Everything Has Changed

Chapter 11

May 28, 1913

They're having were having a dinner tonight,  Matthew were coming to have a meeting with Robert, she knew about that.  But Margaret was freaking out.  She was having feelings for Matthew and it would have been good if she wasn't being courtied by another man.   Helena opens the the door and sees Margaret pacing.  "Margaret?"  Margaret turns around pacing.  "Close the door."  Helena does just that.    Helena walks up to her.  "Margaret, what's wrong?"   Margaret sighes and sits down on the floor.  "Helena, i don't know what to do?"  Helena sits down and looks at her.  "What's wrong?"  Margaret can feel tears forming in her eyes.  "I think i'm falling for Matthew."   Helena is shocked.  "What?"   Margaret nods and put her head into her hands.  She feel so ashamed.  "But aren't you being courtied by Evelyn Napier?"   Margaret looks at her.  "I am and he's so lovely and i really like him.  The way Matthew makes me feel, i... i have never felt before."   Helena takes her hands into her own.   "It's going to be okay.  Maybe you should tell Matthew?"   Margaret scoffs and stands up.  "Tell him?  What if he doesn't feel the same way?  I will be humilitated."   Helena stands up and smiles at her.   "Myself being a woman who loves other woman.  I know it's far more painful to not know how someone feel than not know, okay?"   Margaret sighes and nods.  Helena smiles.  "It's your decision.  I will see you downstairs."   Helena opens the door and walks out.   Margaret sighes and walks out on the balcony and looks at the sky.  "Oh, Patrick.  I would really need you right now."  

Margaret walks downstairs, on her way to the drawing room where the other girls were waiting.  She hears the door open and she turns around and sees Matthew.  He was so handsome, it felt like her heart skipped a beat.  But before she can walk to him, Mary walks past her and takes her chance.   Margaret sighes and turn around and walk towards the drawing room.  

She walks inside and sees Sybil, Edith, Helena, Violet and Cora sitting.  She sits down.  "Margaret, darling.  I hear you're being courtied by Evelyn Napier.  A lovely man, great husband material."  Violet tells her.  Margaret nods.  "I guess he is."   Cora looks at her.  "Has something happened between you two?"  Margaret shakes her head.  "No, not at all.  He's great and i like him, but we have just started courting, okay?"  Cora nods. "Of course."  Mary comes in and sits down, Margaret avoids her eye contact.  Mary sighes.  

After a while of not much happening, Carson walks in.  "Would you like to ask Branson to bring the car around, my lady?"  Carson asks Violet.   "But where's Robert?  He can't be drinking port since we left?"  Violet asks.   "His lordship's is in the library."  He answers.   "All alone, oh, how sad."   "No he's.."  Carson tries to say but thankfully Mary cuts him off.  "We can say goodbye to Papa for you, Granny."   Violet turns back to Carson.  "He's what?"  Mary gives him a look to not say anything but to think Carson would lie to her is unwise.  "He's with Mr. Crawley, my lady."  

Margaret is just about to go upstairs when she sees Matthew by the car with Cousin Robert.   Margaret could have walked upstairs and avoid him but she couldn't and walks outside.  

Robert turns around and sees her.  "Cousin Margaret? What's wrong?"  She shakes her head. "I just needed some fresh air."  Robert nods.  "Very well, Good night Matthew, Margaret."  He walks inside.  Margaret walks up to Matthew.  "Is everything alright?"   Margaret nods. "It is."  He smiles. "How's Evelyn?"  Margaret smiles. "He's good, i think."  Margaret looks at him, this was her chance to tell him how she feels.   She shakes her head.  "Good night Matthew."  He nods. "Good night Margaret."  She walks inside.  Not today.  

Julia is laying in bed with Jack.  "Do you have any ideas for names?"  Jack asks.  Julia nods. "I do."  Jack looks at her "Go on."  She smiles. "Well i thought maybe first name be of a king or queen and that middle name be a family name of your family, both of our worlds."  Jack smiles. "I love that, do you have anything in mind?"  Julia smiles. "Well if it was a girl Mary after our majesty, the queen, middle name after your mother?"  Jack smiles. "Mary Anne Jones, i love it."  Julia smiles.  "And if it's a boy, i thought Albert, Queen Victoria's husband.  And middle name after your father."  Jack smiles.  "Albert Peter Jones, perfect."  Jack kisses her.  

Helena was in her chambers for Gwen.  Seeing her every morning made every day so exicting.  Gwen opens the door.  "My lady."  Helena smiles. "I told you to call me Helena."  Gwen nods. "Lady Helena, this came this morning."   Gwen hands her the letter.   Helena opens the letter and starts reading it.  Helena looks up at her and smiles.  "I know they would want to see you." Gwen smiles. "It's you and Lady's Sybil reference that's done it, thank you."  Helena stands up and hugs her.  "I'm so happy for you."   When she pulls away she relaises how close their faces are to eachother, their lips.  She looks up at Gwen, breathing heavily.  Than without a second thought, Gwen kisses her.  Before she can melt into it, Gwen pulls away.  "I'm so sorry, i should go."  But before she can walk away  she takes a hold of  Gwen's arm and pull her back.  "Don't ever apologise."  She kisses her.   And Gwen doesn't pull away.   After a few seconds Helena pulls away and smiles.  "I have wanted to do this since the first time i saw you."  Gwen looks at her smiling. "Really?"  Helena nods. "Really."  Gwen smiles. "I have wanted to do that for a while too."   Helena looks at her. "Should we tell Sybil about the letter?"  Gwen nods. "Yeah but first we need to fix your hair."  Helena laughs and turn around to sit down.   She smiles to herself.  

Margaret's feelings for Matthew is making things hard.  Julia and Jack  have decided names for their baby.  Helena and Gwen have kissed! I hope you guys like this chapter and pls tell me your thoughts