Under my Shell { a bowserxluigi fanfic }

Chapter 12: Alone with my thoughts

What was that feeling....? I look out the big window across from my bed. I look out to see the beautiful view of the Koopa Kingdom. Originally I had thought that the Kingdom was all lava and fire but it's beautiful.... All the horrible stories I've heard aren't true, they've never been true. A soft sigh escapes my lips. I begin to walk backwards until my body falls limp onto my new bed. I can't believe he kissed me, did he kiss me because he wanted to embarrass me and make me admit I'm gay ? Or... did he want to kiss me all along? He did say he wanted to do it since he first laid eyes on me but is that true...?

Gods, this bed is so comfortable. I'm definitely gonna have to come up with excuses to tell Mario so I can come use this bed every once in a while. Oh Mario.... How would you react if you knew Bowser was my first kiss. I remember the anger that flew off of him with Peach just simply because she asked me to go see Bowser. I cannot even imagine his reaction to knowing not only do I know visit the Koopa Kingdom, I am now a member of Bowsers Royal Court, and.... I kissed the King, also known as his sworn enemy. Gods what would Daisy's reaction be. Not only did I reject her and shatter her heart into pieces but I did it then Kisses a quote on quotes monster before I would kiss her. Oh she would declare war.... She would most definitely send troops to the Koopas and wreak havoc. Peach would oblige as well, seems Peach wants nothing more than to see the Koopas suffer.

But, Mario. Would he break his brothers heart, abandon his brother in his time of need to go fight against Bowser. Or would he listen.... And support me and only want my happiness....? Oh gods I cannot do this. That feeling I got when I saw him for the first time, ignore it. That feeling I got when he said he wants to be around me, ignore it. That feeling I got when I saw him looking nicer than usual all because I was coming, ignore it. The kiss, the kiss that was my first. The kiss that warmed my heart and my soul. The kiss he wanted so badly, ignore it.

I stare up looking at the ceiling, I start to feel a lump in my throat that is all so familiar. Moments later I can feel a warm stream appear on my cheek. I take a deep breath trying to hold it all in, no what's the point. I look around the bed grabbing the first pillow I saw before pushing my face into it and screaming as loud as I can. All my energy I'm sinking into this scream, tears shooting out onto the same pillow as my heart slowly breaks.

It's not fair !

I have to sacrifice what would seem to make me happy. All because it would be unacceptable, I've been doing this my whole life. I just want to be happy. Why is it that I've been in the shadows my whole life, I've been Mario's brother who hangs in the house all day and cleans since Mario is so busy. What do I get for sticking to the shadows ? Nothing, I get a boring lonely life. Some would say that's peace. But how can it be peace when it lacks happiness ? How can peace be so lonely ? I let the pillow go, my screams silence and my tears slowly fading into a dry nothing. I sigh softly before sitting up on the bed slowly. This room will probably always be empty and undecorated. I don't see myself bringing items from my house without Mario asking questions. There's a slight soft knock at the door. At first I don't acknowledge it because it was soft but a second knock started a couple of seconds after the last. Then a voice I don't recognize.

"Mr. Luigi, my dad sent me to come get you. He said that he'll meet you at the Garden entrance." I hurriedly come to my feet and open the door.

"Hi, you must be-"

"Oh goodness are you okay ??" He asks before rushing in and closing the door behind him. "What's wrong your eyes are all puffy and your face is red." I'm shocked by this, of course I should have washed my face and made sure I looked okay before opening the door to him. I turn around smiling at him.

"Oh I'm just so overwhelmed by all of this. Being treated like this it's all so nice !" I say in the most convincing tone I could mutter.

"Oh so their tears of joy !" He says is a happier tone. "Well, I hope you enjoy everything Mr. Luigi ! Don't forget to go down to the garden to see dad !" He says before closing the door behind him. I listen as he thuds away, not quite as loud as his dad but still pretty loud. Well, Bowser is raising a very nice child. He actually showed concern when he say me crying. Most kids probably wouldn't have noticed or even cared for enough to ask but he did. I'd say Jr. is a reflection of Bowsers character. I wish the mushroom kingdom could witness the things I have. They'd have nothing to fear and we could all live in peace. I let out a soft sigh looking around the room once more until my eyes fix upon the bathroom.

I should definitely make sure I don't look like something that would cause Bowser to freak out. I make my way over to the bathroom, feeling around the wall for a switch. It takes a couple of seconds but finally I flip the light on and step into the mirror. Oh, it doesn't look to bad, just should wash my face off with some water. I turn the facet on before looking around. I see a couple of towels and cloths folded for me. I grab a cloth soaking it in the nice warm water before brining it to my face, softly scrubbing all the sadness away. After a couple of second I squeeze the water out of the cloth into the sink before tossing it into the hamper they set up for me. I grab a soft towel patting my face dry before putting it back. Okay, I look better now. I flick the light off and make my way over to the bedroom door. Alright to the garden Luigi, and please don't fall in love.