Hale

Hale 7

Hours had gone by as I sat in my own sorrow and wondered about a better life. A life I don't think I would ever achieve. A family would be nice too. I somewhat envied the Cullens, even if they aren't actually family they have each other, siblings to annoy and parents to be around. A home filled with just anything. Letting the salted water run from my eyes I heard a knock on the other side of the door. "Who the hell.?" I got up and wiped my face off opening the door to none other than Rosalie.

"I forgot to give you your- What's wrong? Are you okay?" she asked in a rushed tone. Dammit. "Yeah I'm fine. What's up?" I said trying to avoid the topic of me being okay. Scared to even think about opening that emotional door.  "You aren't fine Eden." she said firmly. Not wanting to be rude I took a deep breath and forced myself to compose. "What brings you back here Rosalie?" I ignored what she had said about me.

Giving me a look she knew she would not win this time. "i forgot to give you back your phone. So uh here." she weakly handed it over to me. "Thanks." Silence, awkward and tense silence passed. "Anything else?" I asked, still wanting to be alone. "No, that's all. Goodbye." Rosalie said almost a whisper. Nodding she turned to her shiny red convertible, disappearing into the foggy road. Foggy roads, I remember so well.

We were driving on the two way road back from her cabin this weekend. We were supposed to stay for the whole week but things did not go to plan and now here we are. On our way back home. I wasn't sure if she would take me home or force me to spend the night but I can tell you one thing. We did not make it back.

"Please slow down. We can take turns driving if you're so tired." Hearing her scoff, I stayed quiet after not wanting to upset the girl who was next to me. She told me a "romantic getaway" and this was far from romantic. Glancing at her she swerved to her left with such force I hit my head on my window the moment she got back into our lane. "What was that?" I shrieked seeing some animal behind us run back into the dark trees. "What does it look like? Stop being stupid Hadley." She spat with tight eyebrows.

"Well I wasn't looking so I didn't see." I muttered slightly afraid of what she might say or do. Within seconds she was screaming at me. "How are you so fucking stupid, you're literally an honor roll student and you're going to play dumb with me? Don't treat me like a fucking dumbs hadley or I swear to god I will make- God why are you always being such a bitch. I take you on this nice getaway and you ruin it with your shitty attitude and now I have to drive you back in the middle of the fucking night! How does it feel to be the biggest waste of time? Huh? Say som-" And it was over. For a long time. Nothing but pitch black and numbness.

Reaching over to my right should I caressed the scar it left that night. I will forever have this engraved into my mind and now my body. Maybe it's something I can't escape. Letting one last tear drop I sighed and made my way to my room.

Walking to my closet I picked out some white shorts and a baby blue track shirt from freshman year, a new pair of underwear and my towel. Going to my bathroom I undressed, in this moment of complete nakedness I stare at myself in the mirror.

My dark circles, pale lips, puffy eyes, a more than visible collar bone, skinny ribs and sad eyes. I don't recognize myself. All I see is her. Thinking of her face sent chills down my back. Hopping in I set the water to hot and soaked in it.

That night I laid in my bed. cold and bare feeling. No matter how many layers of clothes, blankets or warm air. I still felt cold. I still felt naked.  Closing my eyes I turned my body to the left hearing the rain hit my window. I love rainy nights but today, it felt as lonely as I have ever been. Hearing my phone ring I looked over my shoulder and I saw Perla was calling. Not really wanting to talk to anyone I ignored the call but reached for my phone. Waiting for the call to go to voicemail I sighed feeling awful I was ignoring Perla. I just could not talk. Not to anyone. Not even Perla. The call ended and I opened my phone. Heading to photos to take a look at her I saw a new photo that was added to my camera roll. It was a piece of paper with Alice and  Emmets number. Sighing at the thoughts of the Cullens I decided it was time to call it a night. Putting my phone down next to an empty photograph, I went to bed.

Waking up to a gloomy Saturday I thought of what I could do. Nothing came to mind. I could go get some coffee but that would mean human interaction and I am still not up for that. I sighed and just laid in bed for a few more hours letting hunger take over. It was around 2 now and I heard a knock at the door. Genuinely thinking it was one of the Cullens I tried to hide in my room. The knocking did not stop so I peeked at the window to see an old chevy truck. A man in a wheelchair and a native boy with  long hair. "Who the hell." I said to myself. Putting on a hoodie and making my way down I answered the door to the two men.

"Uh hello." The man in the chair spoke. "We are relatives, distant relatives of your mom and she called to say you guys moved here." My mom? Has distant native relatives? She white as hell. There is no way she comes from native descent.

"Sorry I uh don't know. My mom isn't like uh native Indian or anything. Maybe you  have the wrong person. But if there is anything else I can do for you."  I tried to gesture nicely. 

"Your mom's name is Eleanor Forbes. And you're Eden Hadley Forbes. Eleanor is my dad's third cousin I think." the young boy said. "Something like that Jacob." the man smiled. Raise my eyebrows at the boy named Jacob and his dad and I tried to politely nod and laugh.

"Well she's not here right now so maybe come back some other time?" I asked looking at Jacob. The boy looked at his dad and they left. I was not gonna let two men I did not know into my house. Pulling out my phone from my back pocket I called my mom, well at least tried too. She doesn't usually pick up. Only getting voicemail I left a message about the Boy Jacob and the man in the wheelchair and I went back to my room. Getting a bit hungry I tried to see if there was a door dash but to no avail. Forks did not have Doordash. Not in the mood for instant ramen I decided I would just not eat.

The rest of the weekend was pretty much the same. Although  I did eat instant ramen on Sunday. Monday rolled around and I was getting dressed. Today would be 65 mostly cloudy  and I was ready to shake off the thought of her, I wore a below the knee maroon dress with black leather jacket and some black Dr Martens. Only having had a cup of noodles these past couple of days, I drove to the local diner and got one bagel and a coffee. I got looks but after being the new kids at school for two day I got used to the judgmental looks and side whispers. Hopping into Savannah Cruz I head to school. The parking lot was full but my spot was open. And there they were. The Cullens, standing in front of the cars gathered to themselves right across from my parking spot. Not ready to be met with Edwards' weird stares and Alice's cheery energy or Jaspers intense gaze or even Maggie and Emmet but most of all, I was not ready to face Rosalie after seeing her on Friday when she returned my phone.

Chilling in my car I played some music and just closed my eyes. Music always helped me through tough and lonely times. Lonesome by SHAED played and I just got lost in it really listening to the words of it all. Until, Jessica and Angela came to my window knocking. Angela was nice to me so I tried my best to put a smile on and "fit in".

"Hey, are you okay? You said you would text me after robotics." Angela said to me as I got out of my car.  'I love the outfit!!" Jessica automatically changes the subject. "Thanks. And I'm really sorry Ang! Can I make it up to you?" I pleaded with the puppy dog's eyes. Seeing her smile I smiled knowing she's too kind of a person. Giggling we walked to the stairs. "Wait your stuff." Angela said. "Oh my god!!" I said as I ran back to my car and caused a bit of a scene. Oh well. Seeing Mike, Angela and Jessica shaking their heads and laughing at me, I walked back to them in triumph with my notebook in hand. "All you carry is a notebook?" Jessica asked, slightly picking on me.

"All I need is a notebook, so why carry an ugly backpack that doesn't go with my fit?" I said amused by how she tried to pick at me. "She's right, no backpack could ever do her outfit justice." Angela said leaning into our conversation.

"Did you see the Cullens looking at us?" Jessica said taking her small mirror out and fixing her hair. "No, I think they were looking at Eden, they have been so weird ever since you got here. They don't ever talk to anyone. Not since they got here from Alaska a few years ago." That's weird, they won't stop bothering me. "Oh?" I asked in a shocked manner. We all head to our classes but I was too distracted with the thought of the Cullens. Why me? When there is an entire school of people.