Still into You [GxG]

43.

"What about Jade?" I'm furious that she's making stupid promise that she might break. Believe me when I say that most promises are meant to be broken.

"Jade is just my friend" she frustratedly say "Reese can you trust me?"

It's hard to decline when she's staring to me like that, one stare and it always soften my heart. I wasn't aware that I'm becoming this weak girl because of her. This is far from who I was before, not even close to my previous relationship in Adelaide.

"Yeah fine. But what if Zoey comes back from college break? We know first love is hard to forget" I dared with my arms folded over my chest.

Far from my expectations, she's agreeing on that—so it means there's a high chance that she'll crawl back to Zoey? And basing on her reaction, she is not shy to admit that, especially now that she's smiling from ear to ear while I'm in awe...."You're right, first love always hard to forget but lucky me, she even became my hot tempered girlfriend now"

The annoying hotness in my face is starting to build and I can feel that I'm loosing myself slowly to her smiling eyes "It's Saturday morning, the first time I went to your house to play games with Ross and you were walking downstairs. Your hair is in messy bun, obviously you just woke up, our eyes meet. It's funny to think that you have a dark brown eyes but it's colder than blue. You walked towards me, I smiled but you just say 'eww are you sure about my brother?' then turned to Ross and watched you guys bickering over a remote control"

"Shut up" is the only word I can say to hide how I'm feeling so flushed right this moment. I rolled my eyes and walked to her car "and who says I'm your girlfriend?"

She subtly shrugged but walking cooly to the driver side "Your dad approved and he's the higher power"

"He wish that too but it's my mom"and can't hide the slipping smile in my lip before hopping inside the car and buckling my seatbelt.

I tilted my head when mom knocks in the window "Yeah?"

"Can I take you to school instead?" She ask, glancing to Jace.

I took a deep inhale before hopping out from the car and now watching Jace leaving our driveway.

Mom motion me to follow her and there I sat uncomfortably in nervous.

"Mom, wrong way" I can't blame her, she's gone for 2 years maybe she forgot the directions. Apparently, she continue driving to the opposite road.

"You can go to school tomorrow" she say's nonchalantly.

"I always know I have a cool mom" she just chuckled but really this is driving me insane, for sure she wants to know something.

She wanted to talk so we went to the mall, this is her way of channeling stress to being an impulsive buyer.

I just know that she has a lot in mind after gradually grabbing 2 bags the moment we step inside while I silently follow behind, watching her being indecisive whether it's the black heels or hot pink, but I knew she will take both of them and I wasn't wrong.

"Anything you want sweetie?" She ask while pushing the shopping cart and wandering her eyes in the racks.

We walked around the store in full cart and now trying to hold all these paper bags with both of our hands and stopping into her favorite Italian restaurant.

"Whoo" mom exhaling loudly and now looking to me "Okay we need to talk Reese"

"Hmm" I hummed while watching her almost draining the red wine.

"Are you okay?" She enquire, gauging my eyes, trying to find something, something to make her understand what she just heard during breakfast. "Reese is this because you're on trauma? I mean baby, it's reasonable. You've gone to that nightmare and it's okay that you're feeling like you're uncomfortable with boys for now. You probably don't trust them after what happened, and I get it, this is just a phase baby"

I know she will not understand it in one shot. Mom saw the girl I was in Adelaide, the random boyfriends, me sneaking out with them and she always tells me to always be careful because I'm young and there's so much for me in the future and how she's always afraid to wake up with me saying that I'm pregnant and right now, finding out that I'm into girls must be probably mind blowing.

"Jace is a good kid, honey. Your dad and I trust her a lot and we're so thankful that she's there for Ross especially in the peak of our divorce. But that kid doesn't deserve to hurt just because you're hiding away"

"Mom" she stop and leaned, focusing all her attention of what I will say "Yes I've been hiding for 2 years and I thought that I can, but I couldn't. The thing is, the girl I'm trying so hard to be is the one in Adelaide.....Mom, I thought I could change things, that I can control it, with random flirting just to feel that I'm normal. But the more I ran, the more it chase me. Party over party, boys after boys but I still feel empty by the end of the day" I reach for her hand in the table and holding it tightly "Mom, I'm sorry, I tried and I know this is gonna be hard for you but I really, really like Jace before Adelaide and honestly? I went with you to escape from myself"

She sighed but her expression softened, she even hold my hand with both of hers "I'm your mom Reese and I will support and accept of whoever you wanna be as long as it makes you happy, complete and true to yourself"

I look up the sky for trying to hold this stupid tears "This is embarrassing, we're sitting in the alfresco with people passing by and we're both stupidly tearing up"

We both chuckled whilst drying our tears. Mom reach my face and stroking her thumb in my upper cheeks "I'm proud of you honey, you're so brave and I'm thankful you got it from me"

"Yeah, imagine having 2 Ross as your kid"

"Your brother cries ugly. God help that boy, geez"