Something New

Not Ready

*Billie's POV*

After Tré had finished soaking my shoulder with tears he fiercely rubbed at his eyes. "Sorry."
"What for?"
"It just... I didn't want to bring anyone into it." He sniffed.
"Don't be silly, I can help. You need to speak about things if they're on your mind... don't you feel a little better now that you've told someone?"
He looked down. "Thanks."
"No problem, what would I do if you weren't around, eh?"
He was looking at me in a strange way. It was the same way you'd look at something you're scared of... but there was also a hint of hope in his eyes. I was about to ask him what was wrong when he leaned in, extremely slowly, and placed his lips on mine.

I was shocked, of course I was, but I went along with it anyway. He was vulnerable right now and had opened up to me, so if this made him feel better then I couldn't stop him.
I let my hands creep to his sides and felt him flinch a little, but he quickly settled down again and carried on.
I leaned my weight on him, pushing him onto his back, and he pulled me on top of him. My hand crawled downwards and to the button on his jeans.
"Wait." He broke the kiss and looked down at my hand with a worried expression.
"What's the matter?"
"I'm... I'm not sure I want this... not yet, anyway..."
"Someone disagrees" I said, raising an eyebrow as I squeezed his dick playfully.
Jeez he was already so hard...
He gasped but shook his head, "I'm sorry, I just don't think I'm ready for anything like that yet" he looked genuinely guilty and I smiled to show him it was okay.
"Don't worry about it," I took my hand away and rested it on his chest instead, "it's no big deal."
"I guess we should go find Mike." He swallowed. He looked uncomfortable and I hated myself for acting the way I did. I had forgotten how upset he already was and I had been thinking about myself.
"Hey, I hope you don't think I wanted to take advantage of you because of everything you told me, because it really isn't like that."
He shook his head, "I wasn't thinking that... now I am..."
"I'm sorry, I was just excited and let it take me away a bit-"
"-I'm joking Bill, don't worry."
I exhaled with relief. "Good. The last thing I want is for you to think I'm a complete ass..."
"Oh, I already think that, don't worry." He smirked. "I like your hair by the way. It looks good."
I kissed him again softly. "Thanks. I'm gonna go find Mikey boy... you coming?"
"Yeah, I just need to be alone for a while."
"Okay, just need to sort yourself out?"
"You could say that."
That wasnt really what I meant and I rolled my eyes, "well, have fun with that... make sure you're thinking of me the whole time!" I winked and left him to it, heading downstairs to find Mike.