Hate Affairs

Chapter 34

Two weeks had passed since Lucian left and it didn't feel any easier. I would cry myself to sleep every night. Tobias left with him so Polina was kinda feeling my pain too and she was pregnant on top of all that, who does that to a pregnant woman?

Today was the first day I convinced myself I would get out of bed and try to go on. I did as Lucian had asked me to. I stayed at his mansion, slept in his bed, no matter how bad that hurt.

I got dressed and walked down to the large dinning room where everyone was having their breakfast and as I made my way in everyone's eyes were on me but mines went to the chair at the end of the table where he used to sit. I pulled the chair and sat in it overlooking everyone by the table. My eyes were probably red and swollen but I didn't care.

Polina sat next to me in Tobias' seat and held my hand for reassurance that everything will be okay. I looked at the food on the plate in front of me but felt sick to my stomach just from imagining the food going in my mouth. I stood up and went to the kitchen, I took a shot of vodka and tried to pull myself together.

"Are you okay?" Layla came in the kitchen asking me.

I slightly laughed.

"Am I okay?" I asked her back "Do I look okay?" I asked.

"I know you're hurting" Layla said and tears just brewed in my eyes and my lip started to shiver. I sat on the chair by the kitchen island and covered my face with tears.

"It's gonna be okay" Layla said walking over to me and rubbing my back.

"I'm sorry for lashing out" I picked myself together and wiped the tears off my face.

"You're going to be okay" she said and hugged me and I let her.

Layla left after a moment and I stayed in the kitchen for a minute until I decided to migrate upstairs. I walked past Lucian's office and the doors to his office were closed. I slightly cracked open one of the doors and looked inside, everything was dark and empty there, a lot of the documents were gone.

I walked back to the bedroom and feel in the bed hugging his pillow. Until I fell asleep again. That's how most of my days went.

Lucian's POV:

I was sitting in the terrace of the small beach house I was staying in and my mind kept going to her.

I picked up my phone and called my sister.

"Hey Luc" she said picking up her phone.

"How you're doing?" I asked.

"Are you asking about us or just Adria?" She asked me back.

I didn't say anything and she just let out a sigh.

"It's hard what did you expect? You broke that girl, she hasn't stopped crying ever since you left" she said and I could hear that she was also pissed at me.

"But I'm not going to tell you anything about her because if you want to know then call her yourself, you're not on the moon!" She said and hung up the phone.

She didn't know much either because we knew she would tell Adria everything so it was right of her to be mad too.

I'm the biggest dick on this plant earth.

"Have you found anything?" I asked Tobias who was coming my way.

"Nothing yet" he said and came to take a seat next to me.

"How are you holding up?" He asked me cracking open a bottle of beer.

"Death is easier than this" I said and he passed me a bottle of opened beer.