Evanescent

7

ayana pov

it's 11 pm and i'm sitting in the room with stella. she's knocked out sleep though.

i leave out the room and begin walking around. i hear someone in the bathroom.

i grab my flashlight and turn it on. i walk into the bathroom.

i shine my light and i spot o'connell standing against the wall in the bathroom.

"why are you in here? go back to your bunk!" i say

"girl? i had to pee. you wanted me to wet the bed?" she ask

"you peed so get back." i say

"maybe i just want a peaceful break from it all" she say

"i honestly do not give a fuck" i say

"maybe i wanna masturbate" she say

"you can do that in your bunk" i roll my eyes

"bitch? all them damn people in that room. hell nah" she say

"and you chose the bathroom to do it?"

"you lucky my ass ain't go in the chapel" she say

"get back to your bunk" i say for the millionth time

this girl do not listen. she acting like a five year old.

"no" she say

"i'll easily call backup" i say

"and i'll easily tell them you smoke weed here and gave me some" she say before laughing

i begin walking towards her. "i can't stand you" i say

"then sit...on my face" she say before walking past me

she leaves out the bathroom and i stand there confused. the most difficult person there is here. everyone obliges by the rules but then there is her.

i somehow have to deal with her every single fucking time. i'm going to quit.

i mean yes she's very attractive and cocky . she's just fucking annoying.

i still need to deal with the matt situation. i'm not letting him just get away with murder.

i walk around the prison making sure everyone is still in their bunk before going back to the room.

stella is still sleep and i pull out my phone. i have two more hours and i can go home.

"yooooo" i hear

i look up towards the door to see billie standing there. why can't she just go to sleep like a normal human?

"what? you're not supposed to be in here!" i roll my eyes at her

she irks my nerves. "i honestly do not give a fuck. come here" she say before walking away

i look over at stella to see she's STILL sleep and leave out the room.

i follow behind her until we end up near the nurse office.

"daily reminder i can help you get good weed" she say

"this is why you brought me all the way over here" i scoff

"yeah...you thought you was finna get some of my coochie?" she asks

"no. that's disgusting" i say

"okay" she smiles

"what?" i ask because she looks like she sup to something and i don't like it.

"have a good rest of your night,i'm done" she say

"done? with what? are you suicidal?"i ask growing concerned.

"i- girl...bye" she say before walking away.

i'm so sleepy and ready to go home. can one come any quicker now .

i walk back to the room and stella is now awake. "where were you?" she asks

i've been gone many times and you're just now noticing because you're sleep. now that's wild.

"the bathroom" i say

"anything strange?" she asks

"no,it's been all good. all the inmates are in their bunks" i say

"good...you can leave early if you want" she say

"okay,bye" i say quickly grabbing my bag

i'm ready to leave this place. i leave out and begin walking towards the exit. i decided to take the long and unnecessary way.

as i'm walking by a certain cell bunk i hear moans.  i turn my head and i see billie missing from her bed while someone under the covers of nicky bed while nicky moans.

i turn my head away quickly. i am speechless. i speed walk past and exit out the building. i walk to my car and get in,throwing my bag in the backseat.

once i arrive home i enter in to see john passed out sleep on the couch.

i leave down and press a kiss against his cheek. he wakes up to my touch and smiles when he sees me.

"hi beautiful" he say

"hi" i smile

"you're finally off huh. i made dinner" he say

"thank you,you're the best boyfriend ever" i say before heading to the kitchen

i grab a plate and get some buffalo wings and fries on it.

i grab a lemonade from the refrigerator and sit down at the table.

"how was work?" he asks

"boring. stella was sleep the entire time while i sat there waiting and watching for nothing" i say obviously leaving out the billie parts. nobody needs to know about that.

it probably didn't even happen. i was probably just day dreaming.

once i got done eating i head to our bed room and take off my clothes. i head to the bathroom and get in the shower.

soon i'm in bed with john and i can't seem to fall asleep. he is knocked out sleep though. i'm so lucky to have one of those boy friends that aren't all up on you when you're sleep.

i can't stand anyone on me and i move way too much for anyone to stand me.

i look up at the wall trying to come up with a fake scenario to fall asleep with. that doesn't work.

i look over at john seeing him still sleep before i get out of bed.

i head to the bathroom and look at myself in the mirror for a good five minutes.

i pull down my pants and look at myself through the mirror. soon i find my hands trailing down into my underwear.

i insert two fingers in me and a person i never wanted to think about in this possible moment pops up in my mind.

surprisingly,that does nothing but makes me want to touch myself more.

what the hell? i'm straight.