Still into You [GxG]

31.

I ran into cold shower trying to diminish the memories yet I could still feel her lips on me.

How she kissed me, of how it's fitting but the feeling is scaring.

Of what if, she kiss me because I asked her? Of why in the heaven and hell I asked her to kiss me? What got in my head?? Is it the math stress?

My phone chiming.

Thewannabeadopted: So?

And now my hand is trembling and so is the nervous in my chest.

Jace is just downstairs, I could hear them talking earlier.

Me: What?
Thewannabeadopted: The kiss is...?
Me: Sloppy

I hit send but why did I just said that? As if I'm daring her to do it again??

Thewannabeadopted: hmm...sloppy.

And now my heart is stomping the walls of my chest. Should I ask mom to send me far away for college? Because whatever it was earlier? Is making my heart uncontrollably crazy!

I flinched when Ross call out my name for breakfast. That's where I check myself in the mirror, do I look cute in this beige top and cargo pants?

But who cares?

So I stand up and walking myself downstairs and into the kitchen with Ross, Cassy and Jace smirking at me.

"Hey aren't you going home to take a shower and change clothes? Your smell is so yesterday" I say to her before pulling the chair and sit.

Yet I forgot she's Jace "You smelled it?" she says in teasing tone and she knew how it caught me off guard to the way her smile is getting wider "And no I'm not going home. I have spare clothes in here"

I ignored her festering smirk and focus on my pancake "I thought you don't like eating breakfast?" Cassy noticing

"Uh—yeah. Mostly. But I kinda tired" I reasoned.

Jace sit across me then place her comment "Just that and you're already tired?" that made me almost choke on my food then glared her. She look to Ross and Cassy, smiled before continuing "I gave her 3 problem solving test sample"

Cassy sighed then say "Can you go easy on her Jace? Take it slow you know it's her weakness"

"I don't think she likes it light. She just complained how it was sloppy" then look to me.

I'm sure my palm is getting sweaty cold but I can feel my face being hot.

"I'm gonna go. Jules is gonna give me a ride" Picking my bag I left them and heading straight to Jules whom I thanked that she's still here "Good morning Jules"

She jolted by my suddenness with that pale look in her face "You scared the shit out of me Reese!" She exclaimed after gaining back the colors "What now?"

I gesture to her car and plea in puppy eyes "Please?" She sighed in defeat and looking in nothingness as if her life is draining her out before agreeing so I immediately hopped in with a beaming smile.

Along our way, the only sounds you can hear is Sza singing 'snooze'.

"Is it because of Jace again?" She don't need my confirmation because she always easily read me, that's how strong our bond is. "Reese why can't you just tell her already? You're just making yourself suffer"

I tried to laugh it out but eventually fails and now I'm staring blankly in the road "I'm not into girls. I'm straight"

But heard her chuckled in disbelieving reaction "Is it your everyday mantra while looking at yourself in your LED bathroom mirror?"

"I'm just confused but no. I dated boys in Adelaide so I know that I'm not attracted to girls. I don't even like those girls back in my school?" I tell her in creasing forehead.

Of why this feels like I'm convincing myself than Jules.

"Your own word Reese. You date boys to deceive yourself, to feel like you're straight but no Reese. You just justified your denial feeling. But not liking other girls doesn't mean you're not attracted" she gesturing her right arms in explaining "But Reese no one's judging. We love you and accepted your insane ass when we're 5 years old and that wouldn't change whether you decide to convert in cult because you're weird as shit! Your type of interest is far from our liking, you're so obsessed in cemetery, ghosts and abandoned house and we're not but still we're friends!"

By watching her mad action and hearing those words, it absolutely made my lip curling for trying not to cry but failing "I'm sorry Jules!" then leaned to hug her while she's driving.

Her free right hand patted my arms and lightly leaning her cheeks against my head "You're so fucking moron"

After horrible things happened in past few years, finally a rainbow showed up.

Steph and Eve is waving over there as they saw Jules and I walking next to each other with arms in hers.

"Wow so we're finally coming back to normal" Eve noticed.

Steph patted my shoulder and letting me know that everything's good now. We all heading to the canteen and sat on our usual to spend time before the first class.

Ross and Cassy is in their usual seat but my eyes is searching for someone that's making my heart flip but in dismay, the bell rung and she's nowhere in the canteen, even Jade is missing our usual morning.

Did I just asked her to kiss me knowing she has a girlfriend? Then if that so, Byron is right. I'm a fucking school whore.