THE SAME

Chapter twelve

"Hey, how are you Nayla? We should talk."

Week six.

It took six weeks for you to text me.

And I'm gonna answer in a second because what? I am a clown.

I want to cuss him out. I want to scream and cry again but... I want to smile. I want to hug Somchai and I want him to never let go again. 

I want us to get past this. I want us to make up.

...

"Thank you for coming Nayla that means a lot."

Yes, I am at his house yet again.

Yes, I did agree to meet the same day after he texted.

Yes, I am aware of how that looks.

Imma stick beside him.

"I don't have a lot of time so... if you could tell me why I'm here."

You have plans? Where? I know you fuckin lying.

"I think last time we talked, I didn't know how to receive your feelings... but-"

"You know what? Before you talk, I gotta get this out. I can't believe you didn't even call and just left like that," I said tearing up but I moved back when he moved to try and console me, "you told me you would wipe my tears, I was vulnerable with you like you asked... how could you leave like that?"

"Nay-"

"Stop. I couldn't stop thinking about you and all our moments... the late nights and you didn't like how could you be this co-"

"I thought about us too!"

Could it be...? City girls up fifty five points?

"Fuck," he whispered giving me the gentlest kiss.

Girl, you didn't even dodge that? Oh you weak for real.

"Baby you thought I would ever spend a moment not thinking of you? I don't even know what a moment where you're not on my mind looks like Nayla," he said looking into my eyes, "I wanted to pick up the phone, I wanted to show up to your job, I wanted to hold you but I wanted to think and match your sincerity with my own... I have never thought of a forever person Nayla, ever..."

This is crashing like LLC twitter. 

"But... before I knew it, I couldn't imagine being without you. When a day is hard, just hearing your voice makes me feel calm and when you're in my arms... I can't imagine letting go. I know how I sound right now like I'm down bad but I am. Before I knew it, you became my world Nayla and I won't ever let you go again. I know what I want, I want you."

NAH WE SAVED IT. CITYYYY GIRLSSSS.

I moved to jump into his lap so fast. I couldn't hug him tight enough.

I missed him. My Somchai. This is my man and imma stick beside him.

"I don't wanna cry anymore Somchai..."

"Really? I thought we were gonna make up and you're such a crybaby in the bedroom."

"Yeah because you- never mind."

You would cry too sis... don't judge me.

"First, promise me we're gonna be together forever," I said looking into his eyes. 

I cupped his face and we both looked into each other's eyes before kissing slowly and gently. Like we were both fragile. It felt like... I was allowed back into heaven again. He is my safe haven. 

His touch. His smell. His voice. His lips. I felt intoxicated like I could've melted into him.

"Forever and a day."