Hate Affairs

Chapter 46

One week later

Adria's POV:

Within a matter of time everyone knew what had happened to me, to us. I was getting a lot of "I'm so sorry that happened" and "I can't imagine how you're feeling" and a few "you're so strong for that" from everyone. And that was t making it any better, it made me in some way go trough all that again. Maybe not as intense as the first time, but anytime someone brought it up my heart would twist and my soul left my body for a moment remembering those little fast heartbeats I heard that day. God I would kill to hear them again.

Lucian was a big support, Jolie was right, he was the help that I needed. He sat up with me every night I cried and when I didn't cry, he would listen to whatever I was saying and calming me down. Repeating that it wasn't my fault and that he wasn't mad at me for what happened. He did all these things for me but I could see that he was suffering too. After all he just had found he was going to be a father and right the same second told he wasn't. Even if he didn't show it to me or to anyway, I knew he was hurting inside.

I was trying to get some work done, as I had spent the last week in bed, not even going out to get food. I was now in the office, I showered washed my hair and even got decently dressed today which was a lot for one day.

And also no one dared to bother me because as soon as they noticed that I was in the office they walked away. As if I was a fragile peace of glass that could shatter any moment.

I wasn't t really getting any work done, I was just flipping trough papers, trying to read a couple of sentences and then zoning out again.

"You look good" a familiar voice brought me out of my thoughts.

I smiled for a moment as Lucian made his way to the desk.

"What are you doing?" He asked standing next to me and looking at the big mess of papers on the desk.

"I don't even know" I said and only then realised what a mess I had made. Making myself laugh for a second.

"Do you want me to help you?" He asked.

"No, it's okay, I'll figure it out sooner or later" I said and with that he spun me around in the chair so now I was facing him.

He didn't say anything just kept his eye contact with me and then leaned in to kiss me. His lips were soft and warm as always, and he was gentle, careful even. But it was good.

"Pack your things, we're going to New York later this evening" he said and stood back up.

"Why?" I asked him.

"We have some business there" he said and placed a kiss on my forehead and was about to walk away.

"Be ready by 7" he said.

I tried to make sense of the papers I had mixed all together before going to pack. But I could t so I just ask to draw up some new papers so I could throw these ones out.

It was almost 5 pm when I went back to my bedroom to pack. I was staying in Lucian's bedroom again, but my things were still in this bedroom. All my clothes and everything. So I took my bags and packed everything I could possibly need. Of someone would see me they'd probably think I was moving out. And as much as staying in bed sounded so great I knew I had to get myself out of this routine again before I go back to that dark place.