Weirdo (Ruikasa)

Part 17

What the fuck happend

I don't know what's happening. Right now, I'm running, my hands and my face are frozen. Where am I going? Oh yeah my house. I wasn't in my house tonight. Wait where was I? Oh...

Now I remember. I fell asleep. Outside. With Rui. I had my head on his shoulder. We held hand (No homo🙄).

We.

WE WHAT.

I stopped for a second trying to remive blush from my face. Holy shit. I'm so happy. I shouldn't be but I'm am.

STOP IT TSUKASA UGH. That night didn't meant anything. We are just both guys, friends, homies. Yes.

UGH. WHY DO I HAVE HOPE THAT I MIGHT BE SOMETHING WITH HIM. THERE IS LITERALLY NO CHANCE BUT BUT...

He isn't disguisted with me. He heard rumours, he did. And he still... he still likes me. How could he not hate me?

Okay stop being emo Tsukasa you need to get home. Saki must be worried.

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Saki opened door.
"Brother!! Where were you?" She hugged me
"Hello princess! I with my friend..."
"Brother stoo calling me princess! I'm not a child anymore!!" She said annoyed "What friend? Why didn't you tell us you were going to sleep there? Me and mom were so worried!" ...yeah right mom
"I didn't meant to fall asleep, but I did haha..."
"Okay then-" Saki was interrupted in the middle of the sentence.
"Oh my god Tsukasa!!" Mom noticed me. "I was so worried about you!"
"Hey mom" My mom came closer and touched my face.
"Honey you'r freezing what happend?!"
"I met my friend, and we... fell asleep. Outside."
"You're so inresponsible! I'll give you some soup to heat you up."

I sat on sofa waiting for my food. Saki sat besides me.
"Tell me, tell me who is you'r girlfriend!" She said.
"Eh? Girlfriend?" I said confused.
"Uh the one you were hanging out yesterday?" Where did she get that idea from?
"Eee that isn't my girlfriend. It isn't even a girl. I was with my friend, Rui"
"Ohh the purple guy (fnaf music starts playing)"
"Yeah."

Mum came with my soup.
"Here it is! It everything up!"
"I will"
"Right, you neeed to be in school tomorrow." Last thing I wanted right now was going back there.
"Do I have to?"
"Yes, you weren't in school for a week! I know you aren't sick!"
"I never said I was sick, I said I don't feel good. These are two different things!"
"I don't want to argue with you right now... go to your room." So I did.

The next day😨

I got up from bed feeling dizzy. I got downstairs seeing ny mom and my sister.
"Here you are! Me and Saki are going in a second so great timing!" My mom greated me.
"Mum... I don't feel good" I really feel shitty. It feels like I'm going to collapse.
"I won't fall for your lies again. You're a great actor thought."
"Mum, Tsukasa looks really pale... what if he got sick? He was whole night outside. Remember?"
"Saki he's fine." Everything started to be blury. I fell on the ground.

I woke up few minutes later.
"Brother! You're up. Are you okay?"
Saki touched my head.
"Geez you're hot (don't taje this wrong way). Mum I thing he's fever."
"Oh god... Tsukasa go to your bed. I can't take care of you right now. I nees to bring Saki to school." Honestly I'm not suprised. It was always that way. Saki is most importand. Even for me, but it still hurts. Well my parents left me when they needed to get her to hospital, but even when she wasn't there she was always the most importand. Haha. Why do I feel this way... am I... am I jealous. Over my own sister. Over my own sick sister. That's pathethic.

"Mom you can't leave sick pefson like that! I can go to school myself, really."
"No, Saki. Your brother is and adult! He needs to take care of himself!" Adult?
"Mum I'm 17. You don't even remember how old I am?"
"Well, you'r almost adult doesn't matter. Listen I need to take care of your sister. We don't want that she ends up in hospital again, right?" It hurt. It hurt so fucking much.
"So you'r going to leave your sick son, because you need to drive perfectky fine Saki to school? What the hell mom."
"I know you're mad but you need tk understand the situation."
"I understand the situation! You love Saki more! I get it okay?! You could at least stay with me for once, like a real mother. You're just leaving me all alone again." Shit I'm going to cry.
"Again? You wanted to stay alone in your room for a week, and now you're complaing. Like always I'm a villian!"
"I'm not talking about that! I'm talking about my whole live! As a fucking 5 year old I needed to do everything myself because you and father needed to go to see Saki!"
"She was sick!" I know she was. Why am I saying this horrible shit. Why am I so stubborn?
"I AM SICK NOW TOO? FUCKING GOD CAN'T YOU SEE IT I NEED YOU GOD DAMMIT." I cried out.
"Saki we're leaving."
"But mom Tsukasa needs help! You can't leave him like that!"
"I can do anything I want! Go in car now!"
"But-"
"GO INTO THE FUCKING CAR!!" Saki scared got up and headed to car. She looked at me guiltily. Fuck no. Did I make Saki sad. No, no, no. Why am I so useless? Why do I make everyone around me mad or sad goddamit.

....

Mom and Saki left

Ther really did. They left me sick. Alone. Crying on floor. Nice.

I hardly got up, and went to my room. I want to hug someone.

I want to see Emu.

Another emo chapter! Anyways I totally forgit about that christmas soecial haha. I'm never promising you something again. And sorry if this is shitty but I wrote it rlly fast.