𝐈'𝐥𝐥 𝐧𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫 𝐥𝐞𝐚𝐯𝐞 𝐲𝐨𝐮(Miya Chinen x Reader)

𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝟏𝟕: 𝐖𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐚 𝐲𝐞𝐚𝐫

A month had passed since me and Miya had started avoiding each other. To be honest, I couldn't believe he would do such a thing. We do occasionally talk to each other because of Ani, but we're not as close as we used to be. I look at him sometimes, and I feel as if for a second we still have the bond, but reality hits me once again. In a way, I've lost him again. A promise he had broken.

Three months have passed. For the sake of saving at least a bit of our friendship, we have decided to stay friends and pretend like it never happened. He acts as if we were never best friends. I don't know how he feels or anything, but for his sake and for Ani's sake, I pretend, and if I'm ok with this, How can you act normal with your first love? who's just a friend.

At this point, I wish I had appreciated him more when we were best friends. The funny thing about love is that it makes being best friends feel like enough as long as you're always going to be by their side. But now I wasn't. I was just another friend of his. He told me we couldn't be best friends because of all those fights, but why do I feel as if he left me without an explanation? Love is weird. I've tried looking at other guys, but none come close to him. Miya was the one. I know it in my heart. I can't seem to hate him, no matter what. It makes me feel weak. 

Current time~ 

Ani pov:

"Hey Y/N, am I doing it correctly?" I said as I balanced on the side of my board. All she could reply was an emotionless yes. Even though she won't admit it, ever since things changed between her and Miya, she's never been the same. I've never had my first love, so I can't imagine what she's going through. Miya, me, and her have become a trio, but it feels more like I'm a child and they're the divorced parents. I would know; my parents are divorced. Just as I was about to call her out for her emotionless reply, Miya showed up. "Wow, Ani, that is impressive!" he said. His gaze then directed to y/n, and the atmosphere became a bit awkward... as always.

Miyas pov:

"Hey, y/n," I said in a friendly but awkward manner. She then lifted her head from her phone and shot me a small smile and a "hey." She looks happy. happier without my causing her problems. I love her, that's true, but if you love something, you let it go, right? I was a burden to her. We all spent some time skateboarding at the park; skateboarding holds us together. After that, we left to go eat. We stopped by the shop and bought some delicious donuts. 

Y/n pov 

My basic Friday afternoon had come to an end. Walking home, I noticed Reki outside; he was busy building something with langa. I waved at them and then headed inside. My mom was sitting on the couch, saying, "Hey, don't forget to wash the dishes today!" "It's your turn." I said yes and proceeded to fulfill that chore. My mother and I alternate housekeeping duties. Afterwards, I took a long shower, during which I thought about all my life choices. Depressing, I know, but who doesn't?

I laid in bed and looked at the ceiling; I felt nothing. The thought of my end-of-year exams made me realize how quickly this year went by. How fast did things change? How did I lose him?