Trust Once Broken | SGA John Sheppard

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Hello friends! Been a minute since I updated and I know I left John and Kai in a not so great place...I make zero promises to not continue to torture us all, but...to make it better...how about an original adventure? As always, thank you all for your amazing support. I never expected this story to get as big as it did.

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John startled awake the next morning. He thrashed, confused about where he was. The soul deep emptiness that had been his constant companion the last few weeks was choking him once more, making his body believe he should be waking in his quarters at the SGC.

The light streaming through the windows was disorienting. There weren't any windows in the barracks of the SGC. Cheyenne Mountain complex was deep underground. He sat up in confusion before the sound of the waves hit him. He was back on Atlantis, but the emptiness in his chest persisted like a knife slowly twisting in the wound.

That emptiness meant Kai was gone.

John thrashed out of the blanket and onto his feet. She had been there when he fell asleep, not as strongly as before, but the Bond had been there. It was the only way he had been able to sleep. Now he felt like he was drowning.

Without thought or hesitation John ran out of his room. He found Elizabeth and McKay in the control room speaking quietly near one of the terminals. They both looked up in surprise.

"John," Elizabeth said, her eyes wide at the Colonel's sudden appearance.

"When did she leave?" He demanded, his voice harsh. He couldn't believe his friends had let her go without telling him. Kai wasn't a coward, she normally faced problems head on, so it was out of character for her to have waited for him to be asleep before slipping away.

"Kai?" McKay asked, frowning a little in confusion. "Like an hour ago," he said glancing at his watch.

John wanted to wring McKay's neck. How could he not know what he was talking about. "She's gone?" John asked, looking stricken.

"She and Teyla returned together to New Athos," Elizabeth explained, suddenly understanding that John had woken up, somehow knowing Kai had left. "Teyla needed to work things out with her people and Kai was planning on retrieving the Mortii fighter."

John froze for a second as his mind raced. She hadn't left left. Well, she had, but she was coming back. He heaved a sigh of relief, suddenly feeling stupid for panicking.

"Is there a reason you aren't wearing shoes?" McKay asked.

"Or a shirt and pants?" Weir added frowning at McKay. How the scientist managed to fixate on only the lack of shoes when the Colonel stood before them in his boxers was beyond her.

John glanced down. He had been in such a panic he hadn't even stopped to consider the fact that he went to sleep in nothing but his boxers since he didn't have any pajamas here.

"Colonel." Elizabeth said meaningfully, careful to keep her eyes locked on his face. "Why don't you go get yourself put together," she suggested.

John nodded. He didn't have it in him to be embarrassed. There was only Elizabeth and Rodney here. He ran a hand over his face and walked back through the halls to the transporter. It opened and Ronon stepped out.

Ronon frowned down at him. "What happened to you?" He asked, more curious than surprised to find his commanding officer mostly naked.

John just shook his head. Rather than ask more questions, Ronon just stepped around him and gave him room to enter the transporter. John often appreciated the fact that it wasn't in Ronon's character to pry. He wasn't so lucky however when he ran into Beckett as he stepped off the transported, while the doctor was headed to the control room.