Mila Moon - Seventeen 14th Member [2]

Insecure

[Mila POV]
I stepped out of my bedroom after being woken by the sounds of shouting from outside. Mingyu wasn't laying next to me as usual, but I just assumed he had gone to the bathroom, or decided to get ready for the day. I walked towards the kitchen where the yelling was coming from, but before I could round the corner, I heard something strange in the conversation.

"I still don't get why that waste of space bitch is still even with us! You said she would only be in the group for a couple of months to get the attention of the media! But here we are, 7 years in and she's still here being annoying as ever!" I furrow my eyebrows in confusion, where they talking about me?
"Seungcheol calm down, I know you're not the only one who feels like this, but she might hear yo-" I hear another voice, who I recognise to be Vernon's say before he is cut off once again.
"I don't fucking care if she hears me! You know what? Mila! Mila come to the kitchen now!" Seungcheol yells as I try to repress my tears from falling. I stand where I am for a second to act as if i've just left my room and that I wasn't eavesdropping.

"Yes?" I ask casually, and I see Vernon's face looking nervous as to what was about to go down.
"You could at least address me properly. I am 5 years older than you, don't you remember?" Seungcheol replies, but I look at him confused.
"But I've never addressed you formally, you told me when we were trainees to refer to you as a friend, not an elder." I respond nervously.
"Yeah well maybe it's time to change that since you have no respect for any of us, or even yourself." He says as his tone gets harsher and his voice gets louder. Where was this coming from?
"I'm sorry."
"What did you say?" He responds, harsher than before.
"I'm sorry oppa?" I say in a questioning tone and he rolls his eyes.
"I can't believe we even wasted time on you, you do know why the company put you in seventeen right? You never wonder why you're the only girl in a group full of boys? You're just there to catch the attention, to make us boys look good, and now that we've had the publicity, I think it maybe time that you leave." Seungcheol concludes, and a tear escapes my eye.

"Seungcheol maybe we shou-" Vernon says, but Seungcheol interputs again.
"No, Vernon. She needs to be told for once. She needs to be told that she's worthless and doesn't belong in Seventeen. We've all decided, along with the company, that your time in Seventeen is over. The company have already put out a statement saying that you're leaving due to 'health reasons' and that you have a 'life threatening injury' which means you won't be able to particpate in any further activities. Go get your stuff, the manager will pick you up in 10 minutes." He concludes before leaving the room, leaving me stuck staring into a space.
"I'm sorry Mila, but this is just the way things go. Good luck." Vernon says and he leaves after him.
I back into the wall behind me and slide down it slowly as I let countless tears flood down my face. Why was this happening to me? What did I do wrong? Why do my group suddenly hate me? I watch as a pair of footsteps enter the room, I look up to see their face, but I can't make it out, its blurry. I wipe away my tears but the face still does not unblur, I stare at them longer as they approach, they kneel down to my level.
"Mila?" They say as I continue to stare at them.

"Mila!" My eyes shoot open and I'm greeted by the face of my boyfriend.
"Are you okay? You're crying." He says as he wipes away the tears that I hadn't realised were falling down my face.
"Yeah. Yeah I'm okay." I nod, and Mingyu still looks at me in concern.
"I'll be right back." I say before getting up and heading down the hall to the room 2 doors down. I slowly open the door to see a figure laying in bed, and a light illuminating their face as they scroll through their phone.
"Mila? Are you okay?" Seungcheol asks and I nod, before walking over to this bed and laying next to him, engulfing him in a hug which he hesitantly returns in confusion.
"I had a bad dream." I say as he puts his phone down and nods, encouraging me to continue.
"You said you hated me, and that I was a waste of space and that I shouldn't be in the group. It scared me." I reply as I look up at him slightly. He squeezes me tighter and gently kisses my forehead.

"It was just a dream okay? None of us hate you, we all love you so much. You're our family, you are a key element of Seventeen. Without you, we wouldn't be a group. Please don't listen to a silly dream you had, you're worth everything in the world." He says and tears begin to fall down my face once again, but not in the same way as before. The door creaks open again to reveal Mingyu standing in the door in concern.
"Everything okay?" He asks and I nod.
"Just a bad dream, I think I'm okay now." I smile, and Mingyu walks towards the bed and also tries to get in, however the bed was barely big enough for both Seungcheol and I, resulting of Mingyu falling out the bed.
"Okay, I'm coming back to bed." I laugh before hugging Seungcheol once more and thanking him, before following Mingyu out of the room.
"I love you!" I hear him yell before I close the door.
"I love you too!" I yell back as I make my way to my own room.

"I didn't mean to eavesdrop, but I overheard what you said to Coups, and I agree with him, we all love you very much, me more than everyone else, but that's not the point." He laughs as we lay in the bed.
"But I'm being serious, you're loved by 13 people who are quite literally family and there is nothing we could do without you, you are the glue of Seventeen, you keep us sane in a way." He says as he engulfs me in an equally bone crushing hug as Seungcheol did.
"Thank you, it means a lot. I love you too." I reply and he kisses my lips gently before hiding his head in my neck.
"Good, now lets go back to sleep I'm tired again." He says as I laugh. Sleep taking over us in an instant.