Super Spark of Duper Pride [OB] - Act I: Motivation

1-C: Shouko Negishi's Denial (Vampire 2)

Vampire 2:

This has to be a dream!

I decided to sleep in class and now I find myself a baby again, surrounded by people I don't know who are speaking in a foreign language.

This can't be real, why won't I wake up?!

Back in reality, back at school, it is suffocating.

Watching others chatting away, being friends with each other.

I am jealous, why won't you guys reach out to me?

Why do people always avoid me?

I know why, because I am ugly, simple as that and I hate everyone for being so mean!

And Wakaba, I fucking hate her the most!

She is always there to remind me of what I lack.

Good looks, she is popular because of her good looks.

If it had just been good grades, then people would not have cared that much.

Proof? The class rep and class athlete also had good grades but you don't see people worshipping them.

It's just the cherry on top.

Beautiful people have all the luck, their beauty makes everything else about them shine even brighter.

Even her aloofness, it almost seems cool with her beauty.

I am happy that Shinohara is constantly insulting her.

But I was still constantly angry that people like her called me Rihoko and alienated me.

All because of my ugly appearance, which I inherited from my ugly parents.

I hate them, I openly cursed them for my situation.

But they never stop loving me, if anything, they love me more after learning I blame them for my lack of friends.

It was then that I realised how awful I am compared to them, we all are ugly on the outside, but they aren't ugly on the inside like me.

They love me with all their heart while all I did was hate them for something they have no control over.

I am ugly, inside and out.

And even then I still hate them and everyone, I can't change.

I am just gonna be horrible like this forever.

I got so depressed I stopped going to school.

Eventually, Miss Oka and Kudo reached out to me and tried to convince me to go to school again.

But truth to be told, I only go to school to avoid being pestered by them.

I hate my life, it's going to be miserable until the very end.

But part of me wants to repay my parents for loving me, I guess.

That's how I barely manage to motivate myself to go to school halfheartedly.

Even though I get the feeling I will have a hard time getting a job with how I look.

But still, if this isn't a dream, if I really have been reborn.

Then I will never get to repay my parents.

No, please no!

The one, good reason I have to live!

Please, be a dream!

I want to see my parents again!

They are the only ones who love me despite everything that I am!

...

But alas, my prayers go unheard.

It's been several days in this dream and I haven't woken up.

My new parents and their butler are comforting me as I cry uncontrollably.

This is so embarrassing, I want to die.

No, they aren't real.

This is just a dream.

I will wake up soon.

I will learn from this nightmare.

I will apologise to my parents.

That I swear!

So, please?...