The Forgotten Ones

Easy

Song: Three by Sleeping at Last

Shoutout: 

Seeing Willa, I was really happy to see her and talking to her did make me feel whole. But thinking about everything and talking to her, I did get to have that understanding of what she was talking about throughout our conversation. She is going through a rough time and her memory being gone, it can't be good. And I can also understand why she would want to know who I am to her. It really isn't normal for me, a rich CEO businessman to be "friends" with someone like her. If I were her, I would also want to know who I was also. She is angry and she is confused all of which isn't a great combo. Thing is that she does have to understand that I can't tell her anything at all until she gains her memory back. It isn't until she gains her memory that she can finally know what has happened and know who I am. Then she will know the truth. I just don't know if she will like it.

I don't want her angry at me but at the same time, I don't want her to hate me for not telling her the truth. Just seems like both roads will lead her to be angry at me. This all still new to me and I am still trying to figure everything out. Being so far away from her though, it is hard because I don't know whether or not things are getting better with her or that things are going to get better with her. There is still that risk that she won't gain her memory back. I just don't like that I am just nothing to her but a stranger. Although I do deserve this because of what I have done to her. It's ironic. I forgot about her and think about her at all and now, she has forgotten me and even remember me. My life is such a mess. 

I did go back to work after my lunch meeting with Willa because work doesn't stop even with my personal drama thrown at it. So going back to work, I was in a somewhat grumpy mood but still continued with my job. There was a lot of filing and emailing with a lot of other partners as well as a few meetings and phone calls, all of which took up my whole day. Time had flown by as I sat at my desk, forgetting the world outside, even about Willa. I just forgot about everything and focused on my work. This is the main reason why I actually enjoy this job. It is because even with all the problems going on outside of work, I am able to come here and forget about the real world. Yes, the job is very busy and extremely rigorous, I enjoy it. So, as I continued my job and the day turned to night, it was time for everyone to head out. I was the last to leave the office, most of the lights in the building already shut off. I turned off my office light, had my jacket in hand and headed down towards the main lobby. I had locked the building, the security still in the building, nodding at me as I left. 

Driving home, I just enjoyed the drive in silence. I just began to drown myself in my thoughts. If Will were to find out, would be angry at me for keeping it a secret or for what I did to her? Of course, if she ever gained her memory, she will be angry regardless. I just don't want her to be so angry at me like before to the point where she can't near me or even look at me. I can understand that I have done a lot of dumb shit but at the same time, I have been trying my best to make her happy. I have been here and I have been doing my best to do whatever I can to make sure she doesn't hate me so much. Just seems like everything I do doesn't work. What can I do to make her less frustrated? Maybe I can ask her parents to take her out. Not tell her anything but take her somewhere significant that could jog her memory. Maybe that could help her. And if it doesn't, at least we would have spent time together. 

Arriving home, I had put my things down after entered the house, the overload of work that I did now finally hitting my body, now feeling tired. I was hungry though also since I didn't eat a lot for lunch since I had that conversating with Willa. I headed towards the kitchen and like a hungry person, I opened the fridge. I don't do my own grocery shopping, I usually have my cook do that for me so the fridge was stockpiled with a lot of vegetables and herbs and sauces. As someone who doesn't cook on a daily basis, I didn't know what to make out most of the food in the fridge. I saw some raw chicken breasts, lemons, herbs, and just decided to make a lemon pepper chicken with asparagus. Not too hard to make or complicated. So taking out the oil and all the ingredients, I started to cook the dinner, my stomach growing with more hunger as the aroma of the food filled the house.  As I was cooking the food, it was still hard for me to see what food goes first, just deciding to put the asparagus into the oven with the oven oil and some seasoning, cooking the chicken on the stove, somewhat putting random herbs and seasoning on top of it. From the smell, it seemed like it wasn't turning out bad. And by the end of it, after I set up my plate, the food didn't look bad either. I sat down at the dinner table and began to eat.