The Forgotten Ones

Remembrance

Song: She's Always a Women to Me by Billy Joel

I wasn't expecting Willa to text me. Nor was I expecting her to text me at 3 o'clock in the morning. It was strange but I wasn't mad about it. What surprised me was that she wanted to hang out with me again. It caught me off guard. I didn't think she would want to be around me again. She has always been insistent on being as far away from me as possible since I am just a stranger to her. But, it's nice knowing she wants to be around me. 

When she texted me, I was up trying to go over some paperwork but something about one of the projects I have been working on wasn't adding up. I don't like having blips in my projects, especially something like this. I have been working hard to get these projects to run smoothly and I don't want anything to jeopardize them or have any of the sponsors pull out. 

Seeing Willa text me though, it made things just seem a bit better. It also reminded me I had to sleep if I wanted to get up for the next day, or well, the next couple of hours. 

Waking up, I felt a bit lighter from the night and the day before. I guess seeing Willa really changed how I felt. I just felt anxious about seeing her again this weekend. Once I arrived to work, I instantly started to dig back into the previous paperwork, trying to get everything all situated. 

I have been trying to see if there was some sort of pattern within the issue that was occurring but I couldn't seem to pinpoint it. I have also had a separate team from different departments within my business look into it but they too have come up with nothing. I decided to put the matter aside to focus on other tasks at hand. 

I couldn't help but think back to meeting with Ethan. It was only a few days ago that we had that meeting together. Ethan knows how I feel for her though. He knows everything. I am surprised that he hasn't told her about my past with her, but I also understand why he hasn't. I could see the way he felt about her when he spoke about her. He likes her. And she feels more connected to him than she does with me. I can understand why but it frustrates me. I have been pushed away by her and I have given her space. It seems like during that time though, she has grown closer to Ethan. 

I don't know the extent of what he has told her but I know that she still wants to know everything. I just don't know when is the right time to tell her about our broken marriage and her miscarriage. How do you tell someone that they lost their child and that they forgot everything? You just can't. I haven't spoken to her parents either about how much of her memory she has been regaining nor about her doctor appointments. I just feel like they too need space away from me. But, with all this happening, I feel like I need to be in the loop of these things. 

I just want to know her reaction to me once she does remember everything. 

My thoughts were broken by a knock on the door. I called them to come in, the door opening to reveal my brother. I smiled, happy to see my brother. I have only spoken a few words with him after the family dinner but zero to my parents. I didn't want to hear their opinions about my life choices. 

"Hey, Danny Boy! What are you doing here?" I ask him as he sits down across from me. He looked the same as the last time. This time, in a suit. 

"Oh, nothing. I just wanted to check up on you. It's been a while. Plus, mom and dad aren't happy with you." I rolled my eyes, sitting back in my chair. 

"I don't understand why they even bother. I didn't expect everything that happened to happen. I am trying to fix it now but it hasn't been easy, man." I try to explain to Daniel. He looked at me with concern, letting out a sigh and putting his hands together. 

"I get it. But, that doesn't mean to shut mom or dad out. Mom keeps wondering whether or not she should visit Willa and dad is trying to not kick your ass. They just don't understand why you didn't tell them."