A Difficult Choice

Trust

I was walking through the park with Jennifer as we just had a day out together my mum was on a long day and Avva wasn't returning my calls so didn't have anyone to hang with. The two of us walked hand in hand as we enjoyed each other's company until we stopped at a bench and sat down. I had told her that Lisa had reviled what they did together I wasn't mad but did want to see if it was true and it was. It was surprising because I never thought that Jennifer would be into a girl like Lisa but as she explained it they were both different people back then. Our loving moment of silence was interrupted by a guy walking over and looking down at us with a laugh.

"So you found someone guess all my flirting was wishful thinking after all," Said the unmistakable voice of Mat with his thick British accent. 

"Mat," I said as we hugged. 

"Good to see you too," He said as we broke apart. 

"Oh this is my girlfriend Jennifer," I said pulling her to her feet in front of Mat.

"Pleasure thought I thought you would have gotten together with Avva by now given how she looks at you," Mat said.

"First off she has a girlfriend a real one this time not just a fuck buddy and secondly she looks at all hot girls like that it's just how she is," I said.

"Whatever you say," Mat said.

"So time for the all-important question what brings you back?" I asked.

"Business I have a few loose ends to either tie up or cut off," Mat said.

"So how long will you be here for," I asked.

"Oh that's the thing once I have concluded my business here I will not be leaving I plan to move here, back home," Mat said.

"For real," I said.

"Yep," Mat said.

"That's awesome," I said.

"Yeah but that is not for a while got a lot of loose ends to deal with first," Mat said. 

"Well good luck with all that," I said.

"Thanks and sorry to cut this short but I had best get to it we'll catch up later," Mat said as we waved goodbye.

"So that was Mat," Jennifer said.

"Yep, what do you think," I said.

"A little happier and I will safely call him sunshine personified," Jennifer said

"Oh he is he just has some stuff to do," I said.

"Well anyway remind me if I am wrong but I think that is the first time you have referred to me as your girlfriend," Jennifer said.

"I-I guess it was," I said as I felt my face heat up.

"I liked it," Jennifer said as she kissed me.

If the two of us weren't outside in the park that kiss probably would have led to me on her lap straddling her as we continued to kiss. We both knew it so we headed back to my house to have some privacy thankfully the park wasn't too far from my house so the sexual frustration we both had didn't comply die when we got back. We got to an empty house and I was happy that mum was working so I pulled Jennifer in and closed the door before I kissed her. There was something about this kiss that made it different there was no love and far less passion it was like a kiss full of lust.

We soon made it to the bedroom and Jennifer was on top of me as she began to kiss down my neck she wasn't being forceful more like just letting me enjoy the feeling. I soon felt her moving her hand up my side as she pulled my top with them I knew how I felt about her and let her. After my top was off Jennifer pulled back and looked at me as if my half-naked body put her in a trance. I looked up at her and placed a hand on her cheek as I lifted up to kiss her and she kissed back it was that one kiss at that moment to tell me that I did love her. 

"I know you want this but I am not sure if I am ready," I said.

"I will wait as long as it takes for you to be ready my first time wasn't the best but I want to make yours amazing," Jennifer said.

"Why," I said laying back down Jennifer still above me. 

"Because unlike me you deserve that," Jennifer said as she lay down next to me. 

"What do you mean unlike you," I said.

"It's nothing," Jennifer said.

"Come on, tell me I can tell I am important to you and just like that you are important to me so tell me," I said. 

"I'm sorry I can't, not yet, it's more of a personal matter," Jennifer said. 

"Okay but I'm here for you," I said hugging you. 

"Thank you," Jennifer said hugging me back.

I lay with Jennifer still with my top off as we just relaxed on my bed Jennifer had pulled a book off my shelf as I was laying down. I lay in her lap as she played with my hair reading in silence I enjoyed the feeling of having my head on her lap her legs were so soft and very comfortable.  

"You do trust me right," I said.

"Of course do you trust me," Jennifer said. 

"I want to but what happened with Lucy is still in the back of my head, sorry," I said.

"Don't be I understand what it is like and I have no problem waiting for you," Jennifer said. 

"I know I just don't wanna make you wait too long because like you I really do but Lucy hurt me and I don't what to do what she did to me I don't want to hurt you," I said.

"Nothing you do can hurt me and I don't mind waiting a lifetime if that is what it takes," Jennifer said.

"Don't worry I highly doubt it will take that long," I said leaning up and giving her a kiss.