Still into You [GxG]

19. Day 1 again

Ever experienced hyperventilating? —I just had one. The feeling of rapid breathing to the point that it makes your body shakes excessively that you don't
have the power to control it.

That's what happened.

"Hey" Eve and Steph peek behind the door, shortly waving their hand before entering my room "How are you holding up?" Eve asked, sitting in my right side.

"You know me, I'm fine" I respond feeling a little awkward now that they're here in my room and we are finally talking after 2 long years.

"Of course you are. I never imagine that having red hair makes a person cold and partly bitch" we softly chuckled on that, but then her expression softens.

The conscience in my head is screaming, of how I put my walls so up just to avoid rejection and yet here they are....in time I needed most.

"I'm so sorry guys—I guess I'm really a coward, I'm so scared to approach you guys because of rejection" I sincerely say to both of them now sitting both in my sides.

Eve playfully slammed my shoulder, I fake an 'ouch' but slipping a smile before the tears fall down "So that's how low our friendship bond? Of course we're mad but not mad-mad—we're just—hurt. Of how you left us and cut all the connections because you suddenly decided to be this red hair bitch" now the regret in my decision is crawling seeing the outcome that I did to myself.

Shit. I didn't know that I'm crying if it weren't for Eve wiping my cheeks using the back of her palm. There are no words to say of how I was so wrong but engulfed her to hug then gesturing Steph to join in.

"I'm so glad to have you back guys" I whisper before pulling them more tighter and then hearing their complains of how they can't breath and trying to get off my arms but we ended up wrestling each other in bed.

Eve surrendering her hands in the air while Steph and I is on top of her body "Wait guys!" She shouts then we released and watching how she gasped for air while wiping her sweaty forehead "I forgot to say that pretty boy is waiting downstairs with your dad probably interrogating"

I hurriedly stand up in a hurry downstairs to see Silver sitting uncomfortably in the dining while dad is asking him nonsense questions "Dad!" I called out "...Silver, Hi" then turning back to dad with his arms folded in his chest, trying hard to intimidate Silver.

"We're just getting to know each other my little princess" His endearment is causing my face to heat, like a steam is about come out from my nostrils.

Being in weird family set up, dad is pretending to browse his phone while sitting in the accent chair secretly listening to Silver and I talking.

We talked and introduced him to Eve and Steph but the embarrassment coming from the way they're assuming things between Silver and I is a headache.

And then I realized that I haven't seen my brother since this morning when I came from the hospital.

I look upstairs and hope that he's with Jace or Cassy. I'm worried about him and his face that night marked in my mind, of how ruthless he turns out while excessively punching Byron.

Steph, Eve and Silver spent Chinese takeout in ours before Silver drives back to his aunt.

Dad is back to his office room while I find myself looking to Ross empty room. I tried calling and messaging him but he never answered and the last straw I had is Jace.

I'm about to compose a message to her but deleted it—I don't know how to talk to her after what happened—after what she heard.

I'm dying to ask dad about Ross but I don't want to see him in pain because I know that he is hurt as much as I'm hurting.

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It felt like everyone in the parking lot is looking at me when I step out of dad cars and embracing my book for comfort.

"I'm gonna finish work as soon as I can" Dad assured.

This is what I'm afraid of. To see dad wary eyes looking back at me. I know he's pretending to be tough and act normal but I can see how much it bothers him to the way his body language reacts.

The reason why I asked mom not to tell anyone.

I warmly smiled to dad and say "It's cool. I'm good and probably Steph and Eve will hangout in the house"

That somehow loosened those worries in his face. He nodded before waving and driving out of the parking lot.

Ross didn't come home last night and I wondered where is he? Or how's he doing?

Byron got suspended for two weeks so it somehow takes my worries away.

I went to my first class and sit with Eve. After few classes I'm still searching for Jess but she's not around.

PE came but Jess is literally not in school. I never did this before but I spammed her inbox but nothing was returned.

Neil is still playing basketball with Jace acting like the usual but ignoring me—maybe after hearing what happened changes her view in me.

Maybe...she's disgusted.

Maybe....it's better that way.

But why it bothers me so much?