Weirdo (Ruikasa)

Part16

I wasn't in school for 3 days. I feel bad, mum and Saki are really worried about me. I sighned and got out of bed (finally). I put on my regular clothes and got downstairs. Nobody was there. The quitness made me feel really lonely. My parents were at work and Saki at school. I was alone, almost like... NO TSUKASA NO MORE NEGATIVE THOUGHTS. It was past so I need to forget aboutcit. I cheered myself up and did breakfast. To be honest I'm the best cooker in the world HAHA.

I decided to go outside today. Just for a walk to refresh my mind, and think about something that isn't Emu or past.

I opened door and then I felt freezing air all over my body. Shit I forgot it's winter. Sadly there wasn't any snow, only freezing cold. I putted on my winter jacked and finally stepped outside. I was walking and then I saw something. Someone. Not only someone it was...

"RUI?!" I screamed at purple haired boy.
...THIS LITTLE SHIT DIDN'T EVEN RESPOND TO ME. Was he really that angry? Next thing I noticed was that he looked really sad. What happend?

"Eh Rui are you okay?" I asked and then I saw something. Something really disguisting and scary. It was, it was a bug.
"AHHHH WHAT THE DUCK" I screamed in fear.
"Don't worry Tsukasa it's dead" he finally spoke.
"Oh."
"It was a beetle, a really beautiful one" Beautiful? This shit is disguisting.
"I think it is quite the oposite of beautiful" Rui still stared at the bug with sadness in his eyes.

"What is it Rui, you seem really sad..."
"It is nothing Tsukasa"
"I may be stuipid but not blind, tell me"
"It is stupid" he forced laugh
"Nothing you feel is stuipid, tell me!"
"It is just that I killed that beetle."
"And waht about it?"
"He didin't deserve it."
"What-"
"Haha I told you it is stuipid."
"So you feel guiltily because you killed that." He nodded. "Wow that really is stuipid." I said and he laughed.
"I guess it is alright." I said.
"Hm?"
I mean everyone has its weird thinks they do, and you know I have a lot of wierd things."
"I know." He still was sad. I stared to laugh.
"What's wrong?"
"Nothing, it's funny how a big guy like such a soft heart."
"Is it an insult?"
"No, just sometimes you look like you're about to murder everyone but in fact you want a complete opposite."
It wasn't funny for him.

I thought of someting that could cheer him up. OHH I KNOW.
"Hey let's go Rui"
"Where?"
"We're going to burry the bug" I said confidently.
"What"
"Come on don't be so stubborn, go get a bug."

We found a small place with ground and we digged a small hole. Rui putted a bug there and we covered it up. We decorated it's grave with branches and flowers. Then we sat and looked at it for few minutes.

Rui started to laugh.
"HEY WHY ARE YOU LAUGING?!"
"It's nothing, just it's stuipid how we're doing a funeral for a bug."
"EH WHY?!"
"Tsukasa we are almost adults."
"Who cares, it's fun being a child" He smiled.
"I guess you're right"
We started praying. Well i agree with Rui it's stuipid to pray for a bug very stupid ,but it seemed like it cheered Rui up a little.

"You know, when Saki was younger she killed her hamster." Rui looked at me really confused.
"Oh"
"She wanted to see if it can fly and pushed it off the balcony."
"Oh..."
"She couldn't stop crying ,so to cheer her up I did funeral for him. I also said it's not her fault, even if it was. Well she was happier so it worked, and I thought it will also work on you"
"Well that story surely is something... but it did cheer me up, thank you Tsukasa, really I'm grateful." He said with a warm smile. "You are also a great brother."
"OFCOURSE I AM" I got up and screemed

We talked about syuipid things and then he asked me somethink more serious
"Are you okay?" He asked
"What do you mean?"
"You weren't in school, and you didn't respond any messages and calls."
"Oh that... haha I'm fine Rui just I was sick"
"Don't lie" I don't want to start that conversation, I hate talking about my problems.
"It's really fine" He look at me with an annoyed look on his face.
"OKAY OKAY I'LL TELL YOU ,JUST DON'T LOOK AT ME LIKE THAT."

"So um... me and Emu got into a fight."
"You did what" OH HE IS ANGRY
"I SWEAR IT'S NOT MY FAULT THIS TIME. It was her."
"Emu and fight?"
"No, I started the fight but she did something terrible."
"Like what?" I took a big breath. That will be hard. I could tell that rumours are a lie or...

"You know the rumours about me, right?" I'm starting to get really anxious. At first he stayed quite, he was thinking about what he should say.
"I've heard a little bit"
"Well... it's because of Emu" He looked at me like at an idiot.
"Emu? Tsukasa I don't want to be rude but Emu doesn't go to school with us. Are you sure she said that, or you think."
"I KNOW I HAVE EVIDENCE!"
"Oh really?"
"OH COME ON WHY WON'T YOU BELIEVE ME"
"It's just very not Emu."
"I know, but she was the only that knew eh- you know..." My heart us racing, what will he say?
"Maybe it's misunderstanding?" Wow he didn't seemed to be shocked or something.
"I hoped so, but I met her and she admitted she did that."
"Oh..." Rui was really suprised.
"I know."
"I'm sorry Tsukasa."
"Don't be, it's fine. I should be the one who's sorry."
"Why is that?" He asked confused.
"Because of all that drama we can't perform anymore."
"Oh yeah...it's fine Tsukasa"
"It's not."
"It will work out somehow I promise."

And then I realised. I WAS HOLDING RUI'S HAND ALL THE TIME. SHIT I THINK RUI NOTICED IT TOO. His face was as red as mine.
"EH YOU KNOW RUI IT IS COLD AND YOU DON'T HAVE GLOVES SO I THOUGHT-" I started explaun myself
"It's fine Tsukasa." He calmes me down, although he was anxious too. He lied his head on my shoulder. HE DID WHAT. I FEEL LIKE MY HEAD IS GOING TO EXPLODE.
"Can we stay like this for a while?"
"AH EH UUM- SURE" I tried to act cool, but it didn't work out.

We fell asleep.

After all this angst finally a fluff chapter. And sorry again that this chapter is late again, but I'm lazy. I'm thinking kf doing an chrisymas special but I think I will not finish it until christmas but I'll try.