the universe asked me
would you rather be addicted to cutting yourself open or to nicotine
i choose nicotine
because it reminds me of my mothers hugs
and my dads love
and late night at my uncles house
and wedding night where i was dead tired.
the universe asked me would you rather love one person for ever or
give yourself to opportunities
and I choose opportunities
because i am a coward
because your love and care reminds me of something I never got to have
because when you touch me oceans part and deserts flood.
and one day the universe asked me
would you rather live in pretend happiness or loving emptiness
and I choose emptiness
because I'd rather be loved and empty
than pretend to be someone I'm not.
and someday - I know - the universe will ask me to give myself to her and
I will do so. I will mourn the life I've lived, will cry and wail but I will give back to her.
one day.
YOU ARE READING
not so bad poetry
PoetryPart 2 of bad poetry, a new book to fill pages and pages of emptiness with ink ready to spill
