Amanda Gabrielle’s POV
“Wow! Pagkatapos natin mag-sex, hindi mo na ako pinapansin?” Hinawakan no’ng lalaki ang braso ko noong naglalakad na ako papasok sa campus. “That was just a pure sex, dude.” Sagot ko sa kaniya.
“Pure sex?” He looked at me in disbelief. Hindi ko na nga matandaan kung kailan ba kami nag-sex, eh! Halos dalawang linggo na ako na hindi nakakapag-club at sex. Simula noong nakausap ko si Tito Henry, everything came back to me. The nightmares.. and everything.
“Ginamit mo lang ako?” Tanong na naman niya. “Ano ba ang mga pinagsasabi mo riyan? Lalo ka na siguro kung hindi ko pineke ang ungol ko sa ’yo, ’tangina!” Ubos na ubos na ang pasensya ko sa kaniya.
“Tol?” Nagtawanan ’yong mga tropa niya. “Niyayabang-yabang mo sa amin, peke naman pala ’yong ungol sa ’yo!” Sabi no’ng isa pa. “H-hindi ko alam ang sinasabi niya..” Nahihiyang sabi no’ng lalaki na hindi maka-move on sa sex namin.
“At hindi ko rin alam kung ano ang pangalan mo. Kaya manahimik ka na lang diyan.” Walang emosyon na sabi ko sa kaniya bago ako naglakad papunta sa classroom namin.
Dahil wala pa ang professor namin, nag-phone na muna ako.
Karylle Viena: kumusta na? ’di ka nagme-message, ah? hindi mo ba ako nami-miss? ༎ຶ‿༎ຶ
Amanda Gabrielle: i miss u :(
My eyes widened nang na-seen na niya agad bago ko pa ma-unsent. I really miss her, but I don’t want her to know!
Karylle Viena: OTW NA AKO PABALIK SA PH!
Karylle Viena: MISS NA RIN KITA, OMG KA! KINIKILIG AKO!
Karylle Viena: I-SCREENSHOT KO ’YAN TAPOS GAWIN KONG COVER PHOTO KO !!
Napa-iling na lang ako.
Amanda Gabrielle: tanga ka
Karylle Viena: okay lang na tanga, ang mahalaga miss mo
Hindi na ako nakapag-reply sa kaniya dahil dumating na rin kaagad ang professor namin.
Ako na naman ang ginisa nang ginisa. At dahil wala ako sa mood, lumabas na lang ako ng classroom. “Dela Fuerte!” Our professor called me. “You will fail my subject if you won’t comeback here to answer my questions!” Hindi ko na lang siya pinansin, nagpatuloy lang ako sa paglalakad palabas ng building namin.
My mind is not functioning well these past few days. No matter how hard I try, my old self is keep coming back.
“Cutting?” A boy approached me while I am sitting here in the bench near the soccer field. “Boring.” He chuckled befode sitting beside me. “I’m having a house party later. Do you want to come?” He asked. “Not interested.”
Umiiwas muna ako sa lugar na maraming tao. They are making me feel more overwhelmed. I can’t control myself again. “Why?” Umiling ako. “No reason at all. I'm just not in the mood to party these days.” Sagot ko. “Wow, Amanda Gabrielle is not in the mood to party? That's new!”
That’s new? Or that’s coming back? We are not really sure.
Last night, I had a nightmare. But it’s not really a nightmare, a flashback maybe? Everything that happened in the past happened again in my mind last night.
“I haven’t seen you in Fancy since last week din. Did something happened?” Tinignan ko naman siya. “Even if there is, I have no reason to tell you.” Bahagya naman siyang natawa. “You’re cute.” Kumunot naman ang noo ko.
“What am I? A puppy?”
“That’s not what I mean.” Umirap na lang ako. “I want to have an alone time. Can you just leave me here alone?” Natatawa-tawa siyang tumango at tumayo. “Okay, bye!”
BINABASA MO ANG
Her Solitude in Darkness
Teen FictionAmanda Gabrielle is a girl who had a traumatic childhood. She was neglected by her own family, which led her to be the girl who only finds comfort in drinking alcohol and smoking. Flirting is also one of her coping mechanisms. She hopes to feel love...
