." He added.

I cryied again. But this time itwas happiness, and sadness at the same time(?). I never heard this words from anyone ever. But I wanted to hear them so much. I was always loud and annoying, I wanted to think I'm normal, but everybody called me weird. I always wished, that somebody will say that, i wished somebody saw I'm normal. I needed this.
"It's fine Tsukasa, you can be sad"
BUT I CAN'T! I'M WORLD FUTURE STAR, I'M NEVER SAD! DEPRESSION AND ANXIETY CAN'T GET ME"
"That's a lie. You are human. You are incredible star, but you are also human. Remember that." It was so nice to hear this words. But it was weird. Few monts ago I would think it is impossible to make me cry, that I'm always happy. Look at me now, all covered in tears.

"What do I do now Touya."
"What do you mean?"
"I have no future, it's all over. I can't be a star whe everybody hate me. And I will be bullied and I won't have any friends at all"
"You aren't giving up Tsukasa, right?"
"What?"
"When I was a kid I didin't have anything. My future was all planned by my father and I couldn't do anything. I couldn't have own dreams, but then you showed up. You told me about your dream, you told me how it is to be free. You told me to never give up. You tried for years to be a star, and now you are giving up?" Touya was right. I'm a star! I will never give up!
"YOU'R RIGHT TOUYA." He chuckled.
"Thanks Touya. For everything. Thanks for accepting me. Thank you"I smiled.
"No problem at all, I shoudl be the one to thank you. You always have helped me."

We heard a bell. Class has just started.
"I think we should go Tsukasa"
"You can go, I need to think about something."
"Sure? If anything bad happends please tell me" Touya left bathroom. I'm grateful to have friend like him.

There is just one probelm. How does everybody know? I didin't tell anybody except, except... Emu.

Heya! So here's angsty chapter but next ones going to be even worse(yay!!). I have many ideas and I think this fic will be longer that I have expected(heh). I'm sorry that this chapter is so chaotic. Anyways, I hope you guys are crying, and having fun. See you!