Hale

Hale 33

Chapter 33

Im so sorry for such a long wait. Here's a VERY short update but I promise there's more to come!!!!

Truth, it's a hard pill to swallow. 

I was now only 15 minutes away from the Washington boarder and thankfully plenty hours away from Forks. I felt my anxiety going through the roof. I still have yet to turn my phone let alone contact anyone since I left a little over a week ago. The more I thought of the truth the more I believed I belonged in an insane asylum. All that ever came to mind was the ticking time bomb in my head. Would Rosalie even talk to me once I get back? Would my mom lock me in my room for the rest of my life? Did Perla know I went missing? Would she even care?

There it was. Welcome to Washington sign. 

There she was. Standing outside her shiny bright red convertible. Everything in me told me to keep driving. Drive right past her. I didn't. I couldn't. Now I knew the truth. I knew it all. Puling to the side of the road, I took a deep breath before unbuckling my seatbelt. The pounding in my heart wouldn't stop and neither did the thoughts that were racing through my head. She wouldn't hurt me. She's not the monster the tribe has made her our to be. I don't think so. It couldn't be. She couldn't be.  

It was only her. And of course she looked pissed off. I let my body go into autopilot as I could watched myself walking closer to her. Here we go I thought but before I knew it I  was engulfed in the arms of the girl who lived rent free in my heart and head. "Don't ever do that again Eden. Please." Her voice barely above a whisper but I heard. Soft. her voice is so soft.  

"Rosalie." I choked out. What was I suppose to do now? What was I suppose to say? I wasn't sure if I could focus on the my words. I couldn't keep my head on straight. I was totally and utterly enamoured with Rosalie Hale. Her scent, her hair, her strength that wrapped around my waist and upper back. The feelings came back and its like being slammed into a sledgehammer thats already moving towards you with gravity. 

Being so overwhelmed, my breathing began to stagger and I began to feel weak in my legs. "Are you okay? Have you eaten? Talk to me please." Her eyes were filled with concern. She meant everything sincerely. This was the girl who had stolen my heart. I wanted to burst out screaming but nothing came out. Instead tears began to fall from my eyes. Tears Rosalie patiently wipe away. "Let's get you inside. It must be freezing for you." The words left her mouth and it was like I was hit with a heavy bag of sand. My world rapidly came down once more. 

I knew the truth, the monsterous truth about Rosalies existance. Anyone in their mind would probably scream for help, would run away, would do something to get away because they felt unsafe of disgusted by her or what she is. Yet I was not. I felt safe with her. I had already fallen for her. Without screaming for help or concern for well being I went with her to her car. I let her lead me to the passenger side where she gently sat me down. Within seconds she was on the driver side staring at me. 

Minutes passed. All there was was silence. She stared intently at me, watching me like a hawk. It had to come sooner or later and I'm not good bottling things up like this. Though most importantly I felt safe enough. Somehow coming back and seeing her. Things have changed.

"I know." 

The words left my mouth without permission. Eyes darting at Rosalie to see how she would react. A huge part of me wanted to cry and hold her. Ask her how does she feel or if she needs anything from me. Silence again but not as long as before. "If you knew, why are you still sitting here then?" Her voice was sharp but her face was emotionless. "You know the truth yet here you are still around the monst-"

"You're not a monster." The harshness of my words made her finally look at me after looking away. A huge wave of rage had overcome me. "You're not a monster because if you were, you would have hurt me. You would have killed me. Drained me of my blood or fed on me. Yet you didn't. You protected me in your own messed up way, you were there when I needed you. You came to me in confidence about your sexuality. I know you're not human but you have compassion, feelings, thoughts, opinions. You have humanity within you. You're not a monster. You're not a pale face. Not to me." 

The war that was occuring behind those golden irises was evident from the look on her face and the lack of words being communicated from her. I had made Rosalie speechless yet again with my words. "Are you not scared?" 

"No Rosalie. Why would I be? You've kept me safe. You saved me from my own harmful, reckless and stupid decisions. You've given me no reason to be scared of you." All I wanted to do was grab her hand comfort her. All I wanted was to hold her. It seemed as if she was the one who needed time to process. We sat for a little while longer and all I could do was stare at her. To watch her like a hawk to see if there was anything I could do to help her in this moment. 

"If you're not scared of me- I just don't get it. You're suppose to hate me. You're suppose to be disgusted by me." Her words started to spit some fire. "Rosalie for fuck sake. I am not scared or disgusted by you. If you haven't noticed I am so utterly whipped for you. I've fallen harder than I possibly could have imagined and theres nothing you or this world could do to change that. Not you, not my friends, not my mother or the tribe. So please don't break my heart by leaving me in the dust." My voice began to break towards the end of my sentence due to the highly emotional confession. Looking into my lap, I feared the worst. I feared she would become cold and emotionless with me once again. 

Silence again. Until one of her cold arms wrapped their way around my neck, pulling in softly. "I hear your heart." She whispered, sending chills down my spine. "Eden, there is no happy ending for us." Her words began to shatter my heart a little. Something within me sparked and words began to flow. "Then thats fine, but right now and for the time being. Let's have this. Just for now. Until we can't." 

"You'll only hurt yourself Eden." 

"It will hurt the both of us more knowing we didn't even try for you Rosalie.