The Forgotten Ones

Hopeless Days

Song: Tough by Quinn XCII ft. Noah Kahan

Alexander: 

Willa seemed okay just beside the head injury. Her memory has made just bits of improvement but nothing close enough to remember me.  Her parents did come in and out a lot but none of them really spoke about me being her ex-husband. We all wanted to hold off on that. The doctors told us that it is good for her to slowly regain those memories on her own rather than trying to force her to remember which could cause further damage. Willa has been getting used to me though, coming to her room and just taking care of her. We have gained that level of having a normal conversation rather than that awkward silence we would have. She does question me a lot though, especially when she watches the news and they are doing a story on me. 

Elizabeth has told the press that we are done and that the wedding has been called off. I did have a phone call with her about everything and telling her that I just can't go through with the wedding after everything that has happened between me and Willa. She was very angry about it, yelling at me about everything that I had done to her and making her go through so much stress over the wedding and just the media. We hadn't spoken since then. 

It's been raining all day, now dark out and still raining. Today is the last day that Willa is staying at the hospital. There is really no point in her staying anymore since her injuries have been improving really well and her memory isn't something they can fix. They say the brain is just very complicated and that if they try to fix it, they could make it worse rather than making it better. So they are just going to give her some meds and then set her free. Her parents said that they would take her to their house since it is so familiar to her and not the home she is living in. I had volunteered to grab her things from her actual home though since I know where it is at. They said they are fine with that since they want to just take of her first. 

Willa, currently laying on the hospital bed, was snoring a bit, something I have gotten used to. Also something I missed. I am glad she is getting a bit used to me being around but it still makes me sad that she doesn't remember either. I have been trying some small things to make her some things like showing her some photos of when we were together, mostly just photos of just her but they haven't been really working. She just looks at me a bit clueless and just tells me she can't remember but she does tell me how much she looks different. She says that she changed a lot. I nodded, remembering her from before we got married in the earlier stages of us dating. She was more...hidden. She wouldn't show a lot of her skin and wouldn't really dress up a lot but I guess hanging out with me changed her up a bit. She did always look beautiful in dresses and I just wanted her to realize that herself. But now that she is back to her old self, I don't think she will be wearing any dresses anytime soon. Not that I should be worried about that. I will just miss the confidence she had in herself. 

I sat there, my phone in hands, handling job things on my phone since I haven't been going in a lot anymore now that Willa has been in the hospital. So I have been making a lot of phone calls, emails, and just a whole lot of work. As I was typing away at my phone, I heard stirring from Willa, looking up, I saw her moving a bit, her eyes slowly fluttering open. I saw her look around for a bit before sitting up and giving out a short yawn, her eyes landing at me finally. I put my phone away, her eyes following my movements. 

"What time is it?" I checked my watch, "Eleven at night. Almost twelve." I said which did also shock me a bit too cause I am here so late. "Wow. Late. What you are still doing here?" She asks, her voice still a bit tired. Shrugging, I just gave out a sigh. "I didn't notice the time." I just said. She nodded, an awkward silence falling on us. After a while, she finally got up, going to the bathroom. I looked down at my phone, debating whether or not to go home since it is so late. But I might as well wait for a little while and probably stay until she falls back to sleep.