From The Ashes We Will Rise

Forgiveness and Moving Forward

Enjoy this fluffy one because the last few chapters will be rough! This one will have a few time jumps but nothing dramatic.

POV Alex

Indra and I walked to the tower and up the elevator in relative silence. I was still angry and stressed. My over thinking definitely getting the best of me the closer we get. "Do you have to tell Lexa and Anya about..." I say motioning my hand around referencing the guy I just killed. Indra looked at me for a second then forward again as we walk down the hall. "What guy?" She says making me smile. "No clue" I say and see her smirk a bit. The guards open the doors, and we walk into a full room of ambassadors talking most likely about Azgeda. We go unnoticed as they are all talking over each other. I can see Clarke is annoyed and trying to get her point across whereas Lexa looks like she is about to combust in anger. I see Anya standing next to Lexa, and she looks a bit banged up and bandaged making my heart sink. I glance at Indra who is now making her way towards Lexa to protect her just in case. I have to laugh though because Titus looks like he is about to blow up and his face is al red. I lean against the wall and listen into what is being said. "We can't let them just walk in!" Someone shouts. "We can't start a war!" Another shout. "A spy!" I hear and so on. Clarke seems to want them to not have war same as a few but the majority want blood and they either want to attack head on or infiltrate them and that gives me an idea. "Echo" I whisper and smile. "You can't infiltrate Azgeda. They have their whole parameter guarded and even if you get in the sheer number compared to you is great." I say making everyone stop and look at me. I pay no attention to them, still leaning against the wall and picking at my nails. "You can't just let them in either" I say now looking up. Everyone looks curious and all eyes are glued on me as I now walk towards the center so they can all see me. "What do you propose then?" One asks but before I can say anything another jumps in. "We can't trust her! She lived with the enemy!" He yells and a chorus of "Ya's" follow making me roll my eyes. "Fine. get yourselves killed. See if I care" I say lazily making them stop. I smirk knowing they thought I would fight back. "I have a way in and a way out. I know all of Azgeda and I have people I trust... but sure do your whole sneaking" I say sarcastically to get under their skin. "Quiet! Alex is one of us and if you don't like that I'll have your head" Lexa sneers at them making them stop. I nod at her and walk further into the room. "I can get you the Queen. I have been planning her death for 10 years. All you have to do is let her in... then give her me" I say, and I see Lexa's face contort into displeasure and Anya clenching her jaw. Lexa is about to interfere, so I continue. "Like Clarke said, invite the Queen in. She loves violence... give her violence. She will most likely pin those who lack faith in your commander and demand a fight to the death. Now what she won't know is that the cased-out King Roan will be here. She will then use his banishment to get him to fight. As she is occupied with that a dear friend and spy of mine will be put into play. The Queen has a hidden weapon... besides me. She has something else which I know how to get." I explain but don't give too much away of my plan. "Of course, there's more but that's just the basics." I say, and everyone seems to be in thought. My eyes find Lexa's who's looking at me like we will be discussing this later. "That could work. If we have a solid plan" Clarke says and I nod. "I have one. Just not going to share it just yet" I say making her nod. "How do we know this will work? You could be a spy" one says making me chuckle. "Then I guess you'll be the first one dead" I say making his face scrunch up. "We'll discuss the details in private before deciding on anything" Lexa says making me nod. She dismisses the ambassadors and eventually it's just Indra, Anya, Clarke, Titus, Lexa and I in the room. "I will have an escort for you to bring some representatives to Polis." Lexa says to Clarke making her nod. "Are you sure they will go with making Skiakru the 13th clan?" She asks. "If they have a problem, I'll deal with it" Lexa says. "Ok, I'll find Octavia and we should be back in a couple days" she says walking out nodding to me. "I will go with you" Indra says patting my shoulder on the way out. "Titus leave us" Lexa says making him scowl then glare at me. I would usually bite my tongue but I'm in a pissy mood today so... "Got something to say to me baldie?" I sass making his eyes widen. He probably didn't think I would say anything. He clears his throat and looks away from my hard eye contact bowing his head towards Lexa and walking out, my glare following him. "Dick" I whisper rolling my eyes then looking back at an amused Lexa and Anya. "What? He pisses me off" I say with a shrug making them smirk and bite down a smile. We stay in awkward silence for a few moments making my skin crawl. Maybe they will lock me up again, I did kill people and almost kill Anya. I mean she's my own mother! Maybe they will execute me, put me out of my misery... No, why would they do that you have valuable information. Idiot. She did make me Trikru again, but maybe it was false. To get me to comply. Am I a prisoner? Is she just using me as a weapon like the queen? No, no you're being ridicules, we forgave each other... right? But not Anya she's her general. What if Anya hates me and wants me to pay. Jus drein jus daun. "Alex?" I hear snapping me out of my thoughts. "What?" I ask looking between them. "You seemed to be deep in thought. I called your name a few times" Lexa says worry in her voice. I blink feeling heat coming from my body. "I'm fine, sorry." I say brushing the uneasy feeling of my powers that is creeping into my mind. "Are you alright?" I ask Anya nodding towards her visible bandages. They both seem to question the subject change but except it. "I'm fine Alex" she says making me hum. Fire. I furrow my brows at the word. Coming soon. I wince slighting looking around the room. I spot the flaming bird and tilt my head. Die. then it's gone and I look around. "What?" I say shaking my head. "Already?" I ask myself. I thought I had more time. "Alex?" I hear and snap my head back to the two women in front of me looking at me worriedly. Anya walks closer to me making me stiffen. She must notice and stops walking. "It's coming." I say and she looks confused but then her face drops. "What? Alex what is going on?" Lexa asks now standing next to Anya. I should tell her...Right? I look at Anya and she nods her head. "Praimfaya" I say, and she furrows her brows. "A wave of radiation will come soon. I have to transcend into it" I say making her face harden. "What does that mean? How do you know?" She asks. I sigh and start to explain everything I told Anya. When I was done, she is leaning against a table head down. "You can't" she says voice breaking. I sigh and walk up to her. "We have time, but I just got another warning. Maybe when Skaikru is the 13th clan and Azgeda is delt with we can ask them to look into it" I say, and she nods. "I can't lose you. I have so much to make up for and... and we never got to be together. Not truly" she says looking at me tears in her eyes. I look down not knowing what to say. Would it be easier if we didn't cross that line? I ask myself. She seems to know what my mind is thinking and grabs my hand. "No... I can't live with not knowing what it's like to be loved by you. To love you" she says making me smile lightly. "Then let's not waste time" I whisper and her breath hitches. Her eyes move to my lips and back up. A clearing of a throat causes us to jump away from each other. We are met with a smirking Anya. "As much as I love this... Not when I'm here. I don't want to see my daughter kissing" she says smirking making me smile at the word daughter. I squeeze Lexa's hand then walk over to Anya. "I'm so sorry" I say voice breaking. Her face softens and she brings me into a hug making me melt. "It's ok. I'm ok. We're ok" she whispers making me nod. She kisses my head, and we pull away from each other. "Can I steal her? You can have her tonight" Anya says teasingly at the end. Making both of us blush a bit. Lexa nods waving us to go. With one last smile we both head out.