Soar With Me (✔️)

𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐒𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐧

Evelyn

Memories are so powerful. It takes just one to slide into your mind for an army of them to follow. Your thoughts, ideas, plans–practically everything fades into obscurity when you begin to remember. One after another, flashback of reels and photo albums play in your mind, each memory kindling a different emotion.

That's how I find myself in my office on Monday. My laptop is open in front of me, but I'm somewhere else, stuck in another time and feeling emotions long past.

Warren has appeared twice in my life now and so far he's done nothing but coil bitterness inside of me. The venom that flows in my blood never dissolves or slips through the front I put up–I never let it.

The cold and silent side of me doesn't exist anymore. Long gone are the days I acted with brutality and animosity. That's not who I am. Not anymore.

I believe everyone has darkness in them. Some conceal it better, while others don't. I'm in the former category.

The past and its events shaped me into someone unrecognizable. It was like my heart had been swapped with someone else's. Shame and guilt are embedded deep into me because of the way I hurt the ones I loved. All because of undealt emotional pain.

Unlike soldiers, my body doesn't have battle scars, but I have gone through hell fighting a war. Not a war with blood and battlefields and political tension, but a war with myself and my feelings. I might not have gotten injured externally, but I did get wounded beneath my skin.

At the time I was clueless as to how to deal with so many emotions. And I let them stack up until it became too much. At that point, I was letting myself down. I knew that was the end of the cycle and I needed to stop.

You don't know you're feeding the spiral until somehow it snaps and you escape it. It's then you look back and take a look at the cycle you created and gave into daily. A cycle that eventually became cataclysmic only to be faced with nothing but apathy. From you and everyone else.

"Hey boss, can you take a look at this?" Yasmine enters my room, which is lucent by the rays of the sun. 

"What is it?"

Yasmine shows me an email. "It's a meeting invitation from Archer enterprises. They have a contract they think we'd be interested in."

I skim over the details but the 'Archer' name rings a bell.

"Ignore them. Send no reply whatsoever," I say through gritted teeth.

So this is Warren's plan now. Scratching the dinner off of the list, he's now decided that having a meeting at my workplace in front of my staff will compel me to listen to him.

As if the events of Friday night were not an indication that I want nothing to do with him.

I want him nowhere close to me, my dog, my people, and my work. But he seems to dismiss my words and send me this ridiculous meeting invite thinking I'd agree to it.

"They seem keen on having a word with us Evelyn. And I don't think we should let this opportunity slide." Yasmine is giving me a friendly suggestion but all I can see is red.

"I'm not interested," I say in an insolent tone that makes her wince.

Remorse quickly spills into my heart. "I'm sorry. Just ignore their email, or send it to the trash."

"Send what to the trash?" Ivan butts in as he enters my office with Miles following right behind him.

"A golden opportunity." Yasmine replies in a cheery tone.